Peter's Blog

Is blogging dying?

2011-03-03T14:44:00.001+07:00

It’s been like forever since I last updated this blog.

I just don't feel the passion in blogging like I used to. This isn't 2007 anymore. It's 2011 and I think the media is changing. And sitting in front of your computer writing long babbles isn't my thing anymore.

Now that people are over flooded with information, nobody cares about a blog, well, maybe there are few friends out there still actively blog walking to your blog , but that's all. Sad.

I feel blogging is, uh, dying.. Now that we have facebook and twitter (Okay, i take back my words on Twitter. Twitter is awesome! :D), how could a blog keep up with those effective media streaming real time information?

Still, this is the best place for writing and practicing your writing skills, sharing a secret crush, copying a song lyric you got from metrolyrics, etc. You know, doing things you don't want your facebook friends know, but you still want to publish it online :p (read: teens thing)

Umm yeah, so I'm not expecting myself to routinely post things here anymore.. But I might occasionally.. :p

2011 Resolution

2011-01-09T23:55:00.001+07:00

Happy belated new year!

I'm gonna make new year's resolution this year. Yeah, although the new year celebration has passed like 10 days ago, it's still in the beginning of January, there's still a plenty of new year's spirit. Besides, a resolution or two may make my life not so aimless and pathetic as usual.

Ok, so here's the list:
1. search for God more like liz gilbert did. Be open to all teachings. Take what's good, throw away what's bad.
2. help a less fortunate family.
3. be a very bright person, so that I inspire people.
4. help another less fortunate family.
5. no more selfishness.
6. enjoy life.
7. donate a set of computer to my cousins - God, they need them.
8. be a good employee, in whatever company I'll work in.

That's all of my resolutions this year, though it sounds more like a list of prayers. But I think it's simple yet enough for something that took only 10 minutes to write. Hehe.

Let's live 2011 and beyond to the fullest!

Giving up?

2010-12-30T19:46:00.001+07:00

You know that frustrating moment when you just want to lose everything, being careless, turning into a total looser? Yeah, I'm having one. :( We can always give up on this life at any moment.

But although we'll always have that easy option to give up, we shouldn't. We just can't.

If you sit back, and think about your life, there has to be those reasons why you should always staying strong. Mine? My loved ones, my family, my sisters, myself, my dream of rocking a Ferrari under California's sunset - O.K, the last one is a different kind of turn on - rather worldly matters :p - but you get the idea. Chase your dream.

Oh, here are some quotes about life I got from Twitter. I love quotes, especially during rough times.

"If you want to be happy, be."

"It's your decisions, not your conditions which shape your life."

And - I've always say this to myself when I'm down,

"Get a life"

--hey, I finally found one use of Twitter!--

Cheer up everyone! And you know what can make you feel better? Write something! Share it! Tweet, blog, update your status, make a note, publish it! I feel better now that I just wrote something down. It feels like you've just shouted so loud your stress just gone. Let it go!

Whenever - The Black Eyed Peas [lyrics]

2010-12-19T21:15:00.001+07:00

Look through the tree
Past the sky
Beyond the northern light
You will see my delight
'Flecting in your eyes

And I won't let go if you wait for me
Whenever whatever
And then you select the destination
Whatever wherever
I wanna go
Whatever wherever
I wanna go

I-wa i-wa i wanna
Love forever love forever baby
Forever wherever you wanna go with me
To do whatever do whatever baby
Forever wherever forever together
Whatever

I fell asleep
Don't know why
You let me come alive
You and me, we collide
Ignite the starry fire

And you warm me up and you wait for it
Whenever whatever
And then you, you wake me up and you wait for it
Whenever wherever
I wanna go
Whatever wherever
I wanna go

I-wa i-wa i wanna
Love forever love forever baby
Forever wherever you wanna go with me
To do whatever do whatever baby
Forever wherever forever together

Whatever whatever
Whatever whatever
Whatever whatever
Whatever whatever

I love you forever and ever
For always i love you
Whenever you need me
I'll be right there by you
Whenever you call me
I'm there when you call
Whenever your falling
I'm there when you fall

Wherever you going
I'll be right there showing
Our love's always growing
And growing and growing
I know that you know it
There's no need for guessing
When i am requested
I'm there with no questions asked

I'll go wherever whenever
If ever you need me
I'll be there forever

=)

Waiting is Painful

2010-12-15T19:25:00.001+07:00

Especially when you don't know what to do.
You just sit there and hope for a miracle to happen.
You don't know how all of this gonna end.

I'm nervous.
I feel empty.
I'm sick with all of this.
I'm bored.

I'm angry.
I'm hoping.
I'm tired of hoping.

I want this.
I want that.
I don't know what I'm wishing for.
I'm asking.
I don't know whether it will be answered.

-postingan labil malam ini-

“Titian Karir Terpadu ITB 2010”

2010-10-19T09:15:00.001+07:00

Let’s start some babbles…

Bridging the Academic and Industrial World Through ITB Career Expo 2010

by Peter Tobing

The ITB Career Expo 2010 held in Sasana Budaya Ganesha, Bandung from October 15^th to 17^th is one of the biggest job exhibition in Indonesia. The hype of the exhibition brings thousands of fresh university graduates and jobseekers from all over the country to gather in this annual event.

Nur (21), a fresh graduate in electrical engineering from ITB says that she is very excited with the expo as she finally could try her luck in pursuing her dream job in a multinational company. As with Nur, many other participants are very grateful for PCAD ITB for successfully collaborating with the companies and for hosting the event. “I am thankful for this career expo. This means a lot for me and my friends here. We’re just graduated from college and this kind of event acts as a bridge between the academic and the industrial world. It really helps me looking for a job easily. I hope I can start my career path soon within one of the companies in here”, says Irvan (22), one of the participant that feels glad he can attend and get involved in the Career Expo vibe.

This year’s Career Expo showcases more than 50 top companies profile in Indonesia. Most of them are engineering based company, ranging from oil & gas, mining, plantation, telecommunications, IT , banking, manufacturing industries, media, and consulting industries. Each company showcases their company profile and announces available job vacancies in their booth, with a cv drop box for easy job application. Jobseeker may directly submit their résumé to the box or via online application.

Company X, one of the top oil & gas company has been the top favorited company for years. As with preceding years, the queuing line in X’s stand has never been short. Jobseekers & university graduates seem to show high interest in working in the company. “The salary here is the highest paid from all other companies they say. And with so many jobseekers coming nationwide, competitions are going to be tough”, tells Herman (24), while standing in line for application.

Naya, Bunz, Manto, pinjem nama lo2 pada ya buat di artikel geje ini.. hehe.. To the rest of Geng Kampung-ers yg blom dapet kerjaan (hefri, agi, gue, naya, manto, bunz), mudah2an cepet dapet, & semoga kita bisa jadi berkah dimanapun kita nanti bekerja.. Amin.

Finding a Job

2010-10-19T08:36:00.001+07:00

I’ve made a final decision that instead of continuing my study to a master degree, I am going to find a job first. Period. Sure it’s nice to have an even higher degree, a Master degree overseas, what kind of typical Indonesian student doesn’t want it? But I’ve come into a comfort settlement to not rushing into the – what I can think about it at the moment – unclear state of being prestigious by extending your last name with embel2 MT or MBA.

*righttt… I just haven’t found yet the true meaning of obtaining a master degree other than getting a slightly higher job position with a slightly higher paycheck. And, to be honest, I am somewhat quite tired of another years of study. 16 years of study, study, and study. I want to do something else! At least, that’s all I can think about it right now. What is the true meaning of a master degree anyway? I hope I’ll find it out someday*

This October, right before my graduation, there is this ITB Job Fair, held for 3 days. I of course don’t want to waste my chances of getting a job. So I printed like 10 résumés and was spamming like every company’s booth back there. LOL. I Look like a desperate jobseeker. A bad one.

Among all of the companies I applied to – most of them are technology based companies – I nyelenehly applied to an unpredictable position at a company which seems totally unrelated with my background degree: A reporter for a local English newspaper. Why nyeleneh? Because most people would think why would an engineer, from a so-called top university, with a not too bad GPA, and some good technical experience get into journalistic world? What about those crazy 4 hard-working years?

Ah.. Screw you people. I can do anything I want. Who knows what future holds? Besides, those job applications are still on process, I don’t know which will be the one.

Bismillah.

Sidang Tugas Akhir

2010-09-22T21:04:00.001+07:00

Semalaman saya susah tidur. Jantung berdegup kencang, pikiran kemana-mana, berkeringat dingin, dan gejala-gejala sidang lainnya sepertinya lengkap dan memuncak pada malam H-1 sidang kemarin. Tadi malam, saya tak henti-hentinya berusaha memasrahkan diri kepada Tuhan. Berdoa. Khusyuk. Akhirnya bisa tertidur juga walau mungkin cuma 3-4 jam?

Dengan bantuan alarm hp, saya bisa bangun jam 05.00 tepat subuh tadi. Mama juga sudah saya minta tolong malam sebelumnya untuk membangunkan pagi-pagi sekali via telepon. Tentunya tidur saya tidak pulas, mengingat tidur hanya sebentar, sehingga badan saya masih terasa pegal-pegal dan tidak sepenuhnya segar. Tetapi, begitu bangun tidur pikiran saya langsung teringat, "Ini Hari-H!", adrenalin pun muncul lagi.

Saya mandi. Berpakaian rapih, memakai kostum sidang lengkap. Sarapan. Kemudian bersiap-siap berangkat ke kampus. Semua keperluan sidang sudah saya persiapkan malam sebelumnya: dua buah laptop beserta charger untuk presentasi dan demo, backup slide presentasi di flash drive, handout slide presentasi, satu salinan draft TA yang selama ini saya gunakan, sebotol minum, satu box tissue (berguna sekali kalau anda suka berkeringat dingin kalau grogi!), dan tidak lupa kamera digital :)

Jam 07.15 saya tiba di lab radar. Ternyata cuma ada Ilma, sahabat saya yang ingin menonton sidang TA saya. Para staff lab radar belum ada yang datang! Untungnya ruangan sidang saya tidak dikunci sehingga saya bisa masuk dan memasang laptop untuk presentasi, serta membiasakan diri dengan ruangan tersebut. Beberapa saat kemudian, Pak Kus datang dan membawakan projector. Saya langsung memasang dan mengatur projector tersebut. Selanjutnya saya masih sempat latihan sidang sebentar, disaksikan oleh Ilma dan Ai. Untunglah penontong sidang TA saya tidak banyak, mengingat banyak teman saya lainnya sedang sibuk dengan deadline draft TA untuk besok, sementara beberapa teman lainnya terlalu enggan untuk bangun jam 7 pagi untuk melihat saya sidang. Hehe.. Tetapi saya merasa lebih nyaman dengan kondisi penonton sedikit tersebut.

Sekitar jam 08.15 para dosen penguji dan dosen pembimbing saya telah berada di ruang sidang. Sidang pun siap dimulai. Format sidang di jurusan saya dibagi ke dalam tiga sesi: (1) 15 - 20 menit presentasi TA, (2) 60 - 90 menit sesi tanya jawab dengan para dosen penguji, dan (3) +- 5 menit sesi rapat pleno para dosen penguji untuk menentukan hasil sidang TA.

Pada sesi pertama, saya diberi kesempatan membawakan presentasi laporan TA saya. Menurut Ai dan Ilma, presentasi saya di waktu sidang jauh lebih baik pada saat latihan dengan mereka. Syukurlah. Selama ini saya berdoa agar saya dapat menyampaikan presentasi TA dengan tenang, menggunakan bahasa baku yang baik, dan tidak terburu-buru. Selain itu, menurut teman-teman saya juga, slide presentasi saya juga bagus. :) Saya pun mengakui, saya suka dengan desain dan tema yang saya gunakan pada slide presentasi saya. Saya membuat desain slide ini sendiri, dengan mengambil gambar latar belakang dari internet tentunya, ditambah dengan sedikit keahlian photoshop amatir. :D Berikut ini beberapa contohnya.

Setelah saya menyampaikan presentasi, sesi selanjutnya adalah sesi tanya jawab. Menurut beberapa pengalaman teman, sesi ini paling sulit dan menegangkan - tidak jarang ada dosen penguji yang 'membantai' mahasiswa dengan berondongan pertanyaan dan argumen fatal! Lagi, saya berdoa agar saya dapat mengerti dan menjawab pertanyaan-pertanyaan dari para dosen penguji dengan baik, tidak nyolot dan ngeyel (karena - jujur - saya mungkin salah satu orang paling nyolot yang pernah anda temui), serta bisa menerima kritik dan masukkan dari para dosen dengan terbuka. Dan syukurlah, sesi tanya jawab yang saya alami tadi ternyata tidak sebegitu menegangkan seperti yang diceritakan orang-orang. Para dosen penguji cukup ramah, dan sering berkelakar, suasananya santai, pertanyaan-pertanyaan para dosen bisa saya jawab dengan baik. Menurut saya, sesi tanya jawab tadi lebih mengarah kepada bentuk diskusi yang bertujuan untuk eksplorasi ilmu pengetahuan dan pengembangan kemajuan teknologi, alih-alih berbentuk sidang penghakiman 3 lawan 1. Sesi tanya jawab ini juga ternyata tidak terlalu lama, hanya 1 jam! Durasi ini boleh dikatakan cukup singkat untuk sebuah sesi tanya jawab sidang TA.

Sesi terakhir adalah rapat pleno para dosen penguji untuk menentukan nilai akhir sidang TA saya. Para dosen berdiskusi dan mengambil keputusan selama kurang lebih 5 menit. Setelah itu, hasilnya diumumkan kepada saya.

Saya, Peter Hamonangan L. Tobing - 13206092, dinyatakan lulus, dengan nilai sidang TA Baik Sekali, atau - saya lebih suka mengatakannya - A! :D

Saya merasa gembira dan bersyukur sekali hari ini. Akhirnya kuliah selama 4 tahun usai juga. TA - yang begitu banyak menyita waktu, pikiran, hati, emosi, tenaga, kesehatan, dan keuangan saya selama setahun belakangan ini - akhirnya memberikan hasil yang sangat memuaskan. Hari ini indah sekali =')

bunz, gue, ai, ilma – setelah sidang

Thanks God, thanks everyone! (mama, papa, uli, baby, pak hendrawan, pak adit, pak tutun, pak iskandar, bunz, ilma, ai, oryza, dito, jeffrey, giri, rara, hefri, yuris, wayan, naya, roy, ananto, dita, ling2, frida, hermanto, firman, anggita, hana, shendi, totz, shiddiq, mbasus, gandhi, mey, marie, febria, trias, tante mirna, tante ina, tulang leo, tulang & nantulang didot, ari, uda mulya, amang tua, namboru & amangboru, semua yang tidak bisa saya sebutkan satu persatu) GBU all!

UML are so..

2010-08-16T17:21:00.001+07:00

~~GAY~~ ridiculous

real programmer use code/pseudo code/flowchart to understand. period.

aku bak sang surya?

2010-08-13T19:00:00.001+07:00

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

iseng-iseng kuis tarot. cukup akurat, tapi kayaknya emang semua kuis2 begini yang dimasukin yang baik2 deh –_-!! what are u?

Lari pete!!

2010-07-23T11:34:00.001+07:00

26 Agustus

adalah deadline pengumpulan draft. Minggu depan musti presentasi TA dulu ke pembimbing + sebagian draft. Semoga sukses.

Bismillah.

C.I.N.T.A – d’Bagindaz

2010-07-11T14:10:00.001+07:00

Berapa kali ku harus katakan cinta
berapa lama ku harus menunggumu
Diujung gelisah ini aku
tak sedetikpun tak ingat kamu
namun dirimu masih begitu
acuhkanku tak mau tahu
(*)
Luka, luka, luka yang kurasakan
bertubi, tubi, tubi engkau berikan
cinta ku bertepuk sebelah tangan
tapi aku balas senyum keindahan
Reff :
Bertahan satu cinta, bertahan satu C.I.N.T.A
bertahan satu cinta, bertahan satu C.I.N.T.A
Pernahkah engkau sejenak mengingat aku,
pernahkah ingat walau seperti angin berlalu
Disetiap malam kini aku
tak sedetikpun tak ingat kamu
namun dirimu masih begitu
acuhkanku, tak mau tahu
back to : (*), Reff, (*) , Reff (2x)

lirik dari sini

Pertama kali denger lagu ini waktu di carrefour. Trus nyangkut sampe sekarang. Trus suka. :p Menurut saya lagunya bagus, simpel, catchy. Tetapi banyak juga yang ga suka lagu ini. Liat aja komentar2 di youtube, tidak sedikit yang mencaci maki (ada yg mengganti lirik “ce-i-en-te-a” dengan “te-i-en-je-a” dong), ada yg bilang nama bandnya ga banget, penyanyinya bindeng, mellow2 najis, alay, mencoreng citra musik indonesia, dsb. Publik emang kejam yah?.

Band-band melayu emang berjamuran. Emang sih, kalo kebanyakan lama-lama orang bosan. Tapi ini masalah selera aja toh? Ada yang demen, ada yg ga. Kalau ada yang bagus dan kita suka, why not?

*yay di blog gue ada satu postingan tentang band melayu!!*

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Sometimes we just don’t understand…

2010-06-29T09:40:00.001+07:00

dapet dari febria. bagus banget. share ke temen2 yah. :-)

Ranah dan Wacana

2010-06-22T22:21:00.001+07:00

Judul postingan di atas mungkin terdengar aneh. Apa sih maksudnya?

“Ranah” dan “Wacana” adalah dua kata-kata favorit saya saat ini :). Itu saja. Hehe. Entah kenapa, akhir-akhir ini saya senang sekali menggunakan kata-kata tersebut dalam berbagai ranah.. Ups.. Sampai-sampai saya merasa bahwa saya telah berlebihan menggunakan dua kata-kata tersebut serta tidak pada tempatnya. Contoh:

RANAH
“Gosip ini jangan sampai bocor ke ranah publik yah!”
”Teman saya gemar berdiskusi tentang kemajuan bangsa dalam ranah teknologi”
”Hati-hati dalam menyimpan informasi pribadi di ranah dunia maya”
”Ranah, papa mana?”
”Ranah air ku tidak kulupakan”
”Ranah di ranah anak kambing saya…”
”Aku lagi ranah sama kamu. Kamu ngeselin”

WACANA
“Ke Ciwalk yuk! Karaokean kita” “Ah, paling wacana doang”
”Apa kabar wacana beres-beres lab?”
”Geng omdo sekali lagi sukses membuat wacana sekedar wacana belaka”
”Geng omdo adalah cikal bakal berdirinya PT. Wacana Abadi yang menjual omongan semata”
”Bikin wacana ke Bali yok!” “Wacana doang kan? Tuh si X jagonya”

Haha.. Postingan yang aneh. Eh, tetapi saya jadi ingat bahwa sebenarnya dari dulu yang namanya catchphrase selalu ada dan terus berkembang dari jaman ke jaman. Beberapa yang populer antara lain (seingat saya):

“Please deh!”
”Ya iya lah, masa ya iya dong. Rihanna aja umbrella ella ella, masa umbredong edong edong”
”So what gitu loh”
”Au ah gelap!”
”Emang gue pikirin!”
dsb…

Btw, tepat ga sih kalimat-kalimat di atas disebut sebagai catchphrase? Ah, terserah lah..

Ngomong-ngomong, catchphrase yang lagi “in” apa ya? Hehe maklum sudah lama tidak berkecimpung dalam ranah pergaulan anak muda *halah*

Susah Konsentrasi

2010-06-22T15:55:00.001+07:00

Pekerjaan saya akhir-akhir ini banyak menggunakan komputer. Membaca paper, menulis, coding, dsb. Padahal sebenarnya saya tidak terlalu suka bekerja terus menerus di depan komputer. Mata saya cepat sekali lelah. Apalagi saya harus memakai kacamata apabila bekerja di depan komputer.

Hal lain yang membuat saya tidak begitu senang bekerja di depan komputer adalah susahnya berkonsentrasi. Ya, belakangan ini begitu banyaknya godaan yang ada di komputer saya (game, film, BROWSING, etc).

Beberapa teman saya tampaknya mudah sekali mengatasi godaan-godaan media digital ini (apa sih tipsnya?). Tetapi apalah saya ini, manusia lemah yang sering terjerumus ke dalam jurang godaan. Kalau lagi stuck dengan pekerjaan, pikiran saya seringkali buyar, saya malah bermain-main game, iseng-iseng buka ini itu. Saya baru bisa fokus lagi beberapa waktu (bisa beberapa jam) setelahnya, tetapi itupun masih dalam keadaan stuck, walhasil saya malah kembali ngalor-ngidul. Padahal saya tahu saya harus dengan segera menyelesaikan kerjaan-kerjaan tsb.

Pekerjaan yang paling membutuhkan konsentrasi menurut saya adalah membaca dan memahami materi di depan komputer. Terutama apabila materi bacaannya ~~tidak menarik~~ sulit. Misalnya memahami cara kerja suatu algoritma, memahami prosedur, mempelajari syntax-syntax pemrograman, dsb. Kalau materinya seperti itu, saya butuh waktu lama untuk memahaminya, dan dalam proses memahami itu saya malah jadi sering ngalor ngidul melakukan hal-hal lain, alih-alih memusatkan perhatian. Sebenarnya tidak hanya membaca dan memahami materi, menulis dan “berkarya” (coding, membuat analisis, menulis laporan, ber-engineer ria, dsb) pun seperti itu.

Kalau sudah kelamaan stuck saya memutuskan untuk beristirahat, berdoa sungguh-sungguh. Lalu, saya memutuskan untuk sebisa mungkin mengerjakan semuanya tidak menggunakan komputer. Jadi, materi yang susah saya mengerti, saya print terlebih dahulu; menulis saya lakukan di atas buku tulis, hal-hal seperti itu. Dengan demikian, resiko terjerumus godaan berbagai macam hiburan di komputer bisa ditekan. Selain itu, membaca bacaan dari kertas (printed paper) lebih ramah-mata (eye friendly?) daripada menggunakan monitor komputer. Walhasil, saya lebih mudah berkonsentrasi. Sayangnya, hal ini boros kertas, sekalipun kertas recycle :( . Tetapi apa boleh buat. Saya musti bisa berkonsentrasi. Maafkan saya ibu alam (mother nature?).

Susah nih. Boleh dibilang saya seorang yang computer literate, tetapi saya lebih memilih untuk bekerja sesedikit mungkin di depan komputer.

22

2010-06-21T18:15:00.001+07:00

“Ada orang yang dengan mudahnya mencapai sesuatu dgn effortless.. Sementara yang lain berjuang mati-matian, dan belum tentu mendapatkannya. Ini bukan keadilan murni. Ini situasi dimana kemujuran memiliki peran. Yes, I also believe in luck”

Anyway, Happy birthday to me!! Di usia yang ke-22 ini saya sangat bersyukur telah dikasih kehidupan yang indah.. Setelah saya pikir dan renungkan, saya ternyata masih sering buta dan tidak tahu terima kasih atas kasih dan berkat Tuhan yang begitu banyak ke saya. Tuh lihat saja dari kalimat pembuka postingan blog ini.. Masih penuh dengan nada iri dan ketidakpuasan.. *Berlebihan ah..* Haha.. Padahal pete, apa sih kurangnya lo? Keluarga komplit, punya rumah, masih bisa kuliah, di ganesha 10 pula, masih bisa makan, masih bisa sekali2 nonton bioskop, masih bisa DDR-an, masih bisa main musik, masih bisa naik angkot, punya banyak teman, keluarga penyayang.. Itu semua masih kurang? Memangnya kamu mau apa?

Kurang.. Manusia memang ga pernah puas. Tak terkecuali saya. Saya ingin lebih. Saya tidak ingin hanya sebatas ini. Bukan berarti saya rakus. Percayalah, pada akhirnya saya hanya ingin bisa memberi, menjadi berkat bagi orang lain, menolong orang lain. Mungkin itu sebabnya saya ingin lebih, membangun fondasi diri. I want more! MORE!! Tunggu, bukankah ini adalah strategi tipikal orang-orang? Haruskah saya merasa bersalah mengutamakan kepentingan pribadi? Saya hanya ingin bermaksud baik.

Love yourself first. That’s what they say. Tapi haruskah melakukannya dengan menjadikan diri saya hamba uang? hamba kesuksesan? Astaga, apa tujuan hidup saya hanya untuk membuat uang dan membagi-bagikan uang? 22 tahun. Hampir seperempat abad. Masih banyak kabut di jalan kehidupan saya. Tapi yang saya tahu, saya mau sukses dunia dan akhirat.

Happy birthday juga buat papa & uli. Satu tahun telah kita lewati dan kita masih bisa ulang tahun barengan, meskipun misah-misah tempat. Thx to skype & fb & sms & all sort of communication techies. Wish you all the happiness, health, and lots of success!! Wish me all the best too! ;D

God, help me graduate this year please… I want it so bad I need Your help, my Lord..

Disclaimer: I don’t own all of these pics. They’re just so cool.

Morning!

2010-06-17T08:37:00.001+07:00

(picture from here)

Ayo pete! Semangat!!

*tiap hari dikasih kata2 ‘semangat’.. mudah2an beneren jadi semangat dan ga bosan disemangatin*

Sidang anak2 telmat

2010-06-15T23:13:00.001+07:00

Hari ini saya menyaksikan sidang TA 5 teman se-lab: Naya, Wayan, Yuris, Jefri, Hefri. Semuanya disidang hari ini, 15 Juni 2010. Dari yang paling pagi, Naya jam 07.00, sampe Hefri jam 13.00. Alhamdulillah mereka semua lulus dengan nilai bagus-bagus.

Dari sini juga saya jadi lebih tahu bagaimana rasanya disidang, pertanyaan-pertanyaan seperti apa saja yang dilontarkan para dosen penguji, dosen penguji X orangnya seperti apa, dosen penguji Y orangnya seperti apa. Mudah-mudahan saya akan cukup siap nanti sewaktu sidang TA saya.

Sorenya, beberapa dari kami mampir makan malam di MCCF dalam perjalanan pulang ke tempat masing-masing. Ngobrol seputar sidang tadi. Menyenangkan :) .

DI perjalanan pulang saya baru menyadari kenyataan, bahwa mungkin saya akan jarang serkali bertemu dengan mereka-mereka lagi mulai saat ini. Beberapa dari mereka sudah sibuk magang, beberapa mau pulang ke kampung halamannya masing-masing, yang jelas rata-rata dari mereka sudah tidak ada lagi yang punya kepentingan untuk ngampus. Mungkin hanya akan ketemu sekali nanti pada tanggal 17 Juli, saat mereka di wisuda. Tetapi setelah itu?

Sekarang mereka telah lulus. Semangat dan kesuksesan mereka seharian ini telah menjadi inspirasi buat saya untuk mengerjakan Tugas Akhir dengan baik dan segera menyusul mereka yang telah lulus dengan hasil yang baik pula.

Saya terharu memikirkan ini semua tadi, memikirkan bahwa sekelompok sahabat yang sudah sering bersama-sama selama 2 tahun di Teknik Telekomunikasi ITB, akhirnya akan berpisah juga. =’) Agak sedih juga yah?

Waktu pertama kali menempati lab baru bersama anak2 telematika, Februari 2010. Kiri-kanan: Wayan, Jeffrey, Hefri, Yuris, saya, Naya. Kurang lengkap dengan Bunz, Joice, Firman, Giri, Rara.

Time flies so fast… I can only try to value them.

Oh No! - Marina & The Diamonds

2010-06-15T22:28:00.001+07:00

Don't do love, don't do friends
I'm only after success
Don't need a relationship
I'll never soften my grip

Don't want cash, don't want card
Want it fast, want it hard
Don't need money, don't need fame
I just want to make a change
I just wanna change (x4)

CHORUS:
I know exactly what I want and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine
I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy
Oh, oh no, oh no, oh no

 
One track mind, one track heart
If I fail, I'll fall apart
Maybe it is all a test
Cause I feel like I'm the worst
So I always act like I'm the best

If you are not very careful
Your possessions will possess you
TV taught me how to feel
Now real life has no appeal
It has no appeal (x4)

(chorus repeat twice)

I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly,
I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna die,
I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly
I'm gonna fail, gonna die, die, die, die

(chorus repeat twice)

Da-da-dum...
Oh, oh no, oh no, oh no

Lyrics taken from here.

Marina Diamandis a.k.a “Marina & The Diamonds” is a 24 year old indie-pop singer from Wales. I just got her album titled “The Family Jewel” last week and I instantly fell in love with her voice & music style. I love every track on it, they’re all fun to listen and catchy. Her voice is bold and edgy, and she has a wide tonal range too. I think she sounds more like a combination between Katy Perry, Charlotte Church, The Ting Tings… Err that’s what I think. I love how she vocalizing the lyrics on most the tracks, very lively, passionate. Lyrics are so real as what a mid-20 young woman would shout to the world.

The lyrics above is from one of my favorite tracks on the album, titled “Oh No!”. Somehow I feel this song describes my current pace of living: I’m ambitious and I want everything done fast and perfect. :D

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My battle against negative thoughts

2010-06-13T09:13:00.007+07:00

I've been dealing with lots of negative thoughts lately. I worried too much, I felt like I'm not a winner anymore, like I will never get things done properly. I loose my confidence easily. But as always, I'm not showing it to everyone - put on a fake smile all the time, trying to be optimist. Thank goodness I still able to keep my head held high. But still, there's a huge force inside me battling against these negative thoughts, prejudice to other people, worries, etc. What's happening to me?

Seriously, I have to get rid these things off from my mind. They say thoughts affect your performance, your health, your everything. And just find out it's true. Everyday I wake up in the morning, and my mind already occupied with worries. They stay there all day long, till I go to sleep, and they still there when I wake up the next day. Living with worries doesn't get me anywhere. I can not concentrate with my jobs, I can't enjoy my life, I feel like I'm at the lowest part of the society. And I spend the rest of my day just to feel like a looser, being nervous all day long, sweating, heart beating all the time, frowning, being sad all the time. You couldn't think other than your life sucks.

So now I know that negative thoughts could kill me. And I won't let it happen. Because thankfully, I still got a piece of winner left in me. I will not lose to stupid thoughts and unreasonable worries. I must start my day everyday as a winner. Look at problems as they were not a problem. If I get bad result from negative thoughts, then once I replace them with positive ones, I'll start having positive results :)

Keep smiling, walk and act confidently, look at problems as if they were cool and challenging, pray, enjoy the world, help other people, accept yourself :D

kata2 penyemangat hari ini:

2010-05-18T16:08:00.001+07:00

“problems can

only make me

stronger”

Dikutip dari status ymnya marie. Terkadang status orang2 ada yang bisa bikin kita ikutan semangat. Makasih ya orang2.

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Happy birthday ma!

2010-05-12T09:26:00.001+07:00

It’s her birthday today, and this is all I can text her this morning:

Mungkin untuk saat ini saya baru bisa ngasih sebatas ucapan. Tapi percaya ma, ucapan selamat ulang tahun di atas beneran doa tulus dari seorang anak yang sayang sama ibunya.

Oh ya, balesannya seperti ini:

“Tq my lovely son. Jesus Blesses You… in your life!!”

Dan seketika itu juga saya tahu, itu ucapan dan doa yang tulus dari seorang ibu yang sangat sayang sama anaknya..

Tuhan terima kasih atas kasih sayang-Mu melalui adanya mama. Jagalah dia di hari tuanya, ketika saya tidak dapat berada di sampingnya. Dan bimbinglah aku selalu supaya dapat menjadi manusia yang berbakti kepada orang-orang yang telah mengasihiku selama ini.

Matius 22:37-39 “Kasihilah Tuhan, Allah-mu, dengan segenap hatimu dan dengan segenap jiwamu dan dengan segenap akal budimu. Itulah hukum yang terutama dan yang pertama. Dan hukum yang kedua, yang sama dengan itu, ialah: Kasihilah sesamamu manusia seperti dirimu sendiri”

Sedikit bersyukur karena IM di jaman sekarang sangat mudah dan user friendly

2010-05-08T19:11:00.001+07:00

IRC. Sekarang mah udah jarang, atau bahkan ga ada yang make lagi. Make IRC menurut gue ribet dan merepotkan. Mungkin juga emang karena gue udah dimanjain dengan tampilan messenger2 client terkini.

About screenshot di atas: Si rheza tiba2 ngajak chatting make irc, karena M2nya lemot, dan menurut dia IRC sangat hemat bandwidth (iya gitu? perasaan waktu test pake wireshark, ym ato msn ga gede2 banget ah packetnya..)

Hari terakhir kuliah di ITB

2010-05-07T21:10:00.001+07:00

*ehem, postingan kali ini rada-rada gimana gitu, gue aja setelah membacanya ga nyangka bisa nulis beginian*

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“Hari ini adalah hari terakhir saya mengenyam pendidikan sarjana di ITB”

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Akhir dari segala sesuatu biasanya punya kesan tersendiri. Seperti di hari terakhir kuliah di semester 8 ini. Beberapa hal yang berkesan yang gue temui hari ini:

Tadi siang di depan Circle-K Dayang Sumbi ada ibu2 pincang, pake tongkat, bersama anaknya (sekitar 10-12 tahunan).. Kita berpapasan di depan Circle-K, gue mau ke kampus lewat pintu belakang, si ibu mau menuruni jalan Dago. Awalnya gue beradu pandang dengan beliau, trus si ibu tiba-tiba ngomong,

“Dek, bisa bantu saya? Saya mau jual barang buat nebus ijazah anak saya di SD *apagituguelupa* ditunggu sama kepala sekolahnya sekarang..”.

Trus tiba-tiba aja mata si ibu jadi berkaca-kaca, nada bicaranya pun jadi memelas. Gue jadi iba, lalu bertanya “Jual apa bu?” “Ini baju saya” sambil menyodorkan kantong kresek yang dia bawa. Gue ga begitu jelas juga ngeliat seperti apa pakaian yang mau dijual ibu itu, trus gue tanya lagi, “Perlunya berapa bu?” “100 ribu nak”.. Wah lumayan juga, kasihan sekali ibu ini. Gue ga tega. Gue ngeluarin dompet, tapi ternyata isinya cuma ada uang lima ribu, sama ribuan, bingung juga.. “Err, bu ini bu saya cuma bisa ngasih segini, maaf ya bu, Tuhan berkati” Gue kasih duit 5 ribu itu, dan kita berpisah, ibu itu masih sesengukan..

Siangnya di kelas jarkomdat (a.k.a filosofi protokol), Pak Hari memberikan ~~semprotan2nya~~ kuliahnya yang terakhir ke kami, berikut ini adalah beberapa hal yang gue inget –other than materi kuliah tentunya- :

“Kalau saja ada 100 orang seperti Sri Mulyani di negara ini, saya yakin negara ini pasti maju.”

“Inget ya mas, kalau sampe umur 30 anda masih jadi kuli, sorry, sorry deh, you ga bakalan maju dong.. Harus sudah jadi pemimpin.”

“Gaji seorang dengan sertifikasi CCIE di indonesia berkisar Rp 4xx.xxx.xxx - 5xx.xxx.xxx, kalo di luar bisa US$ 150.000 – 300.000.”

“Saya lagi perlu orang untuk network administrator di singapur, gaji Rp 24jt/month, kalo ada yang berminat nanti saya hubungkan dengan partner cisco.. Tapi harus bisa beneran lho, jangan CCNA gadungan..”

Kalau diperhatikan, cerita pertama – Rp.100.000- sangat kontras dengan tawran cerita kedua – Rp 5xx.xxx.xx – Ironis.

Entah kenapa, akhir2 ini gue merasakan Indonesia udah dalam taraf sangat kasihan. Kuliah-kuliah pak Hari sering banget menyinggung malangnya nasib negara ini. Korupsi, kemiskinan, mental pemalas, dsb. Dan kita – kami - sebagai anak ITB – by which we have been claimed by many people to be – “putra putri terbaik bangsa”, sangat diharapkan kontribusinya bagi negara ini. And therefore we have to carry out the obligation to membawa perubahan bagi bangsa di masa depan.

Komentar gue: Rough job. Membawa kesejahteraan kepada ratusan juta kepala yang masing-masing sepertinya hanya memikirkan perut sendiri. Tetapi, jujur aja emang bangsa kita perlu orang pintar. Anyone from ITB?

Okelah. Kuliah 4 tahun di sini sangat memberikan pelajaran hidup yang berharga. Meskipun gue bukan anak KM ataupun aktif di himpunan, gue sedikit mengerti kok masalah masyarakat kita ini. Kan anak ITB cerdas2. Ya masa sih ga kritis dengan lingkungannya? Ya mungkin aja, kan otak, hati, dan perut adalah 3 hal yang berbeda pete. Hehe. Tapi yah gue bersyukur alhamdulillah masih dibekali pikiran dan hati nurani. Jujur, gue kritis kok, temen-temen gue juga banyak yang kritis terhadap ~~drama~~ keterpurukan di negara ini kok, meskipun gue tidak menunjukkan hal tsb dengan ikut2an organisasi2 apa gitu..

Karena itu, gue berjanji akan sebisa mungkin membawa perubahan bagi orang lain. Bagaimana caranya? Biarkan kepala dan hati ini bekerja. That’s all.

Bye-bye kuliah.. Come on, tinggal sedikit lagi di stage ini pete! And who knows what comes up next.. You decide.

BABI

2010-05-06T06:38:00.001+07:00

Ngedraft. Deadline 3 Juni. Sempet ga ya sempet ga ya? Ayo kerjakan sebisa mungkin!!

Dilemma

2010-04-23T21:02:00.001+07:00

The Pros:

Erasmus. Hello? prestise..
10 bulan di eropah. Hampir gratis.
TU Delft.

The Cons:

Non-degree
Cuma exchange
Kelulusan gue tertunda setahun, karena untuk eligible, gue masih harus menyandang status mahasiswa di sini

Bingung sumpah.

You can do it Pete!!

2010-04-21T09:45:00.001+07:00

Merasa perlu melampiaskan uneg-uneg yang udah bersarang di kepala akibat 2 huruf keramat semester ini: T & A.

Fokus. Ok. Jadi gue udah melakukan tindakan yang benar dengan berpuasa fb selama satu semester ini. Tadinya hal ini gue lakukan dengan harapan bisa fokus ngerjain TA. Tetapi ternyata yang namanya masalah ga cuma berasal external distraction seperti itu. Topik TA yang susah (ato disusah-susahin?) bisa bikin gue ga tenang 24/7. Seperti di minggu-minggu terakhir April ini. Dan kadang masih kurang bisa menolak godaan bermain & bersenang. Duh.

April. Dan gue menargetkan setidaknya 80% perancangan jadi akhir bulan ini. Mei nulis buku & optimasi. Juni ngumpulin draft kemudian sidang. Juli wisuda. Bahkan gue udah ngebayangin gue make toga dan sekeluarga dateng merayakan kelulusan gue. Sounds like a standard plan untuk anak tingkat 4. Ngomong & berandai-andai memang gampang yah? Ini tanggal 21 April dan TA gue baru berapa persen sih? Nggak banyak 40-50% udah bagus. Tapi setelah gue itung-itung, ternyata 80% itu masih feasible! Tentunya dengan kerja SUPER KERAS di penghujung april ini. So, mari berdarah-darah!

Stuck. Well, gak stuck-stuck amat sih. Karena gue yakin ini cuma masalah waktu aja sampai gue bener mengerti dan bisa menerapkan metode-metode canggih dari paper-paper referensi. Speaking about paper, gossip plagiat di sini sedang hangat-hangatnya. Pendapat gue: yah, kasihan, kurang beruntung, kurang cerdas, menyedihkan lah si mas-mas zul itu. Cukup membuat malu almamater & fakultas gue.

Perfection. Sisi idealis gue mungkin juga berkontribusi banyak terhadap proses pengerjaan tugas akhir ini yang lama banget progressnya ~~(padahal kadang emang rada malas)~~. Mahasiswa mana yang mau TA-nya ngasal? Nyontek? Plagiat? Jelas bukan gue. Tapi memang kadang muncul pikiran negatif dan mental tempe dalam diri gue, just set a lower standard pete, yang penting lulus deh. Nggak! selain bikin kepuasan buat diri sendiri karena telah mengerjakan tugas akhir dengan baik dan maksimal, konon katanya TA akan dibawa-bawa kalau mau melanjutkan ke S2 & phD, bahkan untuk beberapa kasus di dunia kerja.. that’s why I treat this final project very seriously, not taking it for granted.

A final word I must say, pilihlah topik TA yang bener-bener lo minati. Karena beberapa temen gue seperti rada enggan karena mesti belajar sesuatu yang baru yang belom tentu minat mereka. Gue, suka dengan topik TA gue, dan meskipun gue buta sama sekali tentang topik image processing ini pada awalnya, gue senang mempelajarinya. Dan, in case anda mendapat topik yang kurang sreg di hati, cuma ada dua pilihan: love it or leave it. :D

Bang lulus kapan? Diusahain Juli ma. Kalo nggak Oktober. Ok gapapa, santai aja jangan dibawa stress. Ok ma, doain. Luv ya.

SEMANGAT SEMUANYA!!

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Semester 8 and beyond…

2010-02-13T09:39:00.001+07:00

Baru bisa (baca: niat) bikin postingan blog lagi setelah sekian lama nih. Sayang juga ya melihat blog kepunyaan sendiri ga keurusan..

Saat ini gue sedang menduduki semester 8. Ini adalah semester terakhir gue di ITB. Amiin.. Kenapa mesti amin? Karena kita harus bersyukur bisa lulus tepat waktu.. Juli atau maksimal Oktober. Sebenernya sih gue tidak nafsu-nafsu amat ngejar juli. Tapi entah kenapa ada semacam paradigma di orang-orang sekitar bahwa lebih cepat lulus lebih baik. Iya sih, lulus berlama-lama memang menghabiskan waktu dan biaya..

Seorang senior gue pernah bilang bahwa yang penting adalah bukan lulus secepat-cepatnya, tetapi luluslah tepat pada waktunya. Apa itu “tepat pada waktunya”? Maksudnya adalah, “sudah siap jadi seorang sarjana”. Siap menghadapi kompleksnya dunia di luar sana. Kalau kita belum siap, mending cari bekal lebih banyak lagi sebelum lulus (bukan berarti lulusnya sengaja dilama-lamain juga lho).. Begitulah pesan mendalam nan inspiratif dari kawanku tersebut.

Ya, gue setuju dengan pernyataan tersebut. Saya pingin berbagi cerita nih. Ada ~~beberapa~~ banyak temen gue yang cum laude (maklum, jurusan freak). Dan mereka memang orang-orang oke punya, pintar-rajin-disiplin-pekerja keras-jujur-and a little bit of luck. Di mata gue, mereka adalah orang-orang yang kemungkinan besar akan berhasil setelah mereka angkat kaki dari sini. Mungkin loh, tapi siapa tahu? Dan beberapa dari antara mereka sudah punya bayangan kedepannya akan bekerja di mana. Tawaran pekerjaan berdatangan. Mmm..

Sementara gue? Jujur, gue sama sekali tidak punya bayangan akan apa yang bakal terjadi dengan kehidupan gue 6 bulan lagi, 10 bulan lagi, setahun lagi, 5 tahun lagi. Who knows? Dan gue cuma bisa bilang bahwa hanya Tuhan yang tahu. Gue sebagai manusia biasa cuma bisa berharap dan berusaha, juga berdoa tentunya. Tentunya yang bisa gue lakukan saat ini adalah menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Menjalani semester 8, semester terakhir ini dengan baik. Karena kita tidak bisa melihat masa depan, jalanilah saat ini dengan sebaik-baiknya. Inget quote di film Kung-Fu Panda? “Today is a gift, that’s why it’s called present”

Jadi apakah dengan “tidak jelasnya” masa depan ini berarti bahwa gue belom siap lulus? Nggak juga dong.. Ditengarai kaburnya bayangan akan masa mendatang, gue pribadi merasa yakin kalau gue udah siap lulus & siap bekerja. Persis seperti spanduk2 di jalanan sana yang bertuliskan, “Kulia di **** lulusannya mudah & siap bekerja! Kuliah? *** aja!” Yoi!!!!

Btw, kamu pingin ngapain abis dari ITB? Kerja ato nggak beasiswa S2 di luar *jawaban standar anak tingkat 4*

Sekarang kan semester 8. Ngapain aja? Masih kuliah nggak? Semester 8 mah main-main & bersenang-senang dong!! *menurut lo??!?* Tentunja sedang sibuk Tugas Akhir. Kuliah juga masih lah meskipun sksnya tinggal dikit.. Gue saat ini ngambil 14 sks, tapi temen gue ada yg cuma ngambil 4 sks (tinggal TA doang).. Salut!

14 sks? apa aja? TA II, kapsel, jarkomdat, jaran, medan II.. Milih2 sks ini pun setelah 3 minggu seat-in di mana2 dan masih ragu hingga kemaren.. Tadinya mo ngambil macem2 & nyuci2 yg lain juga.. Tapi gue sadar potensi dan kemampuan manajemen waktu, jadinya “cuma” ngambil 14 sks deh..

TA-nya tentang apa? Tentang image processing. Ntar deh, gue sebenernya pingin ngepost tentang image processing ini.. Maybe next time..

IP lo berapa? ada deh..

Hehe. Mo bikin PR jaran nih.. hoahm.. Latter!!

The Book Off

2010-02-09T17:48:00.001+07:00

“The act of getting a book out on the train, tube bus or plane in order to avoid talking to the person next to you. Substitutes include a newspaper, phone or iPod.”

Example in sentences:

Person one: "Blablabla isn't the weather terrible blablabla"
Person two: (gets book out thus giving Person one "The book off")
Person one stops talking.

from the ultimate slang resource on the web, urbandictionary

Hah! gue bahkan bisa lebih jutek dari ini >:p

November - Desember bulan sakit

2009-12-03T15:03:00.001+07:00

Sakit hati, sakit jiwa, sakit badan, sakit perut, sakit leher, sakit otak, sakit semua lah..

Di musim pancaroba seperti saat ini, cuaca sedang ga bagus-bagusnya. Kuman-kuman & virus bertebaran dimana-mana. Ga heran banyak orang yang sakit. Tidak terkecuali gue ;(

Bulan November kemaren adalah bulan yang sangat berat buat badan gue. Gue kena demam berdarah. Hiks hiks. Dan gue harus dirawat di rumah sakit selama seminggu. Diinfus dong, cuma di tempat tidur seharian, badan pegel semua, ga nafsu makan, mandinya cuma di lap doang, sangat-sangat tidak enak.

Tapi untungnya gue udah sembuh, berkat kuasa Tuhan tentunya, dan juga karena "daun ubi jalar" yang kata papa menurut penelitian baru-baru ini di filipina katanya bisa naikin trombosit ampe 2x lipat (dan terbukti bener loh!, hebat bangetlah si daun ubi jalar ini. Jus jambu, angkak, ati ayam, dsb yang katanya bisa naikin trombosit, semuanya lewat!).

Sesudah sembuh, gue balik ke bandung tentunya. Dan tugas-tugas sangat menumpuk, menunggu giliran untuk menyiksa diri gue tahap-2. ITB sangat ga toleran dengan anak sakit :( Lo sakit? bodo amat! Pokoknya ini kerjaan harus beres tanggal sekian.. Sedih.. sedih. Gue ga bakal lupa tentang betapa stressnya gue ngejar ketinggalan ngumpulin makalah TA *yang akhirnya telat ngumpulin juga, dan tentunya tidak maksimal :( *. Mana topiknya belom fokus lagi.. But thank God it's over and I did it anyway

Kerjaan gue yang ketinggalan bukan hanya itu: kuis antena, meriksa laporan praktikum, PR-PR, dan seminar TA.. *lagi-lagi TA*

Jadilah gue STRESS dengan semua tekanan itu, dan gejala stress mulai kelihatan di badan gue: napas berat, stomach problem, depresi, jantung berdetak keras banget, MAAG KRONIK (bahkan tadinya gue divonis kena radang usus besar T.T untung bukan). Padahal seumur-umur gue belom pernah maag sama sekali.

Dan seakan-akan itu semua belom cukup, gue sekarang flu & batuk. *Halah halah, penyakitan sekali kau nak* Padahal gue udah minum vitamin macem-macem :( Hiks. Memanglah, stress bisa nurunin daya tahan tubuh.

Yah, di balik itu semua, gue merasa sangat bersyukur masih di beri nafas kehidupan sama Tuhan sampe hari ini. Untung gue ga mati pas db, untung gue ga radang usus besar, untung gue bisa ngerjain semua tugas-tugas kuliah itu. Terima kasih Tuhan.

Pesan moral: jaga kesehatan, minum vitamin, olahraga teratur, makan minum teratur, tidur cukup, jangan stress!

Sebagai penutup, gue pingin ngutip percakapan gue di YM dengan ai beberapa hari lalu:

Peter : Ai, seminar ini adalah seminar terberat dalam hidup gue. -------------Gue harus melewati demam berdarah, stress, maag, flu, dsb

Ai : Gapapa, biasanya kalo perjuangannya berat, hasilnya ------------------memuaskan!

Amin.. Amin..

Technorati Tags: pancaroba,demam berdarah,stress,maag,TA,seminar,duh kok tagnya ga enak semua??

Istilahnya apa ya?

2009-11-03T07:32:00.001+07:00

Percakapan aneh via YM beberapa hari lalu:

Gue : "To, dua sinyal yang saling menguatkan istilahnya apa ya?"

Ananto : "Hmm.. interferensi konstruktif?"

Gue : "mmm... kayaknya bukan itu deh, kalo gue ga salah inget huruf depannya 'M'... "

Ananto : " 'M' ? Menguatkan? "

Gue : "oh iya juga ya... "

Ananto : "...."

Err gue rada error juga nih.. -_-!

Anyway, buat yang belum tau apa itu interferensi, silahkan liat gambar di bawah. Sederhananya, interferensi konstruktif adalah kejadian dimana amplituda dua buah sinyal yang saling bertemu saling menguatkan (amplification), sementara interferensi destruktif adalah sebaliknya (cancellation). Kalau secara matematis sih cuma penjumlahan dua sinyal sinusoidal biasa.

Source: howstuffworks.com

Technorati Tags: interference,signal processing

PAINTing

2009-11-01T21:26:00.001+07:00

Hari ini gue cukup 'autis': Menggambar dengan Ms. Paint. Seperti zaman dahulu kala waktu gue baru bisa menggambar rumah dengan 2 jendela dan 1 pintu di Ms. Paint. Dengan modal touchpad & jari-jemari yang gemetaran, akhirnya gambar 'autis' gue selesai . Gambar apakah gerangan? Hehe.. Liat aja di background image blog ini :D

Jadi gambar apakah ini? ... Sebenernya gue juga ga ngerti sih ini gambar apaan. It's simply a thinking box~ I made it from scratch and it turns out to be pretty cool!! Jadinya gue pasang sebagai background blog gue deh. Ngutak-ngatik CSS bentar, ngulik html sana-sini, dan akhirnya jadi lah background blog saya yang baru! Yay!

Tapi kalo gue pikir-pikir, ini gambar rada mirip ama gue deh : jidat jenong, bawah mata item kayak panda, ~~sok~~ banyak ide, logically square, dan ga banyak omong *halah yang terakhir maksa* :p

Huahaha, kebanyakan ide nih gue, big & small ideas. Sayang yang kerealisasi cuma dikit. Gapapa deh, lebih baik daripada tidak ada sama sekali :)

Technorati Tags: creative,eureka,thinking box

The Essence of Technical Reporting

2009-11-01T16:27:00.000+07:00

Sejak jadi asisten praktikum RE, gue mulai 'ngeh' terhadap pentingnya kemampuan berbahasa untuk dimiliki seorang engineer. Terutama dalam hal penulisan laporan. Kemampuan untuk berkomunikasi melalui tulisan (laporan) sangat penting dan berguna nantinya, terutama di dunia kerja & riset.

Di labdas, laporan praktikum yang dibuat harus mengikuti standar pembuatan laporan IEEE. Silakan googling kalo pingin tau format IEEE itu seperti apa. Ato bisa liat template yang digunakan oleh labdas di web labdas.

Kira-kira format IEEE tuh begini lah ya...

Sesudah beberapa kali memeriksa laporan praktikum, gue menemukan fakta menarik. Pintar secara akademis tidak berarti kemampuan berbahasanya baik. Padahal hasil praktikumnya oke, tapi kok laporannya? Rata-rata hal ini gue amati dari bagian analisisnya: ada yang analisisnya kurang kena, kata-katanya diulang-ulang, bertele-tele, pemilihan kata-katanya kurang tepat, struktur kalimat yang masih amburadul, bahkan ada yang - cukup parah - analisisnya cuma 1 paragraf, dan intinya nggak kena pula. Misal:

"Jadi berdasarkan data-data diatas dapat disimpulkan bahwa percobaan berlangsung dengan baik. Namun ada beberapa kesalahan yang kemungkinan disebabkan karena kesalahan alat ukur & pembacaan data yang tidak akurat"

Kira-kira isi analisisnya hanya seperti itu deh. Yahaha.. please "ngemeng"nya kreatif dikit lah~ Jelasin kek apa itu "berlangsung dengan baik", mengapa hasil percobaan bisa seperti itu, yang salah kira-kira hasil benernya seperti apa, comot teori dari sadiku, kaitkan dengan kuliah RE, dsb.

*Hadooh, gue sok-sok mengkritik begini. Padahal belom tentu juga gue adalah seorang pembuat laporan yang baik -_-!!*

Yah, intinya posting ini cuma untuk mengingatkan gue dan kita semua supaya selalu belajar berusaha menulis makalah teknis dengan baik: to the point, analitis, enak dibaca, & memakai tata bahasa yang benar.

Eh, kok gue jadi inget TA yah? -_-!!

Technorati Tags: laporan,asisten,labdas,RE,IEEE,ITB

Lefties Rule!

2009-10-31T23:59:00.000+07:00

Gue kidal bawaan dari lahir. Gue sendiri nggak ngerti kenapa bisa kidal. Tiba-tiba aja gitu pas tk apa sd gue sadar kalo gue melakukan segala sesuatu pake tangan kiri. Menulis, pake gunting, buka pintu, ngambil barang, dsb2 pasti pake tangan kiri. Yah, kecuali kalo makan dan salaman dengan orang tentunya. It's our culture. And there are hygienic reasons why we have to use our right hand to eat.

Mama-papa gue sih cuek-cuek aja anaknya kidal. Dan mereka ga memaksa anaknya untuk pindah aliran ke tangan kanan. Dan gue bersyukur gue dibiarkan dewasa sebagai orang kidal. Konon, katanya orang kidal tuh rata-rata pada pinter *ehem*, kemampuan bahasanya oke, art & music awarenessnya bagus, sport juga lumayan, IQ & EQ-nya tinggi, kreatif, imajinasinya tinggi, banyak poin-poin yang bagus-bagus lah.. Hihihi bukannya sombong & congkak nih ya, tapi ~~dengan segala kerendahan hati dan jiwa~~ gue ngerasa demikian kok. =)

Btw, ini beberapa fakta menarik tentang kidal:

Kidal adalah kaum minoritas, konon cuma ada 10% dari total seluruh populasi di dunia. Ada benernya juga nih fakta. Coba gue itung ada berapa ya orang yang gue kenal yang kidal? indra, anggi, namrit, mamo, irgi, ghifar, usman, hmm.. siapa lagi ya? kayaknya segituan deh, ato paling banyak belasan..
Banyak tokoh-tokoh terkenal yang kidal. Hmm, yang gue baca di beberapa sumber sih bilangnya gitu. Banyak presiden amrik yang kidal, musisi, bintang film, host, tokoh-tokoh sejarah, dll.. Tapi yang ga kidal juga jauh lebih banyak toh? Jadi menurut gue kayaknya kecenderungan kidal ga terlalu berpengaruh deh sama kesuksesan.. Eh apa ngaruh ya?
Kidal atau nggaknya seseorang itu ditentukan dari kondisi dia sejak masih dalam kandungan. Wew, pengaruh hormon-hormon apa gitu katanya. Ga ngerti juga sih gue, mungkin bisa dicari tahu lebih dalam
Orang Barat lebih banyak yang kidal dibandingkan orang Timur. Nah ini yang menarik. Kok bisa banyakan orang bule yang kidal? Dari beberapa sumber yang gue baca, penyebabnya adalah faktor budaya. Dulu, kita (orang Timur) menganggap bahwa tangan kanan selalu lebih baik daripada tangan kiri. Bahkan ironisnya di beberapa kultur, dulu orang kidal dianggap sebagai orang yang kena 'penyakit', cacat, aib, nggak sopan, dsb. Jadi ga heran kalo dulu sedikit orang timur yang kidal. Selama hidupnya mereka terpaksa mesti belajar agar tidak kidal or else, dikucilkan. Kasihan ya?

Well, menurut gue hal ini rada aneh dan kurang masuk akal. Tuhan menciptakan segala sesuatunya baik dan indah di mata-Nya. Tuhan menciptakan tangan KIRI dan tangan KANAN, bukan tangan BAIK dan tangan JELEK. Tangan kiri dan kanan dua-duanya baik. Lantas kenapa orang mesti salaman pake tangan kanan? Ya iyalah, udah budaya dari nenek moyang kita begitu, mo diapain lagi. Gue yang kidal aja bakal ngerasa aneh lah kalo salaman pake tangan kiri~

Sekarang, setelah diketahui bahwa kidal bukanlah sesuatu yang buruk, bahkan katanya potensi bakat seseorang yang kidal sangat besar, mulai banyak orang tua yang latah pingin anaknya kidal. Yang ~~kadal~~ ga kidal pun dipaksa sok sok kidal, make tangan kirinya, biar katanya otak kiri - otak kanannya seimbang gitu. Tapi masih banyak juga loh orang tua yang risih kalo anaknya kidal. Sayang sekali yah? Jangan hambat potensi anak tersebut moms and dads. Percayalah suatu saat nanti anak Anda akan menjadi orang yang berguna dan okee seperti saya. ~~*Sekali lagi ini bukan tindakan menyombongkan diri :D*~~
Kebanyakan benda dirancang buat tangan kanan. Nah ini dia salah satu bentuk dikriminasi buat orang kidal. Contoh nyata aja yang gue alamin tiap hari: bangku kuliah di kampus gue. Jadi, itu bangku (yang ada mejanya gitu, kayak di GKU, TVST, FT, pokoknya hampir semua ruang kuliah) mejanya di sebelah kanan!! Sementara gue nulisnya di kiri. Awal-awal masuk kuliah dulu gue susah banget nulisnya T.T ... Tapi sekarang udah agak mendingan, meski kadang masih ga nyaman juga. Contoh benda-benda lain yang secara ergonomis kurang menguntungkan buat orang kidal: gunting, kamera, handy cam, gitar, biola, ring binder (kalo nulis di halaman depan susah). Tapi ada juga benda yang justru menguntungkan buat orang kidal, contohnya: keyboard QWERTY (kenapa? katanya kebanyakan huruf yang sering muncul justru ada di bagian kiri, terutama untuk ngetik dalam bahasa Inggris, jadi ngetiknya lebih cepet gitu..)

Segitu aja sih yang mo gue tulis, berhubung ini udah malem dan gue banyak tugas dan gue ngantuk dan dari tadi kerjanya browsing-browsing melulu. Maka tulisan ini saya akhiri di penghujung bulan oktober ini. Haduh, seandainya jadi orang kidal juga berarti rajin & gemar mengerjakan tugas, gue pasti lebih oke... -_-!!

Technorati Tags: kidal,left handed,random thoughts

Fifteen - Taylor Swift

2009-10-11T21:34:00.001+07:00

Akhir-akhir ini postingan gue melulu tentang lagu nih.. Huehue.. Gue sedang ga punya ide buat nulis yang berat-berat.. Yasudahlah.. Berhubung gue cukup up to date tentang american top40, dan kebanyakan lagunya bagus-bagus, so why not make a blog post about them? Entah kenapa -bawaan dari SMA kali ya- gue kurang up to date tentang lagu-lagu indonesia. Jadi kalo pada ngomongin ~~sampah~~ band XXX atau YYY yang ada di inbox atau dahsyat tiap pagi ~~dengan alay-alay yang dibayar untuk goyangan yang tak seberapa itu~~ gue ga begitu nyambung..

Lagu-lagu Indonesia emang udah banyak yang bagus-bagus sih, banyak yang catchy pula. Tapi entah kenapa gue tetep aja demen lagu luar. Mungkin karena bahasa Indonesia kalo dijadiin lagu kurang enak di denger ya? Kesannya sok-sok formal gitu (e.g. kekasihku, mungkinkah engkau tak mencintai diriku lagi, geli ga sih lo dengernya?). Kalo lagu luar mah, dinyanyiin enak-enak aja tuh..

Kemaren gue liat video taylor swift yang baru, judulnya "Fifteen". Kok gue ngerasa emosional yah pas ngeliatnya? *halah lebay*.. Lagunya bagus, dan kayaknya bakal jadi hit. Liriknya menyentuh. Ceritanya tentang seorang anak umur 15 tahun, yang sedang labil-labilnya.. Tentang masuk ke sekolah baru, trus punya pacar, first kiss, kehilangan keperawanan (ya iyalah amrik gitu) ah begitulah..

Ok. I'll buy your album Ms. Swift! Haha telat banget ya gue? Tapi mumpung lagi punya jajan lebih nih huehe, lumayan buat nambah music library gue. I've had enough of Gaga & Beyonce on my playlist.. ~~itupun ngebajak.~~

Technorati Tags: taylor swift,fifteen,lagu barat

Playing God - Paramore

2009-10-10T20:17:00.001+07:00

I can't make my own decisions
Or make any with precision
Well maybe you should tie me up
So i don't go where you don't want me
You say that i've been changing
That i'm not just simply ageing
Well how could that be logical?
Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat
woah

You don't have to believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger i might have to bend it back
And break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger i'll point you to the mirror

If Gods the game that you're playing
Well we must get more acquainted
Because it has to be so lonely to be the only one who's holy
It's just my humble opinion but it's one that i believe in
You don't deserve a point of view
If the only thing you see is you
Woah

This is the last second chance
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm half as good as it gets
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm on both sides of the fence
(I'll point you to the mirror)
Without a hint of regret i'll hold you to it

I love this song <3

Sebenarnya mau gue apa sih?

2009-09-28T18:10:00.001+07:00

I feel like I'm lost with all of these stuffs I do. Wth am I doing? I'm not sure where I'm heading, not sure either to go back. What I want to do anyway? What I don't? Am I sure? No?

Hate this ambivalence =(

Seems like it'll always be like those people said, "let it flow, Pete."

Plurk is stupid enough. And I won't tweet.

2009-09-27T09:36:00.001+07:00

Gue abis delete account plurk gue. And I feel so 'LEGA' lol... I have always wanted to delete this trashy account since months ago, but all of those karma and nirvana factor that I've achieved had always give this unsure feeling.. Tapi akhirnya kesampaian juga. Hore!!

Sebenernya, there's nothing wrong with such "social" networking sites. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being social at all. To socialize is a good thing.

Tapi gue merasa tingkat ke'sosial'an dari sites2 social networking seperti facebook, plurk, dsb sudah mencapai taraf sampah. Trashy. Pardon my words.

I mean, what's the point of those pointless babbles? Those actually-not-important-at-all status updates, tweets, and plurks? I don't see the urge of having to know what are those people having for dinner, what they wear, where are they going to. I don't need to know your minute-by-minute activities, because actually, they're often plain and not interesting. I don't want to see anymore "Lisa just woke up", "Johnny wants to take a shower", "Kristin is confused, not sure what to do, somebody help me" -status nggantung kayak gini nih yang paling ga jelas, sampah beut dah-, "Andre is OTW to Paris", "Casey wants ice cream", etc.

LIKE I CARE

Not to mention those idiotic quizzes, annoying request, and the worst nightmare of all : 4L4Y people - kaum2 terbuang, kasta terendah dari yang terendah dari peradaban anak muda. Oh please. Gue juga ga ngerti kenapa sebagian temen gue masih aja ada yang alay. Pingin gue remove tapi ga tega..

Emang sih, kadang-kadang ada status yang lucu, pantes buat dikomenin. Tapi penting banget gue mesti mantengin homepage facebook seharian, waiting something worthy passing by. Oh penting sekali. Toh kalo udah dikomen biasa aja toh? Paling besok-besok juga lupa.

Now I've managed how to not get addicted with those trash stuffs too much. I've deleted my plurk account because it's too time wasting and pointless, and I've been able to keep my self away from login to facebook for days.. Hehe, udah bisa menahan diri buat ga nyampah, still I don't delete it yet. Kadang-kadang facebook berguna juga sih.. dan banyak kenangan juga di sini.. hehe :p. Maybe sometimes later in the future when It really gone more trashy. And thank God I don't have twitter. Ga bakal bikin twitter deh, at least until I see the importance of having one.

Tweets, plurks and status updates were nothing more than shouts into the darkness hoping someone is listening.

Sekarang, daripada ga jelas di dunia maya, mendingan get real aja yuk! Ngerjain apa kek gitu, ngerjain PR baseband, ngerjain TA, masak2, cuci piring, les piano, les spanish, berenang, beresin kamar, belajar kuis antenna -astaga besok gue kuis makjang belom belajar T.T- socialize beneran ama temen beneran, manusia beneran.. It saves your money, time, and social life dude!

!@#$!@#%! - nonsense

2009-09-08T13:31:00.001+07:00

Some things currently on my mind:

Kuis antenna #1 saya..

Mostly kesalahan ada pada kesotoyan gue dalam mengerjakan soal, overconfidence, ketidakpahaman konsep direktivitas, lupa rumus, yah place all the blame on me..

Sayangnya, beberapa orang mendapatkan nilai cukup baik dan dengan sukses "merusak" rata-rata kelas..

Semoga di kuis-kuis berikutnya saya yang akan "merusak" rata-rata kelas.. Amin Ya Allah, dengarkan doa hambamu ini.

Masih ada 6 kali lagi leee.. harus bisa!!!!

PR BASEBAND

"Buatlah bacot 3 halaman tentang macam-macam input dan output mikroprosessor, serta jelaskan fungsi RAM pada mikroprosessor"

Oh saya mahasiswa tingkat 4, di itebeh, jurusan cukup favorit, dan saya harus menerjemahkan wikipedia.. Apa esensinya? Males banget ngerjain tugas-tugas keriting kayak gini.. Dan saya baru 2 halaman, deadline 3 jam lagi.. Oh my blog, te amo lah pokoknya..

1%? Emang gue udah ngapain aja?? Sok banget sih ngaku2 udah 1%.. Haha, Kalo udah baca2 tapi masih blank tuh boleh dibilang ada 1% ga??

Ya Tuhan, kuatkanlah saya ngerjain TA ini...

Temen baru

Tuhan, terima kasih karena Engkau telah mengirimkan Leno, sebagai pendamping toshi-baby saya yang saat ini sudah uzur dan sangat tidak mobile.. Kiranya Leno dan toshi-baby akan setia membantu saya dalam segala pekerjaan saya, sehingga saya bisa mencapai yang terbaik.. Amin..

Asisten Labdas

Ngurusin 10 orang selama 3 jam ternyata sangat capek, dan sungguh sulit untuk tidak bermuka judes dan bermurah senyum. Belom lagi baca laporan yang kayak novel, mentang-mentang halamannya ga dibatesin.. Maafkan saya adik-adik 2008, ntar nilainya enak-enak deh...

Udah ah, balik ngerjain baseband for God sake.. Ntar sore untung ada buber villagers (maaf namanya agak kampungan, emang yang dateng ntar orang2 kampung kok - that includes me)

No hablo español T.T

2009-09-07T10:41:00.001+07:00

Speak Spanish, hot tanned skin, and I'll soon be like those sexy Latin people. LOL.

Jadi pengen les deh.. Kapan yaaa?

Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

2009-09-06T10:34:00.001+07:00

A sweet goodbye, I love this song...

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

~~~~~

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

2009-08-23T09:01:00.001+07:00

I've been addicted to this song!!

The video is too cute. Taylor plays both as the geek & the popular girl, she's gorgeous either way ♥

"...She wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts, She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers..." =)

The climb

2009-08-20T17:28:00.001+07:00

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa..

21 wonderful cycles and the season still continues

2009-06-23T09:34:00.001+07:00

Hello!

Sorry for the lack of update. I've been very busy enjoying my ~~holiday~~ internshit thing. I have to be in the office everyday, 8 to 5. And often I got home very tired. So there weren't much time for me to do those stuffs I used to enjoy when I'm home. I missed them a lot, especially playing the piano & playing stupid games on my toshi-baby. Yeah, after another tiring semester, I finally got home 3 weeks ago. Now I'm with my family - well not all of them - my twin sis isn't here with us. She's doing some other stuffs for her college, bet she misses us a lot :) so do we here ul.

Last Thursday on 18th June 2009, the three of us - me, my twin sis, & me daddy - were having our 98th birthday. Yep, we have the same birthday. The old man's 56 and we're 21 each, that'll add up to 98. Haha. :p

:::::::

Holly, I'm 21!!

So this is what it's like to be 21. This is the time when people call you "a grown up". It's tough being 21 people, especially when you're considered "mature" enough by people around you. To be honest, I still feel like I'm a 15 year old. I still do many stupid things, have childish thought, I'm still so immature and I admit it.

But hey, I see lots of changes happened to me in 20 years! Probably the biggest change that has happened to me in my life is my point of view to the world, to those around me, and my own point of view about myself.

In this 21st year of my life, I would like to say thanks to God, for giving me such a wonderful - though not perfect - life. I have great people surround me, my caring family (mama,papa,uli,baby) & lots of cool friends. I love you all.

I also feel really thankful for being given the chance to go to school and for allowing me to go to this awesome college, so that I could meet these wonderful people from all over the country. You're one of a kind guys :)

In my 21, I wish I could be a better child, a better brother, a better friend, a better student, citizen, and I hope I won't be lazy anymore. And I wish God help me in my study, I'll be having my final assignment this year. 21, still long way to go Pete!

God sentenced Adam to WORK for the rest of his life just because he ate that stupid apple

2009-06-03T09:10:00.011+07:00

And sadly, we're still getting the impact for what our ~~beloved~~ ancestors did - eating the goddamn apple.

Men (and today's women too) have to work. We got to work to feed our hungry stomach, to taste luxury, to have happiness, to buy shits and craps this world offers. We need money.

Today, was my first day ever to do an internship. I luckily got hired by a big company. My first reaction was pretty excited back then. I naively thought, "Hela! A job! Beers for everyone!". That was the only thought that came up on my mind until I finally taste what it is like to have a job and to work. Just today.

And I was shocked. I never knew that working could be so stressful and tiring. I was so damn exhausted right then back at home. I worked 9 hours a day. Doing stuffs, managing things. And God was right. We are punished. Fuckers have to work & bitches got double combos: they have to give birth as well.

$#!@, why did mr.Adam eat the apple? why did ms.Eve fall to the snake's trickery? And how could the snake be such a jerk? Why there was a snake in that heavenly Eden after all? Wasn't it heaven's territory right there? Evil creature - such as the fucking snake - shouldn't be there right? It's obviously not mr.Adam's fault at the first place. >:(

Membiola di Gereja, Happy Sunday y'ALL

2009-05-31T15:41:00.001+07:00

Hari ini untuk pertama kalinya setelah sekian lama ga ngisi acara di gereja, gue nampil.

Hehe, hari ini gue berkesempatan jadi pengiring musik di Gereja. Dan gue main biola, bareng2 4 orang lain: maria, cheryl, pak mus, & maudy. Karin tiba-tiba sakit, jadinya ga bisa ikutan. :(

Lagu-lagu yang dimainin yah, lagu-lagu gereja. Dan biasanya lagu-lagu gereja simpel-simpel. Aransemennya pun sederhana.

Eh, tapinya gue fals -_-!! parah. Terutama yang bagian solo pas mainin lagu terakhir.. huu malu banget.

Anyway, today was fun - except the boring sunday speech :p -

Ternyata main biola diiringin piano n choir enak yah? Hehehe.. Jadi kangen les musik lagi

Hey teman, aku marah sama kamu.

2009-05-18T22:36:00.001+07:00

Katakanlah Lo punya temen deket. Ga satu, tapi banyak. Dan orang-orang ini 'setia' nemenin Lo tiap hari. Kemana-mana pasti selalu bareng.

Suatu hari, Lo menyadari ada yang ga beres dengan salah seorang dari temen-temen Lo ini. Sebut si A. Setelah diperhatikan, ternyata Lo menemukan sifat si A yang agak menyebalkan dan membuat Lo agak risih dan ga terlalu suka sama si A dalam lingkungan pertemenan Lo. Tapi Lo masih ngerasa fine-fine aja waktu itu.

Yasudahlahya, pikir Lo. So what? ngapain gue pikirin. Urusan dia deh. Gue masih fine-fine aja lah kalo cuma segitu.

But then, nih orang makin menjadi-jadi. Si A makin hari makin nyebelin dengan sifatnya ini. Dan Lo yang udah dari awal ga suka sifat si A ini lama-lama muak juga sama si A. Lo kesel sama A. Kesel banget.

...

Tapi sayangnya si A sepertinya tidak nyadar kalo sifatnya sangat menyebalkan. Dia ga merasa bersalah sama sekali. Dan di kacamata Lo, A menganggap bahwa perbuatannya wajar. Makin pingin ditabok ga sih si A ini?

Namun disini susahnya. You're trapped. Lo dan si A adalah "friend". Lo ga pingin marahin si A. Karena Lo tau, kalo Lo marahin si A, things will get awkward & weird, and everything won't be the same.

Bayangin kalo Lo marahin A. Si A yang selama ini merasa fine-fine aja, tiba-tiba disemprot habis-habisan sama lo yang ternyata udah lama kesel sama dia.

...

Guys, apa ya yang sebaiknya Lo lakukan buat ngebilangin ke si A kalo sifat A nyebelin dan Lo ga suka sama sifatnya itu? Dibilangin pelan-pelan? Dikerasin? Ga bilang anything at all?

Selama ini Lo udah bersikap sabar loh...

and I'm pete, either "Si A" or "Lo".

menggambar receiver BPSK di A3

2009-05-18T00:44:00.001+07:00

Just a quick lame post ppl,

Kemaren gue dapet tugas buat UAS dari dosen siskom (Sistem Komunikasi). Dan kali ini tugasnya rada beda. Kalo biasanya kita disuruh simulasiin filter response, ngamatin sinyal di matlab dsb, tugas kali ini adalah menggambar di A3. Yep, seumur-umur kuliah baru pertama kali nih disuruh ngegambar di A3. Terakhir kali gambar di A3 kalo ga salah pas SMA.

Dan apakah objek beruntung yang harus digambar tersebut?

...

Yang harus digambar adalah rangkaian receiver BPSK, komplit (that includes: the antenna, RF amplifier & filter, costas loop demodulator, symbol timing recovery, & frame synchronization scheme).

Hwaa, gue paling ga bisa gambar (with pencil & paper) guys. Disuruhnya di A3 pula.. Mampus kau pete >_<

Baiklah, namanya tugas, jadi harus dikerjakan. Dan akhirnya gue membeli kertas A3 (yang kata anak2 arsi ga ada apa2nya kalo A3 mah~~), tapi menurut gue udah lumayan gede: ga bisa dimasukin map, soalnya map gue ukuran A4, jadi ngebawanya harus di gulung.

Dan gue pun mulai bekerja membuat corat-coret urutan block diagram rangkaian & komponennya. Garis sana-sini, nulis sana-sini. Hwe hwe dan setelah beberapa menit (yups, cuma itungan menit ;D), selesailah tugas gue. Ternyata ga begitu susah~ cuma gambar rangkaian yang dibikin gede aja koq. Paling susahnya ngukur2, mensejajarkan, dan ngelurusin garis2nya. Gue paling ga bisa nih. Duh, kalo ada anak arsi ato SR pasti ga nyampe 1 menit langsung jadi.

Nih jadinya, eng ing eng!!

...

Err, koq setelah diliat ternyata biasa2 aja yah? -_- so dull. ha.ha.ha.

Haha yasudahlah, yang penting selesai. Eh tapi sebenernya gue masih rada ragu sama gambar gue ini. Bener ga ya? Kata anak2 tadi siang sih udah bener. Gue cari2 di internet ga ada referensi sama sekali tuh tentang receiver BPSK. Yang gue bingung adalah abis dari demodulator masa perlu ke STR? Bukannya kalo abis dari costas loop tuh sinyal udah jadi urutan bit ya? Seharusnya datanya udah langsung bisa di ekstrak pake frame synchronization kan? Kenapa make STR ya? Toh menurut gue fungsi STR cuma buat menentukan kapan dilakukan sampling yg paling optimal, harusnya abis dari decision circuit dari demodulator udah bisa langsung ke blok terakhir (FSW)? @_@

...

bingung kan lo? gue juga.

ha.ha.ha. ngomong apa c pete?

The "after party". Err, I mean "after exam"

2009-05-14T23:09:00.001+07:00

My head. It's still full of maxwell equations, transmission lines, waveguides, electric & magnetic field, and those stuffs normal people would never face in their life.

So, you - normal people - be happy. You're completely free from these things :D :D

Well, I just did my electric waves exams. And - same as other electric waves quizzes - I didn't make it. I screwed here & there, I forgot that goddamn equation, and I was working reaaal slow.

SEKARANG MO KETAWA PUAS AHAHAHHA AKHIRNYA MEDAN SELESAI. >:)

err, masih ada ektek-siskom-rektraf-elkom-siskom lagi-ektek lagi-sko pete T_T. Great. ROck oN!!!!

To do list

2009-05-11T22:23:00.001+07:00

Pren, bentar lagi kan gue mo KP nih (KP = Kerja Praktek). Ga tau bakal dimana. Wherever that will be, yang pastinya saya bakal KP ajah..

Nah, secara umum, saya melihat pelaksanaan KP bisa dibagi jadi 2 jenis:

KP nyampah
KP ga nyampah2 amat

Seandainya saya dapet yang nomer 2, ya bagus deh. At least skill ketenagakerjaan gue (a.k.a potensi TKI) bakal meningkat, dan naga2nya paling ga gue bisa di pekerjakan di Arab ato Malaysia kalo udah lulus nanti..

Adapun, kalo saya dapet KP yang jenis nomer 1 (ngantor jam 8, ongkang2 kaki, buka email + facebook + plurk + ym, jam 10 pulang dengan senang riang), alangkah indah dan lebih bermaknanya hidup ini apabila saya bisa melakukan sesuatu hal yang lebih berguna (misal: berlatih menyapu dan mengepel agar sertifikasi TKI lebih mantab). Subhanallah.

entah kenapa gue udah punya firasat buruk kalo KP gue sepertinya bakalan yg jenis no 1...

Tentu saja bukan hal berguna yang seperti itu, bodoh. Gue mo bikin sesuatu yang produktif di 3 bulan mendatang, jika ternyata waktu luang gue memungkinkan. Dan apa sajakah hal-hal yang dikategorikan produktif itu?

1. Mendesain blog ini.

Beberapa waktu yang lalu, saya ngeliat blognya orang2. Macem-macem dan kebanyakan blog orang luar negeri. Dan gue jatuh hati sama tampilan2 nya.. Ckck.. Keren banget sih! Trus gue rada ciut: err,, itu CSS thingnya gimana yah?? Trus gue mikir, alaah~ ginian doang, paling belajar bentar langsung bisa :p. Wajar lah lu ga lihai, kan bukan santapan tiap hari..

2. Mastering 1 or 2 lagu chopin

Terserah yang mana aja. Pokoknya dalam 3 bulan harus bisa lagu baru!! Masa 3 tahun terakhir ini kalo main piano lagu klasiknya itu2 melulu? (Chopin Op 61 or something in C# minor) Waa.. pingin les lagi :(

3. Bikin game java!!

kan lumayan nih, abis ikutan divkom masa belum bikin apa2?? Rencananya ngerampungin game buat TA divkom, biar cantique and menarique. Ntar kalo udah jadi gue publish deh.. :D

4. Ngajarin bebi matematik.

C bebi katanya ulangan matematiknya dapet 5. Menyedihkan ga sih? Masa abangnya jurusan elektro di ITB, tapi adeknya ga bisa bedain sin dan cos?? Awas kauu dek, bikin malu abang saja kauu ini

5. Main DDR supernova tiap hari!!

Wait, yang ini produktif ga?? ...

Well, whatever kegiatan yang akan saya lakukan 3 bulan kedepan, mudah2an akan berguna dan tidak nyampah seperti liburan taun lalu, dimana tiap hari cuma makan, tidur, nonton hannah montana + spongebob + CSI + ugly betty, ym an ga jelas, main internet, dsb. Terus kalo siang ke emol, gejegejean + makan junkfood.

Oiya, mudah2an juga kalo saya kerja, bisa digaji + nabung, dan duitnya ga diabisin.. (yang ini kayaknya susah deh).

Udah ah, ciaow!

by pete, written when he is supposed to study electromagnetics fields & waves - for the exam is on thursday -_-!! ROCK ON pete!!

Dunia ini berat sekali...

2009-05-03T22:22:00.001+07:00

Sebagai mahasiswa sibuk, pastinya punya berbagai kegiatan. Dan tentunya gue tidak terlepas dari orang ~~sok~~ sibuk itu. Sebenernya kalo gue kuliah 'doang', tentunya ga bakal sesibuk ini. Yang dimaksud 'doang' adalah, SO (Study Oriented). Alangkah 'nyantai'nya mahasiswa SO itu menurut saya. Dan saya pun pernah suatu kali mengalami masa2 SO. Menyenangkan memang, cuma fokus ke satu hal dan bisa mendalami hal tersebut lebih banyak.

Tapi, dasar gue emang orang rakus. Gue ga puas cuma dapet satu hal aja. Maunya semuanya. Dan jadilah saya, manusia yang ~~sok~~ sibuk..

Dan sekarang ini, konsekuensinya adalah banyak orang yang mengharapkan gue buat berkontribusi penuh. Of course, gue juga pingin bisa berbuat baik ke semuanya, dan gue suka ngerasa ga enak kalo merasa bodo amat. Kesannya ga peduli lagi gitu.

Padahal gue bukan ga peduli. Gue cuma sedang concern ke hal lain. Hal yang menurut gue punya prioritas lebih tinggi di atas hal tadi. Dan gue suka sedih kalo diomongin dibelakang.. "eh, si boy sekarang sombong, udah ga peduli lagi"

Gue bukan ga peduli dan gue ga sombong (emang settingan jutek). Gua juga ingin bisa memuaskan semuanya. Tapi lu dan gue tau, Badan gue cuma 1, kepala gue cuma 1, mata gue cuma 2, kuping gue cuma 2, tangan gue cuma 2, kaki gue cuma 2. Ga bisa sekaligus semua. Pasti harus digilir.

I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulder

Banyak tuntutan yang diajukan ke gue sekarang: temen (bahkan temen aja nuntut ditemenin coba!!), kuliah, keluarga, dan banyak aktifitas killer. Sampai2 gue ngerasa waktu buat diri sendiri ternyata sedikit sekali.

Suatu hari nanti mudah2an gue bisa jadi lebih baik buat kalian semua. Dan bisa membagi kebersamaan. Dan akhirnya - i hope - dengan sendirinya gue jadi lebih baik.

Pete, better be strong ;)

Mulut saya minta dijahit

2009-04-23T20:18:00.001+07:00

For fuck's sake, can I just keep my mouth shut? Kenapa gue sebegitu tololnya ngomong ga disaring?

TUHAN,

bantu saya menjadi orang yang

LEBIH SOPAN KALO NGOMONG
KALO NGOMONG DIPIKIR DULU
KALO BECANDA JANGAN KETERLALUAN

for all those yang pernah gue sakitin lewat mulut gue, just slap me on my face: I DESERVE IT.. I know, like right now I'm the most unwanted person in the world.

I'm really sorry guys. I realize I'm no better than you. I mean it.

thx buat joice, yuris, & naya yang telah mo ngingetin gue. I promise won't do that again. For goodness sake, ini yang terakhir kalinya gue jahat.

image: courtesy of flickr.com

unwell

2009-04-17T21:12:00.003+07:00

Never thought that this would be some other hard times for me.

I'm sick. Mind, body, and soul. I'm so full of sickness that I'm getting sick of myself. I HATE ME. I hate the dark side of me.

Arrgh, kenapa gue ga bisa jadi orang baik-baik sih? Kenapa ga bisa positive thinking? Kenapa mesti marah? Kenapa belagu? Kenapa minder? Kenapa males banget? Kenapa ngerjain apa-apa ga bener? KENAPA KOK JADI MELANKOLIS KAYA GINI???? Mellow mellow najis gini?

Ciao ah, mudah2an abis ini ga mellow-mellow najong lagi. Menyedihkan.

Banyak Belajar, Banyak Lupa Juga

2009-04-16T21:02:00.002+07:00

Iih, koq gue cepet banget lupa sama pelajaran2 semester kemaren sih? Padahal itu belum ada setahun.

Pernah mikir gitu ga? Pasti pernah la ya.. Ga usah jauh-jauh deh, ambil contoh kuliah hari ini. Lo inget ga hari ini belajar apa aja? Haha pasti ga semuanya pada inget kan?

Guys, ini nih masalah gue dan lo semua. Orang-orang seperti gue cepet banget melupakan hal-hal yang udah dipelajari. Jadi setiap ditanya mengenai hal yang lalu, lemot banget jawabnya. Contoh buat gue: gue udah rada lupa tentang sistem 3 phasa, gue lupa rumus buat dioda, lupa huffman coding, lupa gimana bikin Karnaugh map, apa itu mealy & moore?, lupa hukum gauss, apa itu "daerah kerja transistor"?, dsb..

bahkan sepertinya gue udah lupa medan I, siskom I, & pengsin :p haha ga ding...

Wajar sih kalo gue udah rada-rada lupa, soalnya di kuliah gue sekarang "lagi jarang" memakai pelajaran-pelajaran itu. Sekarang di kuliah gue lagi getol2nya make smith chart buat matching impedance, ngitung BER, belajar fiber optic, dan belajar rekayasa trafik yang waalahualam itu (*meen, apa cuma gue ya yang ngerasa kalo rektraf tuh abstrak banget?*). Nah kalo ditanya2 tentang hal2 ini sekarang, yah masih lumayan oke lah~

Iiih sedih ga sih kalo ilmu yang lo pelajari cuma berguna buat quiz, UTS, dan UAS doang? :(

Men, gue ga mau ilmu gue cuma jadi "ilmu sesaat" / "ilmu jangka pendek". Tapi mo gimana lagi? Gue kadang ngerasa bahwa sistem kuliah di sini ya begitulah.. ga terlalu terintegrasi ato apapun istilahnya itu.. jadi kitanya juga ga lihai2~ *lihai.... :D :D

Tapi, untungnya orang2 seperti gue dan teman2 (*tsaah...) dibekali kemampuan berpikir yang lebih -halah, plis deh- Jadi kalo udah lupa, tinggal review bentar, trus jago kembali :D :D :D

.. Elektro gitu~~ cepet nangkep, cepet belajar, cepet lupa juga!! haha ilmu jangan dilupain ya pete~

The not-that-religious me speaks...

2009-04-12T11:35:00.002+07:00

If I must say, I'm not that kind of 'religious' person. I'm full of spiritual, but definitely not [that] religious. So when this moment comes -the Good Friday & thus, Easter - I always find myself wondering, another annual routine? Lame...

But recently, I think I just got into a major change on my spiritual - religious life. Haha. Yea rite. I don't know why, but I'm feeling like I'm enjoying the progress of being so called "a better person".

Yeah, I realized that I can't be the bad guy forever. At least I got to make some return point, where I finally make a closer step to spirituality.

Despite the effort of being for-goodness-sake a better person, we are all basically just human beings, filthy human beings. We tend to do sins every time - that's our nature. And I am no excuse, for the reason that I still make some sins every single day.

But for me, trying not to do bad things in our life is more than enough. Of course, shits may happen sometimes and we can't help it.

Happy Easter fellas!!

have a very great friday everyone!!

2009-04-10T21:59:00.001+07:00

Today was full of spiritual moments. I learnt a lot of things, and I hope it won't get off easily of my head.

Today's messages were: Don't be such bullies to everyone around you, don't loose your faith, don't give up easily on your problems, and lastly don't waste your life and soul on no good.

Dear Lord in Heaven, please help me getting stronger day by day. I know You won't leave me :)

Crazy talk

2009-04-09T17:16:00.001+07:00

My friend asked me once, "you snob, why do you write almost everything in English? Aren't you proud of your own mother tongue?"

I answer him, "Dude it's simple matter. I don't write my post in English just to brag about my linguistic skill. It just that I'm not able to do some cool conversations in English with my average-everyday friends, just like I used to to do when I was in high school - yea rite. So I came up with the idea of writing. If talking is limited, then some little notes will do."

So I did. And now - as access to those American pop culture is extremely limited (GOD,, I'm IN FUCKING LOVE WITH THESE COLLEGE CHORES) - I'm enjoying these trashy writing.

Translation ngasal (in slang Bahasa Indonesia):

Temen gw pernah nanya, "Coy, blagu banget sih lo nulis2 pake bahasa Inggris? Emang lu ga bangga sama bahasa ibu lo?"

Trus gw bales, "Njink, bukan sombong bukan congkak ya. Tapi dengan kondisi lingkungan n temen2 gw yg biasa-biasa aja, ~~bahkan cenderung kampungan ini *eh ga ding, kalian O.K kok! Sumpah! ;)),~~ kayaknya ga terlalu memungkinkan untuk ngomong bahasa Inggris yg rada high level gitu deh.. Yaudah, daripada ntar bahasa Inggris gw ilang sama sekali karena makin jarang ngomong, mending gw nulis2 aja sendiri."

Dan jreng3x, sekarang - saking ga sempetnya menikmati tontonan2 luar (yaiyalah, kan sibuk gituloh) - akhirnya gw menikmati menulis tulisan2 sampah ini.

ngasal banget c pete...

... and big girls don't cry

2009-04-08T22:36:00.001+07:00

I'm in love again with this 2008 hit :)

The song is full of emotional lyrics and the tunes are powerful. LOVE Fergie!!

Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal)
Uploaded by Fergie-official

[Wrong] Lusts

2009-04-04T22:00:00.001+07:00

Not every love stories end up like Cinderella's. There are thousands of different scenarios, with unexpected twist...

hix2.. she's gay :(

Or this one - what's with the gap? wtf.. It's either she's taken, or she comes from different background - It's the most common play in this lame multicultural country- the interracial and cross religion thingy~

And I yet haven't mention the other episodes..

... where this guy is in love with me.. totally freaked out..

..I'm writing this post just to let you guys know, that people have their own love problem, we've been in a complex romance drama and there's different case for everyone. But trust me, you're not alone. There are lots of people who have faced those problems, this similar feelings, the confusing reality, yet the happy moments :)

Love is difficult people.. And it will find its way ;)

*ps: These lame picture are, well somewhat [not that] inspired from stickgal~~ anyway i'm no copycat dude~

All we do is linger, slipping through our fingers...

2009-03-21T10:52:00.003+07:00

I can take it any longer
thought that we were stronger
all we do is linger, slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try know
All that's left's goodbye to
find a way that I can tell you...

peter geje -_-"

The Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part Uploaded by NANCY2A Anyway, this song by PCD is currently peaked number one on my playlist chart. I know, like it's supposed to be hip around 3 months ago (and to write a posting about this song is too late for now - I bet my sassy sis will tell me I'm lame and say "that's so 10 years ago~"), yet I just feel the emotion in this song recently.

In this song, Nicole's unique voice is very full of expression. I can feel her crying and full of pain. The lyrics are deep. And the other dolls in this video clip are just, mm, yea, they're just there, posing & dancing beautifully without singing, as usual~ The dance routine is cute though. Haha

Well, I think I'm gonna get bored with this song in a few days (like other hits I favor before). Listening to this song for hundreds time a day will eventually make me sick of it. Yep, the passion will be gone.

This hectic week is finally over, at least for today.. Hope next week will be less lethal. hoho..

Pardon this LAME, & TOTALLY POINTLESS POSTING anyway.. :p

The Notebook (2004 Film)

2009-03-12T20:45:00.003+07:00

Every time I watch this movie, I almost burst into tears.. Huhuhu. I think this is THE MOST ROMANTIC MOVIE ever made!! And here's one of my favorite scene: Ally & Noah were in a boat on the lake.. with swans, falling leaves, and sweet love song.. Romance is in the air!! Wish I could be Noah :)

Great scene. I totally recommend this film to every lovers out there :)

Am I ready to leave this comfort zone?

2009-03-11T18:20:00.006+07:00

Saat ini gue merasa berada di salah satu fasa paling menyenangkan dalam hidup: keadaan yang gampang dan lurus-lurus aja..

Singkatnya, sekarang ini gue tinggal "ongkang-ongkang kaki": kuliah 7-7 di Ganesha tercinta, hang out with friends, aktif di organisasi, kerjain tugas2 (meskipun seringkali melelahkan, tapi gue sadar sepenuh hati makna dibalik tugas2 ini –jaah), rapat2, sisanya adalah bersenang2. Bahkan gue belom kerja: duit bulanan lancar, dan kadang2 ada income tambahan. Yummy..

Orang2 di sekitar gue juga oke2. Gue sayang temen2 di kampus, orangnya lucu2 (yucks :p), gila2, pinter-pinter, ga kampungan, intelek2, pada jago ngomong.. Yep, gue menikmati komunitas gue sekarang, dimana orang2nya adalah orang2 terpilih, bukan orang yang bisa ditemui dengan mudah dikehidupan sehari2 gue sebelumnya..

Orang-orang ini beda, mereka semua pekerja keras, punya cita-cita yang sama, pingin maju bersama, dan gue bangga bisa berada di tengah-tengah orang seperti itu. Somehow membuat gue berpikir bahwa bukan gue doang yang punya visi misi hidup yang oke (haha), ga semua orang di dunia ini adalah losers: pemalas yang hanya mengandalkan orang lain, terbelakang, dan kadang kampungan - pikiran yang selama ini ada dibenak gue waktu jaman2 SMA.

Tapi, sebentar lagi gue akan meninggalkan masa-masa ini. Sebentar lagi - taun depan – gue bakal lulus dan diwisuda (amiin..). Gue akan berpisah sama kehidupan gue yang sekarang, bahkan kemungkinan gue bakal pisah sama orang2 oke ini. Kemana gue melangkah berikutnya? Ke comfort zone lainnya? Atau ke dunia nyata? Mana gue tau, we'll see...

Ini yang membuat gue berpikir, apa gue siap meninggalkan comfort zone ini taun depan? Apa gue siap untuk menghadapi kerasnya dunia nyata disana? dimana orang2 ga se-oke disini, banyak yang belum berpikiran maju, banyak orang udik yang masih terbelenggu kebodohan, apa gue bisa sabar menghadapi itu semua? Apa gue bisa survive? Oh Tuhan, kalo emang gue harus meninggalkan comfort zone gue taun depan, please make it easier. Please, lunakkan dunia luar sana Tuhan, gue ga siap menghadapi dunia itu..

*Geez, doktrin2 idealisme ternyata rada2 nempel di diri gue selama 3 tahun terakhir..

Men, dangkal abis ya pikiran gue? Ga mungkin dunia luar sana se-ideal disini lah. Realita bangsa gue bukanlah seperti kehidupan gue sehari-hari saat ini. Ga ada yg namanya kondisi ideal pit~~ Mikir apa gue?

Yah, emang semua orang pada intinya harus bergerak maju. Dan gue sadar, untuk itulah gue ada disini, di kampus gue ini, di comfort zone gue ini. Gue ga boleh (dan ga mungkin) berlama-lama keenakan di surga idealis ini. Gue masuk ke comfort zone ini, supaya gue bisa keluar jadi seorang pembaharu, yang bisa menciptakan "comfort zone-comfort zone" lainnya di dunia luar sana. Di luar sana masih banyak orang susah, masih banyak orang bodoh, masih banyak orang terbelakang dan ga berpikiran maju, orang miskin, dan sederetan kondisi-kondisi ironis masyarakat sekitar kita.

-peter, sedang dalam masa2 berpikir (baca: ngelamun) dan nganggur, jadinya ngupdate blog deh.. haha

hooiii

2009-03-09T16:02:00.002+07:00

BLOG GUEE!! PAKABAR??? Long time no see!! hahaha .... Maaann, jenuh banget pikiran gw, pingin libur sehari ajaaa ~~ Anyway, minggu ini bakal jadi minggu sengsara gue sepertinya, tugasnya banyak, laporannya juga, pelajaran blom ngerti, kapan gue bisa fokus lagi ya? perasaan semester ini sksnya ga sebanyak semester kemaren.. Yah, meskipun gitu gue bersyukur selama 2 bulan awal semester ini udah bikin beberapa hal yang produktif.. meskipun hanya sedikit yg akademis.. hoho Yaak!! Gw mesti semangat lagi nih,,, ROCK ON!!

I'm back to say goodbye..

2009-02-05T23:41:00.007+07:00

For sometimes I didn't remember I had this blog

Poor little bloggy..

I promise I'll write down some more worth-to-read stuffs..

But, I think I might not be able to write something this week, this month, or this semester.. (geez, I hope it won't be that long)

Guess this big guy has lots of big things to do from now on..

Well, see you soon..

Take Care

-Pete-

Chill guys, I'm cool

2009-01-11T22:54:00.002+07:00

Siang itu, gue dapet SMS:

"Bang, mama denger kamu udah punya pacar ya? Koq ga bilang-bilang? Mama sih ga ngelarang, cuma kalo nyari pacar kalo bisa yang seiman ya"

Huh, cape deh. Waktu gue dapet SMS itu, gue diem aja. Biasa aja malah. Bahkan gue rada tertawa dalam hati.

"Haha, dapet gosip dari mana nih si mama? Pasti si uli & baby udah ngarang yang nggak-nggak, lagian siapa yang pacaran juga?", pikir gue.

Gue ga bales SMS mama. Anggap angin lalu.

Tapi rada lama kemudian gue mikir. "Seiman. Hmmf, segitu pentingnya kah kriteria itu dalam pacaran? Emang apa ruginya kalo punya pacar yang beda agama? Trus kalo agamanya sama, bakal jadi jaminan hidup okeh gitu? Belum tentu juga kan?"

...

Yah, gue cuma bisa berdoa smoga diberikan yang terbaik. That's all. Big Amen guys!! AMEN

But for now.. Ah, who cares? Gue ga peduli. I have my friends right now. Really good friends. Ga ada yang bisa gantiin mereka. And thank God, ga ada aturan "milih temen juga mesti yang seiman". That would be really stupid. Kalo ada aturan gitu, mungkin kita hidup sendiri aja kali ye? Di gua ato dimana, biar ga ketemu manusia satupun. Supaya kita ga tau ada makhluk yang namanya manusia, dimana kita bisa saling berinteraksi, berteman, berbagi kasih.

Iiih, siapa yang pacaran sih? Orang gue blum punya pacar kok, dasar rese. Lu kira nyari pacar gampang? Plus aturan-aturan dunia ini (atau aturan kalian ya?) yang musti seiman, sesuku, sebangsa, setanah air segala.

Oh God, help.

*dan gue inget gue pernah nulis tulisan kayak gini

Greeting 2009

2009-01-01T17:42:00.002+07:00

Holla!! It's 1st January of 2009!! Happy 2009 everybody!

Actually, writing the number "2009" here is kinda freaking me out. Why? Because this means, next year is 2010! And I'm supposed to be graduated from this lovely college next year. Lord Jesus... Bless me..

Anyway, another new year, another resolutions made.. Ah, resolutions, it's such a very great commitment to make your life a little bit meaningful , that is, if only we can just keep those resolutions.

So what's the point of making unrealistic resolutions if at the end of the year we just can't keep our words and promises? Well, everybody loves dreaming, wishing for something better, right? So why don't we make another resolutions list this year? Yep, make yourself a drop down list of cool resolutions ppl! And here are some of my new year's resolutions list (just a sneak peek, I wouldn't write them all down here duh!)..

Spend more time with God. Oh Heaven, have mercy on me... (What's this? "bad boy gone good"?)
Be a nice person. Everyday. That includes: less offensive rude words; giving people a very warm personality; no more fake praising, praising should be from the very bottom of my heart- as if..; minimize cynical mean look; and so on.. (Again, this one is feasible, yet hard to do)
Concentrate on my study. Gosh, what was I doing in the whole last year?
... and lot's more. Well, many of them are umm.. personal, hahaha..

Despite the lame new year's eve party with my mom's family -that is I'm staying in my room, on my bed, in front of the TV, watching 30 rock marathon all day long, while all the elder, uncles and aunties were having those lame sweet talk conversation thingy, and the little cousins were gone crazy, running everywhere in the house, making hideous screams and laughs, and often bouncing on my bed like they thing it was a trampoline or something- The barbeque was great actually. Yeah, I just love barbeque. But still, I miss those midnight praying times with my family (yeah, we always did that thing, in Batak culture we call it martangiang - literally means praying, so that God would hear our plea. Making introspection to ourselves for bad things we did in a whole year, and make a new bright commitment for the next year).

Another major thing I already made on this very first day of the year was... changing my pencil case !! It is made from nylon or something, an it has this fishing net texture, you know, like the one they use for fishing (LOL), or like the one they use for sewing or knitting stuff. Actually, only the color changes, from shinny cheerful banana yellow - well, it's a little bit ewwey gooey slimy green now, due to some spills and aging, look at the picture, haha- To sizzling hot chili red,my favorite color! Heheh, I came across this unbelievably similar thing a few days ago. Don't know, are they siblings or something?

Anyway, I keep the purple hard rock pin and the Empire State New York key chain with my name written on it. The contains are all the same. Hope this new flaming thing will bring many good luck this year! Yeah right :p

Once again, Happy New Year 2009! Hope this one is another good year :)

-Pete-

Veni Domine

2008-12-26T11:22:00.006+07:00

Have heard about "Inspirational Moments 2"? It's a compilation album released by EMI records, some years ago (I think it was around late 90's, I was still a school kid back then).

I just found this long lost album when I browsed my friend's music, and coincidentally came across this thing.

Listening to these kind of "mystical" songs are somewhat mm.. "spiritual" *yearite~ And freak enough. LOL.

Anyway, I like this song, Veni Domine by Bara Basikova. It's a Latin song - cool huh? The lyrics are deep, about praise to the Lord. *Does this means that I'm a good Christian now? :p

Veni Domine - Bara Basikova

VENI DOMINE

Deus meus in te confido

labia mea laudabunt te Jesu

agnus dei in te confido

audi voces te adorant, te precantes

animam meam levavi ad te

Benedictus tu coqnovisti me

te laudamus veni domine

Deus meus inte confido

defende nos ab hostibus Jesu

agnus dei in te confido

presta pacis incrementum, memento verbi

animam meam levavi ad te

Benedictus - miserere nobis

te laudamus veni domine

Deus meus in te confido

agnus dei qui tolis preccata mundi

sine te nihil est in domine

Jesu Christe, Redemptor omnium

te laudamus veni domine

And here's the English translation, credits to enbrethiliel

COME, LORD

My God, I trust in You.

My lips will praise You, Jesus.

Lamb of God, I trust in You.

Listen, voices adore You, praying to you

I have lifted up my soul to You.

Blessed are You; You have understood me.

We praise You. Come, Lord!

My God, I trust in You.

Defend us from the enemies, Jesus.

Lamb of God, I trust in You.

Help the increase of peace. Remember Your word.

I have lifted up my soul to You.

Blessed One, have mercy on us.

We praise you. Come, Lord!

My God, I trust in You.

Lamb of God Who takes up the sins of the world.

Without You, no one is in the Lord.

Jesus Christ, Redeemer of all,

We praise you. Come, Lord!

source: lettersfromnz, enbrethiliel, ay_link

2008 Christmas

2008-12-25T21:58:00.010+07:00

It's Christmas people! So let me greet the world with a nice season's greetings:

Feliz Navidad, próspero año y felicidad!

(It means Merry Christmas, prosperous year and happiness!)

Actually this is the very first time for me to spend a Christmas moment without my family (mom, dad, sis, you all got my message didn't you?) Happy Christmas to you guys, and I really hope to see all of you next year -which means, a couple of weeks from now hoho-

Never mind, I actually enjoyed this year Christmas - except that homesick feeling, it's kinda tough actually :(.

I was emotionally - and spiritually - drawn when people sang that classic "Silent Night" Christmas song - with all the candles of course. First I thought it would be pretty lame, just as I always thought in those past years. I was like, oh come on, we're wasting fossil energy here~ can we just skip this song?

But that's not the case this year. I surprisingly enjoyed that private moment with God. Haha.. thank goodness, I finally got something from going to church :p

This year's Christmas message was mmm, about "Spare your time with God more often" or something like that. And believe me, I do really get the message. Seriously. Hope I can be a better person from now.

O yeah, I like that performance those vocal group in Church showed last night. The song was "My grown up Christmas list". I like the lyrics though. And the piano arrangement were good. I should give it a try sometimes. That is, next year! Hahah.

Owyeah, along with the Christmas spirit. I recently began to enjoy (again) this bond song, "Jingle Bell Rock". I was so mad about this song for a couple of days ago, and I tried to play the violin part. Hoho,, it's kinda easy actually. I love it :

The greetings today are -as usual- abundant. Especially from SMS. It's always like that when it comes to national holiday, or big even blabla... Still, I didn't get any from her.. (Huhu, like that will ever going to happen lol XD). Naah, I shouldn't expect to much about that...

Anyway, once again Merry Christmas to all of you! Send me some presents ok?? :p (babe, have you got my present??)

"BHP: Making another huge gap between people and education?"

2008-12-24T13:43:00.002+07:00

Why when it comes for our Government to make a major decision, controversies always emerge everywhere?

It is pathetic.

Our government doesn't place education at the first place. Although they have raised the number of educational grant, it's still not enough. We need much more than just 'small gifts'. People need a huge amount of long-term, continuous educational aid.

Unfortunately, We -here in Indonesia- have lots more problems than what our neighbors have. Our neighbors don't have to deal with famine, health issue, corruption, and lots other obstacles, difficulties that are constraining one's country to go forward.

I have met lots of people who are not as 'lucky' as me. Many of my friends on high school, junior high school, or even on elementary school, weren't lucky enough to continue their study. They ended up working instead. In fact, some of those 'unlucky' people might be way better than me, they got talent, they're pretty smart actually, and more hardworking. Unfortunately, finance is their constrain to achieve higher education.

In my view, education must be top prioritized, among others. Our government should really concern about this issue. We have to learn from other country. Consider Malaysia and some other countries. Schools are for free!

Education must be made accessible for all people (by term 'accessible', I refer to 'free' education. No more tuition fee!). At least for some generations. By doing such thing, I hope it will eventually build up such foundations, basics that are fundamental in order to escape people from poverty, taking our nation into the next level i.e. a more prosperous nation.

I say, BHP will somehow deteriorate many poor people's access to higher education: schools and educational institutions will suck up people's money to pay their operational costs, employees' wages, etc. Tuition cost will be sky rocketing! It's sad, considering only rich people will get a taste of college life, being a high-class worker, and live happily. While in the other hand, those 'unlucky' people will be more and more left behind, facing difficulties and obstacles in their attempt to get away from poverty.

Even though the government said that this BHP implementation won't affect much aspects, as we know, it is more easily said than done.

Ultimately, I personally can only hope, that this BHP-thing will came up with good impact for goodness sake.

-Pete-

Amazing

2008-12-12T20:29:00.002+07:00

Hehe, ini gue kutip dari milis, cool fact..

Luar biasa!!!

Pernahkah teman2 membayangkannya?

Pada waktu benda-benda angkasa ini diperbandingkan,

kita menjadi sadar betapa kecilnya bumi dan kita para penghuninya..

Jagad raya yang sangat besar

Dalam skala ini bumi kita tidak kelihatan lagi

Di sini matahari hanya sebesar debu!

Antares adalah bintang paling terang di angkasa. Jaraknya lebih dari 1000 tahun cahaya dari bumi.

Lalu...

Siapakah kita?

Apakah tujuan hidup kita?

Apa yang membuat hidup kita, manusia, berharga?

Masihkah kita bisa menepuk dada & berkata "inilah aku!"...??

Yah, intinya mo bilang, manusia itu tidak ada apa2nya lah dibanding alam semesta ini.

...

So what? Yaudah, biarin aja benda2 itu ada disana, somewhere out there. Kita sebagai manusia hendaknya menjalani hidup sebaik-baiknya. ... . Ya gitulah~

*Apa hubungannya dengan nepuk2 dada?? Hahah aneh banget sih pesannya.. Ato guenya yang kurang sensitif ya??

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Hari terakhir kuliah

2008-12-12T11:47:00.003+07:00

Hari ini hari terakhir gue kuliah di semester 5. Cepet banget ya?

Perasaan gue, kemaren baru masuk kuliah bulan agustus, eh minggu depan udah UAS.

Trus gue bertanya-tanya, apa sih yang gue kerjain 5 bulan ini?

Coba gue inget. Hmm, yang jelas bulan2 awal kuliah kemaren (agustus-september) pikiran gue masih ngambang, masih kebawa suasana liburan.

Paling yang lumayan bikin gue sibuk adalah PAB ISO'08. Hehe yah, meskipun gue bukan pj, tapi teteup aja ikut2an sibuk.

trus, bulan september-oktober itu. Wuah, jenuh banget ah pokoknya. Dari yang bawaan kuliah nyantai, tiba2 gue diserang ama setumpuk tp + praktikum yang segambreng.. T__T

Hiks2, masih inget gue ngerjain tp JARTEL pertama kali, 20 soal, 6 halaman, tulis tangan, begadang.. Yep ppl, kehidupan praktikum udah mulay. Dan laporan2 (yang paling gue eneg) itu mesti gue kerjain. Dan itu bukan apa2, waktu akhir september (apa oktober awal ya?), gue pernah 4 praktikum seminggu. Awalnya gue ngerasa, ahh, sepertinya biasa2 aja, bisa lah~

Yah, ternyata, bener2 exhausting, 4 hari 4 malem bgadang, ngerjain laporan, bikin high quality bacot. That was the worst week ever so far.

Yah, disela2 waktu itu gue juga mesti ikut latian ISO, orkestra saya di kampus. Every night, 5-9pm. Kalo dipikir2, ngapain gue nyape2in diri ikutan begituan di tingkat 3 yah? Ditengah-tengah praktikum yang menyiksa ini. Belum lagi itu jaman2nya UTS pula. Argh, waktu itu bener2 sibuk, tepar, berat lah.

Dan ternyata, gue emang bukan manusia super. Hiks2. Gue ternyata ga sehebat orang2 itu, yang meskipun sibuk, nilainya teteup okeh. Bisa diliat dari nilai UTS gue yang biasa-biasa aja, jauh berbeda dari tingkat 2 dulu, dimana kehidupan sangat tenang, pelajaran gampang, praktikum ecek2, ISO rada nganggur, dan tentunya nilai2 UTS gue waktu itu lumayan bagus.

Sekarang semua udah selesai. No more praktikum, no more latihan ISO, konser udah selesai, ga ada lagi tepar2an.

UAS minggu depan nih pren.. Yang gue bisa lakukan hanyalah mengejar materi. Minggu depan ada PIE, medan, & RPL. Tiga-tiganya ngambang, ngertinya setengah2.

Mari bertobat, i still got few days to catch up..

We're sick ppl

2008-11-23T08:51:00.002+07:00

Why do I and my friends turn into nasty bullies? All team up together just to corner, intimidate, a pathetic weaker person..

Bullying? AT MY AGE? Man, we're being nasty here~

Headlines

2008-11-12T21:28:00.002+07:00

Hoho.. This is my first post this week.. I was being so busy in past few days. No chance for blogging. And now I'm posting 3 topics at once. All of them are last week headlines. A bit out of date actually. Well, now's payback time!! Obama.. O-what?? Ooow, Obama.. Oh-i-don't-even-really-care :p As the whole world knows, US got their new man of the white house, Mr. Barky O-baby.. *did i spelled that right?? xp What I totally don't get is the fact that my people here in Indonesia really dramatize the story. Our media here totally over-publish this election thingy. I've got enough headlines from E!, Channel News Asia, CNN, Oprah, and even on MTv!! *err... wait, did MTv do it too?? And our local TV stations here, they seem like really proud of Mr.Obama, just because he spent his not-that-long-period childhood in one elementary school in Jakarta.. OMG, that's so decades ago!! I bet Obama doesn't even care about it anymore.. The TV stations, they're just either out-of-story to publish, or they're just following trends from the US.. Pathetic.

Even the poor-rated local gossip show (say, Insert!, InsertInvestigasi, Silet, etc..) aired this Obama thingy all day the day he got elected, along with pointless local celebrity gossips, such as "The 40 y.o Syekh who wants to mary a 12y.o little girl"*sick.., "Dewi Persik", "BBB", and those other desperately-looking for-attention celebrity. They're sooooo PATHETIC, becoming a somewhat urban joke and humor xD.

Poor Obama.. now he is as "popular" as those stupid celebrity-disguissed clowns just because he's on the same gossip show as them.. =))

Geez, why would we even give a damn care about him? Our country sure needs a lot more attention here, we're so pathetic in here world! Come and save us.. :p

Porn bill... Totally lame... Get real.. Why are we limitting human's natural behaviour?? Okay, I know that porn is bad *fact..., it will somewhat degrade our morality and can cause some bad effects. But what I don't really get about this stupid porn bill is it's lack of limitations, boundaries, or the definition of porn it self. Totally abstract. This stupid bill doesn't clearly define "porn".. Now people are becoming more cautious about what they should wear, what they should say and publish to the whole world, only for a stupid reason: this porn bill. Otherwise, they will ended up in jail and pay some fine.. Say, if you're a damn hot babe, with naturally nice curves :p, wearing just moderate-closed enough T-shirt and apple bottom jeans, with no means of being slutty at all, you can coincidentally make some guys ummm... let's say, "sexually aroused"??? So, is this porn? Nope, I don't think so. The girl just acts plain. She's innocent. No means of showing off some "pornographic" display. It's just the guys dirty thought. But unfortunately, according to the porn bill passage, the girl actually comitted a "pornoaction".. sigh.. More web references can be found here and here And the stupid bill also stated that "spouse kissing", "sunbathing in bikini or swimwear", "showing off sensual part of one's body that can make other people being aroused (horny)" and many others are categorized as PORN.. yea rite.. Now they banned kissing on the lips in public?? Hello!! This is 2008!! We're not living in 7th century anymore ppl!! Do you watch todays TV shows? Kissing is sooooo normal *but kids definitely need parental advisory about this.. And what about those sports ads with bikinis? What about miss universe peagant? What about swimsuit modelling? It's so funny that now bikini is mistaken as a porn material, while I think they're totally normal. Girls DO Wear bikini's right?? What if a dude wears a swimsuit? Is that porn too?? Will he be accused as showing off porn material? Who's with me? And one more thing, can we really measure how people can be sexually aroused by other thing/other people?? there's no such thing as "horny-meter"... So I think there's no logical reason to state that people can't make/show/play something that can cause other people to be sexually aroused, because the passage is definitely lack of clear definition about what's hot-that will make you horny enough- and what's not. I absolutely agree that this porn bill indeed has some good means: to protect womens right, to prevent underaged children to be involved into porn industry, and to [somehow] help directing peoples morality to be better*which i doubt it will... seriously, they want to improve our morality by this way? I agree that porn is a serious issue. But to make a ridicoulus unprepared bill passage?? lawl... Ultimately, I think this porn bill really needs to be re-considered. And I think there are lots of other big problems our nation currently dealing with. Namely education, crime, prosperity issue, health, corrupt mentality, etc.. Mr. Am-rowh-zeee, and friends.. So, they're dead. D-E-A-D. So what? They're trully pure terrorists I think.. Whose mistakenly interpret "Jihad" as a mean of "creating world peace by killing each other, innocent people".. That's soooo not Islam. Moslem people I know are so nice and kind, they're very tolerate to other non-Moslem people. My mom's family, my friends, bestfriends, many of them are Moslems. And they're way too kind.. They're being so good and nice in person compared to evil me :p.. And as far as I know, all religion views in this world actually support WORLD PEACE, don't they? So there's no acceptable reason to kill other human beings. In fact, I think it's a big hard decision for our government to execute those Mr.Terrorists. And they ended up with a final decision: to execute them. To end their lives. Difficult choice. Hmm.. I just hope that this rozie-sweetie execution thingy won't cause more innocent civil people being killed by other amrozie's follower who wants to commit revenge... That's all~ Cheers =)

Evaluasi Mid Semester

2008-11-06T23:37:00.003+07:00

Kenapa performa gue semester ini sejauh ini jelek? Karena pelajarannya susah? Engga ah, RE & sinsis juga pelajaran yang waktu itu susah banget, tapi gue bisa ngikutin koq.. Karena dosennya ga enak? Hmm.. ga juga, sebelum ini dosen yang paling susah banget buat gue ikutin adalah dosen sinsis n probstat.. Tapi waktu itu nilai gue A koq.. *_* Karena temen-temennya "baru"? Lingkungan baru? Hmm.. Ngaruh ya? Menurut gue sama-sama asik ah. Karena praktikumnya banyak? Sepertinya ga. Semester 3 dulu gue juga dapet shock therapy PTE 1. Laporan praktikum dikumpul 24 jam setelah praktikum. Emang pertama-tama rada susah. Tapi setelah itu udah terbiasa. Sekarang? Hmm... Praktikum kemaren emang bikin hectic sih. Tapi masa karena itu? Karena suka maen game? Ga juga. Semester 3,4 dulu kyknya gue gila DDR deh xD Apa karena gue kurang fokus di kelas? ... Emang gue pernah fokus ya?:p Biasanya gue fokus ke dosen cuma tahan 5 menitan doang. Abis itu konsentrasi buyar kemana-mana. Trus balik fokus lagi for another 5 menit.. Trus ngelantur lagi.. hihohiho Setelah pemikiran mendalam, gue menemukan titik perbedaan krusial antara peter di semester 3, dengan gue di semester ini.

GUE TIDAK BACA BUKU

Gue sekarang jarang sekali baca buku kuliah. Dulu waktu semester 3, gue baca tuh buku matdis, Rossen. Tiap bab, gue kerjain banyak soal. Probstat (lupa pengarangnya ^^! ada yang inget?) juga gue lahap meski rada2 ngambang bacanya. RE tiap minggu dikasih latian ama Pak Jon tercintah, makanya bisa. TekDig gue baca tuh sampe bab minggu2 terakhir. Sedra&Smith - buku khas elektronika - juga merupakan santapan harian waktu semester 4. MJ. Roberts & Chi-Tsong Chen juga kayaknya gue bacain. Matek dapet slide pak dosen, kayaknya ngerti-ngerti aja ah..

Jadi, kesimpulannya adalah, gue emang harus baca buku-buku yang menyenangkan ini..

SisKom. Sistem Komunikasi. ga peduli gimana, nih mata kuliah mesti dibaca bukunya. Gue mesti ngerti. Dosennya ngajarnya kayak... yah... begitulah... "sulit dipahami". Tipe yang ngajar pake slide. Titik. Suaranya juga sangat perlu pake amplifier :p Belom lagi aura ngantuknya.. Beuh.. Siskom tuh kelas yang dateng-fokus 5 menit- tidur

RPL. Rekayasa Perangkat LunakHmm... Kurang ngebosenin apa coba? Pelajaran yang isinya teori+konsep.. Asik sih, dosennya juga oke koq. Tapi kenapa gue susah fokus ya? Padahal gampang euh pelajarannya

Medan... No comment. First-half of this semester bener2 totally waste of time. Dosennya, menurut saya, terlalu pintar. Terlalu sibuk. Jarang hadir di kelas. Trus kalo dikelas meng"gampang"kan segala sesuatu, dikiranya kita udah ngerti medan kayak beliau. Dan satu lagi, materi ajarannya kurang terstruktur dengan baik. Lompat sana-kemari.. Buat medan, gue beneran mesti baca iskander.

PS. Pengolahan Sinyal. Okee lah. Meski gue suka ga nangkep si ibu mo nerangin apa, tapi gue at least berusaha ngikutin kuliahnya.

Komdat. Komunikasi Data. Hmm.. Gampanglah. Teori. Pengetahuan umum mah kalo gue bilang.. Dosennya.. Yah begitulah.. Kebetulan aja namanya sama kaya my middle name :p

Rekling. Rekayasa Linkungan. Gue lumayan suka nih pelajaran, dosennya oke, ilmu yang gue dapet juga banyak dan baru. Tapi tetep aja, kenapa gue bawaannya ngantuk melulu?? Guys, help me!!

PIE. Pengantar Ilmu Ekonomika.Yah... Entah kenapa gue nganggep enteng nih pelajaran. *ih parah banget sih gue?? Tapi ilmu & teori2 yang gue dapet asik loh..

Jadi intinya, ga ada satu kuliahpun yang menurut gue, udah khatam. *what??

Bingung.. Mesti berubah..

Hiks hiks... Gue kangen "gue" yang dulu!! Gue kangen gue yang rajin!! Yang demen baca buku kuliah ampe bego *loh?. Yang bisa manage waktu dengan oke banget.

Kemanakah peter yang itu? Yang UTS MatDisnya 100? Yang UTS SinSisnya seratus? UAS MATEK 2nya CEPEK?

Apa kemampuan gue cuma sebatas itu aja?? Halah apaan sih??

Apa gue tidak sepintar temen-temen yang lain? Hmm.. Bukannya-sombong-bukannya-congkak nih ya, gue ngerasa sama pinternya kayak anak2 elektro yang lain koq. In fact, kami semua satu angkatan anak2 yang pintar *yaiyalahya..

Ga ada gunanya nyombong2in ke diri sendiri masa lalu yang tak seberapa itu pete.. Pikirin masa sekarang aja. Gimana caranya lu bisa tetep oke. Stay away from kemalasan.

medan dwonk...

2008-11-06T19:24:00.004+07:00

Gue abis ujian MEDAN ELEKTROMAGNETIK. Electromagnetic Fields and Waves. It's pure science. It's totally physics. Dan menurut gue itu mata kuliah dasar banget. Fundamental. Dari SMA kita juga udah ngerasain lah. Cuma yang sekarang porsinya buat anak kuliah... Lepel olimpiade gitu deh.. *hahah.. iyaya?? And i just did it. I had an electromagnetic field exam today. It's like a once in a lifetime opportunity. Ga semua orang bisa ngerasain ujian medan di ITB. *halah lebay~ Dan tadi gue baru ngalamin what so called ujian medan...

Sukseskah?

Yahh... Unfortunately no honey... I screwed it. Sighs... I didn't answer all of the questions.

Emang susah ya?

Sayangnya tidak. Soalnya sebenernya gampang. Sumpah gue tau rumus hukum coloumb (yang sialnya gampang banget tapi gue ga kepikiran sama sekali) buat jawab soal nomer 1. Gue juga udah gape make hukum Ampere buat jawab soal nomer 3. Gue juga udah pernah baca penjelasan di iskander tentang gimana sampe si Maxwell ngelengkapin hukum Ampere buat jawab soal nomer 5, dan gue yakin banget dosen gue yang AGUNG itu pernah ngejelasin pake divergence (apa curl ya?) & integral or something~

Trus kenapa?

Jiper baca soal nomer 1. Keterangannya banyak banget. Abis gue gambar sketsanya.. "Oke! gue bisa nih.. Coba gue pake hukum gauss tentang medan listrik." Sret.. sret.. (nyoret2 & mikir bentar).. "Hmm... koq ga bisa yah????? Kenapa gue jadi bingung make hukum gauss begini???? Kan gue tinggal nyari muatan yang dilingkupi oleh "permukaan" ini. Trus gue tinggal integralin buat dapet medannya.. Ngg...??? Tapi ini "volume"nya berupa titik... T__T gimana dong??" ... Sumpah gue buntu banget ngerjain nomer 1a!! Akhirnya jawaban gue berhenti sebatas sketsa soal yang tak seberapa itu~

Thank God ada nomer 2.. Polarisasi gelombang. Untung banget gue ngerjain soal beginian tadi malem. Jadi bisa.. -_-

Nomer 3... Hmm... "Arus listrik terdistribusi dalam koordinat silinder dengan sumbu Z sebagai sumbu sbb:

I = 3A az r= 0cm,

K = 5 A/cm az r=2cm*@_@ apa ini??? apaan yang satuannya Ampere/panjang?? Help!!

J= 1 A/cm2 az 4

a. Gambarkan garis-garis medan magnet!

b&c. H(r) & gambar grafiknya!"

Kalo mo ngitung fluks magnet yang dihasilkan dari kawat biasanya pake hukum Ampere. Oke gue coba kerjain. Tapi apaan nih "K"???? Emang ada ya?? *cemas* Yasudahlah.. gue ngarang dong. Ngitung arusnya pake K x r... Sungguh desperado T_T

No 4. Tentang polarisasi gelombang lagi. Yuk mari kerjain..

Ntah kenapa gue tiba2 lupa rumus buat ngitung kecepatan fasa. Anjring.... "apaan ya? kayaknya omega/beta deh.. Yah, percaya ama feeling gue aja deh."

Hitung medan magnetik! Siipppp!

Gambar sketsa gelombang... Hmm.. Begini dong.. Sret.. sret *jadilah gelombang 3 dimensi elliptical yang entah kenapa untuk alesan yang norak gue bangga banget ngegambarnya..

No 5. Tunjukkan bahwa persamaan Ampere tidak memenuhi hukum kekekalan muatan.....

sapiii.... gue pernah baca nih, c dosen juga kayak pernah nyindir2 ginian di kelas. Ntar deh gue balik lagi

No 6. Polarisasi gelombang lagi..

Aduh ntar aja deh gue kerjain yang lain dulu,

No 7. Oooh sapii... poinnya ada 4!!! 7a,b,c,d... :(

a. Hukum Maxwell bentuk integral dan diferensial, dan arti fisisnya. Cil~ soal standar.. Yuk jawab ;P

....

Ternyata PANJANG bo!!! ada lebih dari 1 halaman dong jawaban gue!!

pegel :(

b. Apa yang dimaksud dengan medan?? Contoh medan?

VIVA BACOT!!!!

c. Ada berapa macam bacot? eh salah, ada berapa macam medan berdasarkan bentuk dan sumbernya??

another not-that-smart "bacot" i did... Ngarang total!

d. Gravitasi n tornado. Apa itu medan? Oh iya dong! Yuk bacot lagi bikin alesan n rumus matematisnya..

No8. Yah, something tentang kombinasi hukum maxwell bentuk diferensial buat medan magnetik, hukum ampere, curl, blabla... HAJAR!!!

yang nomer c gue ga ngerti sama sekali maksud nih soal apaan.. Kalimatnya ga terlalu jelas menurut gue. Ambigu. Kurang detail. yasudahlahya.. lewatin aja dulu.

Jadi gue belom jawab nomer 1a&b, nomer 5 & nomer 6, 3 masih rada ngasal, 4 masih belom inget rumus kecepatan fasa.. shittitaloo...

Panik. Masa ga ada yang gue yakin nih jawabannya? 8 nomer? T__T

Ngeliat kiri-kanan. Oh, orang2 tampangnya udah autis semua, ga cuma gue doang. hihihi...

Yah udahlah, akhirnya gue bolak balik ngejawab soal yang masih bolong-bolong, sebisa mungkin gue ngasih smart guess gue, yang mudah2an bener... :p

Waktunya kurang. Soalnya kebanyakan. Analisisnya perlu waktu lama. Caranya terlalu ribet. 120 menit buat 8 soal menurut gue sangat kurang guys. Itu artinya satu soal 15 menit doang! Belum lagi waktu buat nulis nama&NIM, ngerobek kertas, ngapus2in pake tipex, tanda-tangan absen *yea right, corat-coret.. waaa.. Padahal biasanya gue ngerjain soal tuh rata2 20-30 menit! Baca soal+ngerti maksud soal+analisis soal aja gue bisa nyampe 10 menit sendiri! Berarti gue cuma bisa ngerjain integral & turunan2 yang rumit itu dalam waktu 5 menit doang?? :(

Mo komplain n nyesel ga guna pit.. udah selesai...

Time's Up!

2008-11-01T22:18:00.012+07:00

One full torturing week didn't stop there. This week is going to be WORSE. I'll have 3 *yes, that's 3* exams this week. And i completely HAVE NO IDEA about the subject at all. Geez, what've i been doing the whole time?? Now i'm working pretty hard to catch up with my friends, they seem like already understand everything..

And now i'm regreting things. Hixhix, if only i could spend more times with my books, rather than browsing this stupid internet all the time. Hoohoohoo. Internet is fun, i know, but I've spent too much time on it this whole month.

Imagine this: everyday in the morning i check my email, and there's always new messages in my inbox. From people, friends, mailing lists, notifications from STUPID social websites, and all those other stuff. And all those messages forced me to read them. Meaning, i've to log in to that stupid friendster, or that addictive (yet really time wasting) facebook.. And what did i get people?? NOTHING. Seriously, you only got whatsocalled "social networking" benefits on such sites (got new "friends" *yeah, for real*, news, friends update, informations, having a little chit-chat on messenger, etc). And i realize it's not that worthed. I have more important things to do right now. Lot's of them. And i bet, there's actually lot of things you can do right now besides reading my stupid blog.

And i do the same thing at night every night, last month. I log in to my email, check some mail, read them, browsing more sites, googling, and the cycle goes on... It goes like this everyday since last month and i just can't stop.

FYI i spend about 2-3 hours each time i browse the internet. Which means, i spend almost 6 hours everyday, in the morning & at night, doing something (almost) useless.. 42 hours a week, 168 hours a month!! That is 7 days in total! one-fourth of your entire life a month!!! CRAP THOSE NUMBERS!! I JUST REALIZE HOW MUCH TIME I ACTUALLY HAVE!!

And now i'm regretting how i've wasted my precious time this month. All day. Everyday. Sniffs.. whish i had spent my precious time more on productive thing: Studying, practicing on my music, cleaning-up my room, finishing some tasks, and lots more

Wait, does this mean that I can't go online and browsing some stuffs?? Should I be like those freakass, nerds, and weirdos, and those pathetic close-minded study-oriented people?? Nope. You don't have to be such a freak ppl...

It's absolutely allright for being lazy if you're in your leisure time. In fact, browsing this internet is really fun. I admit that. You can learn something new, you'll get cool stuff, play some games, listen to musics, read news, and thousands of other internet benefits..

But please... Use your time wisely. There's time for this, time for that.. There's always time for everything. There's always time for browsing the internet and playing computer games. And it's absolutely not at this busy time, where actually you have something else more important to do. Seriously.

Tips from me, for me:

Browse the internet for fun and cool stuff (such as youtube, facebook, googling, reading wikipedia, reading friend's blog, downloading cool stuffs, posting something) only when you don't have classes, homework, tasks, or coming exams. Or at least, make it once a week..
Check your email only once a day. Whether it's in the morning, or before you go to bed. Read the messages title only. If you think the message it's important, then read it, otherwise (such as notifications, spams, or other useless information), don't even try to click on it, just delete it
Do not go online more than 30 minutes. I know it's hard to stop. But, it's worth trying, somehow it'll make a habit. Use an alarm if necessary. If you really need to go online, make it quick. Don't spend hours in front your desktop ppl.
And other tips you make yourself, for you, adjust with your own needs :p

Hmm that's all from me. Now for you ppl, close this window (yes, all with the internet explorer) right now. Immediately.

Don't you have something more important to do right now??

Nickelback - Far Away

2008-10-28T20:23:00.009+07:00

Ugh.. how i miss this song Nickelback - Far Away, 2005 This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case there's just one left' Cause you know, That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand I'd give it all I'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up 'Cause you know, So far away Been far away for far too long But you know I wanted you to stay ' Cause I needed to hear you say That I love you I have loved you all along And I forgive you For being away for far too long So keep breathing' Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it Hold on to me and, never let me go

And here's the clip to freshen up some memories...

Homesick

2008-10-27T20:48:00.006+07:00

Hix2.. Why in such a sudden i feel so homesick, ppl?

I miss those times when uli, baby, and i went crazy, doing silly things, make fun of stuffs, singing crazy made-up song, laughing hysterically for IDIOTIC reasons, untill mom actually got to yell at us to cut it out. I miss u siss..

I miss mom's spaghetti.. I remember it well, everytime i was sick, i asked mom to make spaghetti for dinner. And at that very afternoon, she went down to town to shop for some ingredients.

I miss my piano!!! I miss those times when i used to play it.. Christofori, how are you? I miss attending piano courses. Monday & Thursday, 4-to-5 pm, with Mr. Ubay - great teacher.

I miss my dad when he gave me extra money everytime i asked him, "pa minta duit jajan dong :p.."

I miss that old computer in my home. Where i played nothing other than The Sims and pokemon saphire.

I miss those days when i can play DanceDanceRevolution all day long...

I miss sitting all day, being lazy, on that old couch, where i did nothing but watching cable tv all day long...

I miss my complete collections of detective conan, dragon ball, "lima sekawan" (five), little house series, St. Claire, and lots more.. Are they still there? Or did mom already throw them away?

I miss perfect10 98.7fm, power98, class95, symphony92!! Why isn't there any english radio stations here huh?

I miss "bak-kut-teh", "mie pok", "sup ikan", "gong-gong", "rejeki", "teh obeng", and those other local dishes..

I miss those chinesse people who speak hokkian... And I miss that malay dialect.. Weird, i used to hate it XD LOL!!

I miss Turi Beach n Resort!

I miss... Those memories...

And i miss lots of other things i can't tell here that they could eventually bring tears to my eyes..

I miss my family!! can't believe I could ever miss u guys this bad~

o my god, i almost burst into tears right now

Lethal Week

2008-10-27T17:01:00.006+07:00

I just got back from campus and i'm so fucking tired right now. Today was a very tiring day. I haven't sleep yet since last night... (hmm... does "went to bed at 4 and got up at 4.30am" count as a sleep?). This is because last night i was working on 6-sets-of-laboratory-pre-assignments thingy and it took DAYS to finish. I actually had been working on it from saturday, but i often got stuck, so it really took a lot of time and i was doing it all sunday night long. Really really STRESSFUL..

And today i got a class at 7.30 am (it's suppossed to be at 7am). Yep, 7 fucking A.M. We have 7 am class in here ppl. And it's extremely torturing... 7 AM CLASS KILLS ME..When i finally came to the class, my lecturer, Mr. Monang - for the thousandth times in this semester - didn't show up. And i felt a little bit thankful for that, because i could still do some of my unfinished lab-assignments (by term "doing" actually means "last desperate attempt to finish your work by COPYING other's assignment" :p) - for the deadline is 9 am. So i QUICKLY finished those assignments. Geez what a rush..

The pressure didn't stop there people. I actually had a midtest held at 9 am. And my preparation WERE NOT ENOUGH. Believe me, i only got the chance to study for the test last night. I studied as hard as i could that night. I did a quick review on lectures notes and handouts. I tried so hard to keep stay up all night. And i did. I somehow managed to stay up (very very sleepy) till 4 am. It was SO HARD, i was so tired, sleepy, big yawns everytime, i wanted to go to sleep so bad :(

The 9 a.m test was S-U-C-K. I think i only got 2 answers right out of 4 questions. For god sake, i didn't have any idea about question number 3 & 4. I was thinking, "What the hell is this?"... So being in such a desperate situation and EXTREMELY TIRED, i couldn't think of any good answer, i finally decided to make up some (smart) answers :p. Better than to left those spaces blank i think. Anyway, i actually answered almost every question. Although i'm pretty sure my made-up answers for number 3 & 4 are totally wrong. :(

And HELL didn't stop there. I got ANOTHER midtest *yes, another..* at 1 p.m folks for goodness sake. And this was even worse. I didn't study for the test at all. What should i do? Being in such a panic, thank God i met my friends who were about to have this same test as i did. They sure helped me a lot. Thanks ppl. I studied for the test in less than 45 minutes. Haha the test was actually our homework last week. YIPPEY!! I just discussed it with my friends moments before the tests, so i surely still remembered the answers well enough. And we were allowed to open our books and notes! Huff.. What a relief.

But one hour of non-stop handwriting was such a PAIN!!! My left hand is still a little bit stiff right now :(

After the test i went home. And now i'm feeling so exhausted. I haven't sleep yet, really really tired. It's like you break into pieces guys. There's no passion at all shown on my face right now. I look like shit when i'm so tired like this. My eyes are so tired. They haven't took a rest at all. I'm so worry that my dark circles are getting worse. My left hand is still in pain because i had been writing things all day long :(. Whish i could use my right hand for writing...I could really use a reflexology therapy right now.

This isn't over yet guys, more tortures are coming this week. Today was just the beginning. Starting from tomorrow night, i'll be working on 4-days stream of goddamn laboratory reports: One of the most PAINFUL & TIRING work i've ever face in college life.. *yea rite..such a drama queen Hahaha.. I think i'll just deal with it. I can handle it. I'll rock it. There's nothing else i can do but to face it. Besides,

IT'S FOR THE SAKE OF BETTER FUTURE

what's your accent?

2008-10-25T14:08:00.010+07:00

Yesterday i was browsing some videos on youtube. And i came across this cute video:

Haha, she's sweet isn't she? Typically american girl next door. But this isn't about the content of the video i want to share with you. It's the accent. American accent.

And you know what? Me and my sister have been talking in english like this, with THICK AMERICAN ACCENT and naturaly cool SLANG phrases, since i couldn't remember when. yea rite..

And maybe you would ask us how we "learned" it? Hmhm.. Nope, we didn't learn it from a course, we've never been to the US, nor studied in expensive International School (our parents couldn't afford something like that, and i think schools like that are only intended for rich people only, who would pay anything just to get their average kid into that not-that-great school actually), or even took a conversation class (and you expect to be fluent in English by attending a conversation class in a pathetic country like Indonesia? LOL!! get real!!) WE DON'T TAKE ENGLISH CLASS. We DON'T do courses, We just don't. Private courses are for those who need studying aid badly. Our parent's said we didn't need any. And they are so right. We're pretty smart actually. Duh!

Probably what have caused us to talk in such a COOL american-english like this is because of many influences we got from wonderful american pop cultures. Watching american TV shows, listening to radio (yea'a, living near singapore pays off you know??), songs, and maybe because we used to listen to lots of people having conversation in English since we were just little kids.. Geez, now i feel thankful for my actually not-that-bad past.

really? is it that cool? what's so great about being able to speak in english anyway? nothing special~

Yep, that's true for some of you, and for people who live in advance countries who have english as their main language. But i've been thinking, i sometimes actually feel a little bit pitty for my friends here who doesn't speak English at all. Or having a very little english fluency, that they actually go to private courses, and ended up with no significant improvement. Or can only speak in english in such a pathetic indonesian-english way. *haha what's an "indonesian-english" anyway?? hmm.. you know :p Moreover, i sometimes feel a little bit sorry for some people who speak english in a poor, thick indonesian intonation and lame accent.. :p Haha, kidding.. actually that's good for them. At least they've tried.. Chill! I don't mean to brag about anything here, just to write down my story today in English. And if you can understand this post clearly, good for you ;) You're good at english, or even way better than me :) What am i anyway?

Shit happens baby..

2008-10-23T09:55:00.010+07:00

Was browsing my music library in my toshi-baby.. And i was a little bit shocked by the fact that I actually have so many mp3s n stuffs. Geez, i didn't even know i have these songs. A bunch of em. Maybe it waste half of my computer's memory..

Never mind.. I think i'll keep them. :p Hahaha.. So i effortlessly tried to organized them. Sorting albums, titles, singers, made some new folders, and stuffs. BORING. Man, what a lame work..

Eventually I came across Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway. And I was excited! Hey i love this! It's like i found something i haven't seen for years. Yeah, this album means a lot to me. One of my favorite albums. I remember i used to listen to this album everyday all day long when i was a high school student. Great times..

Then I played it.. Track by track...

Breakaway, Since U Been Gone, Behind These Hazel Eyes...

I did that sing-a-long thing.. Hella!! I still remember the lyrics!! Every song, line by line, perfectly, with no mistakes, and grammatically correct!! Yeah, i'm good at memorizing song lyrics.. Lectures note?? Ummm..

(continues squeaking lipsync, my style, yeah...)

And then the song changed, to the 4th single on that album, Because of You.. This song..

This song.. Was it some kind of flashback memory thingy strike me?

I remember those times, when i feel sad and lonely where i used to listen to this song (*teenage shitty problem, hah!). I remember exactly how i used to sing this song a little bit emotionally. Actually, i sang it in sort of hysterical way, sometimes a little bit dramatizing, screaming pathetically along with the high notes at the end of the last octave-raised chorus.. Almost crying (eww dude, what's the fucking problem?? me? almost crying?? get over it!!)

...

Shit.. i can't believe im telling you guys this, but i must confess, those days were sucks!! Yep.. there were this period in my life: where times were totally hard, everything was shit. And you felt like you were the unluckiest person in the world. You didn't know what's really happening on you. You just weren't sure what the reason was. And in every moment you were like being desperate. Problems countered. But you don't know exactly what those "problems" were. Felt like want to cry, although you didn't sure what were the causes. Being sad all the time. Faking a smile, tried to look tough. And the saddest part of all is you were like having nobody to talk to. Alone. Felt like your parents didn't even care, and no friends can't understand you. Your home were like hell. School were worse. You prayed to God for His help, but just didn't get the answer. Alone, completely lonely.

Man.. What an ear-irritating teenage drama

Now i'm remembering those time. Thinking over it. Did that really happen to me? Or am i just making up stories? Was it really that hard? Did i ever cry for real? Geez, how pathetic i was..

...

Anyway, i gotta tell you, i'm done with those hard times. I just eventually got over it. I realized that, actually my problems were normal. Yeah... there are this close friends of mine who share their stories. And from their stories, i somehow noted some similarities of my (past) problems with things their desperately dealt with too. And they made me realize some things: It turned out to be that my problems were normal for a teenager like me in that age. It was just a typically teenage problem. And now i'm feeling glad because it was a COMPLETELY NORMAL thing. And as i grew older, being more mature, i then realized that it was normal for a teenager having some kind of INSECURITIES at their time. Everybody surely will face their bad times. And facing it in a teenage period is a hard one. Yeah, for real.

Things are different now. Really-really different. Time can change everything. Yeah, you'll find more about life as you grow older *somebody slap me on my face please, cause i talk like shit right now.

...

Ulitmately, for teenagers, just dealt with your problems. No matter how hard your problems are, just get over it. Keep on rocking your life, there's a lot of things await for you in this wide world. Don't ever think about doing crazy things such as running-away, drugs, or worse: suicide. Ok, you can think of doing it, but don't even try to commit it ^^.

You're stronger than you seem. You're though. You're smarter than you think

Ok, I admit that this posting is totally pointless. From music-library-browsing thing, to kelly clarkson, then teenage-problem, to encouraging wise words from me. And I can believe I wrote down those shits.

Bitch Inside

2008-10-21T10:13:00.005+07:00

Looking back at my recent posts. I just realize how pretty bitchy i am (was, i hope). Saying rude things, fierce cynical look, and so on.. And you would never know how i regret those stupid things i've done. I'm so sorry. Really really sorry. I just couldn't help it. I just said it. Keluar aja gitu dari mulut gue. Gatel aja pingin ngejatuhin orang. I tought it was COOL. But after that i was feeling extremely MENJIJIKAN.. And now i'm asking to myself why did i ever do those thing? Being a BITCH and a JERK at the same time, both a BRILLIANT one.. Sick... Now i see myself as one of the MEAN GIRLS. More over, i think i'm REGINA GEORGE, the MEAN, THE BITCHIEST one!! *omg i'm so SICK!!! can't believe i'm depicting myself as a mean GIRL! seriously, i want to vomit right now.. Sniffs... anyway, i'm working hard to stop this bad habbit! Seriously i gotta stop. NOW. I know it's hard to stop a habbit. But i'll try to commit it. I swear. If THE PLASTIC could finally turned into sweet girl next door in the end, why can't i be a good person too? Man how i'm sick of being "the evil one", i don't want people to think of me as a mean person. And i'm gonna change people's point of view on me! And i hope that happens soon. I knew there's kind of ANGEL deep inside my soul, i just haven't found a way to unleash it. *give me a vomit bag please.. i want to puke!! Fictional Regina George is cool. Real one sucks!

Destructive Comment

2008-10-20T19:44:00.008+07:00

I've been thinking about myself lately *cuihh..

Somedays ago i found this article, it was titled "20 mistakes a manager shouldn't do" or something like that. Trus gue baca point no.4...

4. Oftenlly give destructive comment Giving the employees too many harsh critiques. Oftenly destructive, unimportant, and sometimes it has no point other than to make other people mentally down...

Wooow... Another "ouch!!" for me. Jujur, [dulu, belom lama ini ding :p] gue sering banget ngeluarin komentar2 buat temen2, family, or siapa aja, yang sebenernya ga penting dan ga perlu gue keluarin. Contoh:

"Eww! What's with the outfit?"

(with my face expression depicting that's-totally-disgusting look)

"Bisa cepetan ga? Gue ga punya banyak waktu sama kalian nih~"

(usually with a satirical sneer)

"Oh, jadi ini kerjaan lu? Hmm.. lemme see..."

(dengan nada meremehkan)

...

Maybe some people think those comment are "moderate enough" or even "cool". Tapi ga jarang juga yang sampe sakit hati. Guys, I'm so sorry!!!

...O my god, I was such a jerk!...

I don't know if my other friends think those comment are "moderate", or even "cool", i don't even care. But seriously, gue ngerasa nyesel banget sesaat abis ngeluarin komen2 yang ga penting itu (i mean it). Beneran ga bisa dikontrol banget ya mulut gue?

Well, jujur aja, i said those things for reason. Mungkin karena emang tuh objek bikin gatel, guenya gatel pengen ngomentarin, momennya pas aja, ato emang gue lagi in bad mood mungkin?

But just after i said those rude words. I felt terribly guilty. Shit! Coba gue diem aja!

Thankfully, sekarang gue udah lumayan bisa mikir apa yang mo diomongin dulu. Bisa nyaring apa yang mau dikeluarin. Istilah anak elektro "Low Pass Filter" *what the?

Thanks to "one day of enlightenment" (vomitting)

Guys, jangan di contoh ya? I don't want anybody become (the old, bad, sarcastic) me...

Wanna know the real you?

2008-10-19T09:14:00.009+07:00

Somewhat a sequel from yesterday's post (",)?

(Masih makan siang)

Her: Lu ga suka orang seperti apa pete?

Me: [thinking for a while...] hmm... gue ga suka orang yang: egois, mau menang sendiri, pura-pura baik, sok penting

Her: Nah, itu elu!

Ouch! Bener-bener ngena banget. And I was like breaking into pieces. Langsung down ngedenger statement terakhir. Just after that, gue langsung mikir-mikir lagi. Astaga, ternyata gue selama ini orang yang seperti itu ya?

Guys, ternyata teori ini ada benernya juga. Kalo kalian mo tau kalian orang yang seperti apa, ask yourself orang seperti apa yang lu ga suka.

That's the real you deep inside. You just don't notice it yet.

Me Vs Cynicism

2008-10-18T08:44:00.005+07:00

Friends, kemaren gue makan siang bareng one of my close friend in college, Ilma... And i did learn something... Check this out..

Gue: "Ma, apa sih yang ga lo suka dari gue?" Ilma: [bingung bentar. Kenape nih si peter tiba2 ngomong beginian. Tapi ga nyampe berapa detik langsung ngomong:] "BANYAK PIT!!" Gue: [agak down denger jawaban itu. menyesal telah bertanya. Tapi tetep pingin lanjut] "Haaa.. apaan ma?" Ilma: "Banyak! Gue tuh ga suka lu waktu lagi 'over' " Gue: "Over? over apaan?"

[gue juga lupa "over" apaan. tapi intinya kalo ga salah kayak gini]

Ilma: "Lu tuh kalo lagi ga suka sama seseorang keliatan banget tau!!" Gue: [air muka bingung, bibir + alis dikerutkan, belaga mikir] "Maksudnya?" Ilma: "Dari ekspresi muka lu pit. SINETRON ABIS." Gue: "Hhh.. sinetron? Kayak gini?"

[i gave her that typically i-don't-like-you look i often mimic from trashy Indonesian sinetron]

*mukanya kira-kira kayak stepmom-nya cinderella gini deh. Sebenernya jauh lebih pas kalo ngambil contoh dari sinetron.. contohnya "tangisan anak tiri", dll*

Ilma: "HAHAHA!! IYA! IYA! Tuh kayak gitu!!!" Gue: "..." Ilma: " Dari gesture tubuh lu juga keliatan banget! Apalagi nada bicara lu. SINIS ABIS!!!" Gue: [meresapi sebentar kata-katanya] "Abis gimana dong ma? Kan gue mungkin emang rada sebel sama tuh orang..." "Mo pura-pura baik juga.. gue ga jago..." Ilma: "Ya jangan pura-pura baik juga!!! KELIATAN BANGET BOONGNYA!!! Lu tu ga banget memaksakan senyum! hhh" Gue: "yaah.. gue kan berusaha sebagus mungkin faking it.." Ilma: "Ya ga usah maksa piiit.. Biasa aja."

Yah itulah intinya teman-teman... Dari conversation itu, gue jadi lebih mikir, ternyata kalo gue lagi ga suka sama orang keliatan banget ya?

Gue juga mikir, penggunaan kata-kata gue juga sering banget terlalu frontal buat seseorang. Kadang bisa nyakitin hati banget. Ternyata lidah lebih tajem dari pisau..

Dan itu ga hanya nyakitin satu orang saja. Mungkin aja orang lain disekitar gue yang ada saat itu juga bakal mikir, "Heee?? Apa-apaan sih si peter ini? Ga banget.."

Astaghfirullah...

[i mean it]

...

God what have I done??

Sebegitu menyebalkankah gue? Sumpah.. Gue serasa tersentuh abis ngobrol bareng Ilma tadi. It was like God's way of saying, "You see, pete? That's how annoying you are now. Change it."

Ok. Mulai sekarang gue akan berusaha bersikap baik; ramah (not the fake one); dan kalo lagi sebel sama orang, I'll try to act 'biasa-biasa' aja. Play it cool ;) I promise!

Sebel sama seseorang mungkin emang ga bisa kita hindari. But no matter how annoying that person is, just play it cool. If that person goes annoying even more, consult with your friends. They'll always help.

A song for you, 'being in love'-ers...

2008-10-13T21:42:00.012+07:00

Sometimes I walk a little faster in the school hallway just to get next to you

Somedays I spend a little extra time in the morning just to impress you

Guess you don’t notice
Guess you don’t need this
Sad you’re not seeing what you’re missing
On the outside shying away
On the inside dying to say...
...

from: Hannah Montana, Rockstar

Guys (and galz),, remember those times when you had a crush on someone? Gue yakin kita semua pasti pernah ngalamin yang namanya naksir. Hihi.. Ah, coba kalian inget-inget lagi masa-masa itu. Waktu lu nemu seseorang di sekolah/kampus yang ga lu kenal sebelumnya, trus lu ngeliat tuh orang. And suddenly your heart just melted.. Ahh GUE NAKSIR DIA.. Kya!! Kyaa!! Seperti dipanah cupid gitu...

Pernah ga? Pernah dong pastinya...

I bet everyone pernah ngalamin hal seperti ini, even for the nerds and weirdos :p

Lanjut..

And started just after that, you just couldn’t stop thinking about her.. Couldn't get her out of your head..

Pikiran lu mulai aneh-aneh, you suddenly started to imagining things..

Tiap kali lu ga sengaja ketemu dia di kampus, dunia ini serasa indaaah... aah.. trus lu berharap dia ngelirik lu.. (dan lu ngerasa dia ngelirik lu gitu, padahal kenal aja kagak :p)

Lu pingin tau namanya siapa..

Lu penasaran dia anak mana..

Lu jadi salting di depan dia.. ga berani nyapa, kalo mo nyapa, lu perlu ngeden dulu saking groginya.. Trus akhirnya ga berani nyapa karena takut dikira sok kenal..

You hoped that you’ll be seeing her again soon in school.. Berharap bisa sering ketemu..

Lu pingin tau kegiatan dia sehari-hari apa.. Seperti apa temen-temennya..

Bahkan mungkin lu bela2in nyari nomer hpnya, nyari friendsternya (trus ga berani view profilenya, ntar ketauan.. yaah, haha..) ym-nya, ato segala bentuk ajang social networking yang ada saat ini..

Mungkin lu pernah sampe ke tahap tepe2 juga? Sms dia? Ngasih gift? Try to impress her. Try to make her notice you?

Yaah, namanya orang lagi naksir berat. Apapun akan dilakukan, I guess..

...

Trus apa hubungannya sama lirik lagu diatas?? *apa yaa? gue juga ga tau.. yeeah :p

Lagu hannah montana diatas secara garis besar mo cerita beginian..

*Kenapa harus Hannah Montana??? teen pop banget sih lo pit!!! Hahaha, kalo emang suka honnoh montono so what?? :p i like her anyway.. although i don't know why i have to put her album cover here... -.-??

Dia (Hannah) naksir cowo' di sekolahnya. Trus pingin cowo' itu notice si hannah: kalo ketemu cowo itu di lorong sekolah, jalannya dicepetin, biar bisa jalan di deketnya gitu.. Trus klo tiap pagi dandan agak cantik biar si cowo'nya notice dia gitu.. Trus di verse 2 nya hannah berhayal seandainya hapenya bunyi, berharap itu sms dari cowo' itu, ngajak dia kencan..

Tapi sayangnya si cowo'nya ga terlalu notice dia.. Awww... kasian..

Pokoknya intinya dia pingin banget bilang ke cowok itu kalo dia (miley cyrus itu) yang sebenarnya adalah hannah montana (a rockstar..) suka cowok di sekolahnya itu, tapi ga berani..

Yah, typically tentang teenage love problem banget lah lagu ini.. Tentang naksir seseorang, perasaan suka yang dipendam, and stuffs like that.. Coba dengerin lagunya deh, nyari dimana gituu.. minta ke gue kalo ga punya..

Buat kalian yang lagi baca, trus lagi naksir seseorang..tapi ga kenal orang itu, pingin lebih deket ama dia, pingin bilang suka tapi ga berani.. Yah, gue recommend dengerin lagu2 macem gini deh.. Dengerin lagu yang setema sama perasaan kita saat ini tuh enjoyable banget loh!! Feelnya dapet aja gitu. Coba aja lu dengerin sambil nyanyi ampe histeris2 emosional sendiri gitu.. Asik ajah!! :p

Lu pasang lagu yang sama seharian sampe budeg pun kayaknya ga bosen2..

Yep, music is the best for every situations buat gue.. Pasti selalu ada lagu yang setema sama perasaaan kita..

Hahaha... buat kalian yang lagi punya crush sama seseorang.. good luck yah!! ;) Terserah lu mau give it a try, ato dipendam aja dalem hati sampe perasaan itu hilang sendiri,ato sampe ketemu gebetan baru.. :p

Too bad for the takens, ga bisa seenaknya crush2 sana sini...

Old school yearbook!

2008-10-06T23:32:00.016+07:00

This is a fun website: http://www.yearbookyourself.com/. This website recently became popular among my college friends last month. Well, i just got a chance to write it down here. In this site, you'll be able to see what would you look like if you graduated from high school over the past five decades, that is from 1950's to year 2000. Check out some of mine:

1958

1964

1968

1972

1976

1978

1980

1982

1984

1988

1992

1994

1996

Koq sekarang gue ngerasa cakepan ya? Haha.. why don't u try to make your own foto jadul, then show them to me!

Multicultural me...

2008-10-06T10:53:00.000+07:00

It's a 5 days late greetings:

Guys, met lebaran. Di momen yang penuh kasih ini, gue ingin minta maaf dan memaafkan.

That's all.

Forgive me if i've ever been rude, annoying, mean, being a bitch, the devil, or being any evil in any shapes and forms.. my bad ;)

Meskipun gue officially tidak merayakan lebaran (coz i'm not a muslim tho), somehow gue ngerasa lebaran itu udah jadi bagian dari kebudayaan orang indonesia. As u know, indonesia adalah negara perpenduduk muslim terbesar, wajar lah kalo lebaran udah jadi ritual tahunan masyarakat kita (yang anehnya di Arab sono tidak dirayakan sehebat disini).

Besides, many close people i live with are moslems. My best friends, many of them are moslems. My mother's family: cousins, aunts, uncles. They're all moslems.

It's just that spending almost everyday with them makes me get used to with what so called "moslem culture" (like jilbab, sunnah, wudhu, sholat, puasa, jumatan, and the [oftenly irrelevant, coincidentall] use of expressions such as "Astaghfirullah", "Alhamdulillah", "Assalamualaikum", and lots other which some of them claimed as "religion attribute" rather than "middle east culture"). Anyway, i'm not gonna discuss this further.

I just want to share with you guys that for me being a non-moslem, living with this big moslem culture in Indonesia is such a great thing. We'll learn what so called "toleransi", "hormat-menghormati", "bhinneka tunggal ika", or what so ever those ppkn things.

It's a multicultural world we live in. And i'm happy i can taste all of those great culture. East meet west..

Haha, yep, i think i have tasted every culture:

american (got these mostly from TV haha, cool vocabs and slang phrases)
chinesse culture (sd-smp gue di batam yang banyak cinanya, and gue jadi bisa dikit2 bahasa hokkian yea rite),
african-american (yo shorty, wassup? damn ye got ma bitch ya'll kno wad im sayin'? haha, whatever)
Dari agama: yah, yang tadi itu. Besides, di Indonesia agamanya ada 5. Cool huh?

and lots culture influences from indonesia's heritage itself:

Batak (it's in my blood, duh!) Well, i don't know exactly all A-to-Z from batak people, but i sure know some things :) Bangga jadi orang batak! haha
Jawa (hmm... apa ya? sodara gue ada sih yang jawa, temen gue juga banyak yang jewes. It's just like for me, kebudayaan jawa is strongly connected to many aspect of many indonesian people, such as: masakan jawa, nama-nama orang indonesia juga kebanyakan ke"jawa-jawa"an meskipun bukan orang jawa. Contoh: budi hartono, sulastri, mimin, maman, momon, dsb)
Padang (Hmm.. mungkin karena nantulang gue banyak yang padang, n temen2 juga banyak yang padang kali ya? Jadinya rada2 tau deh kultur orang padang. And moreover, masakan padang!! It's like a trademark of Indonesian's cuisine haha)
Hmm.. apalagi ya?? Yah banyaklah, kayaknya gue tau hampir semua ciri khas semua suku di indonesia. Mmm.. bugis people, bahasa belitong, bahasa melayu, masakan menado, madura, tari bali, nyinden2an, manortor, haha banyak lah.. Bhinneka Tunggal Ika! yea rite...

yah, multikultural banget hidup kita ini ya? beda-beda, jadi asik.. Kalo sama semua, apalagi kalo dominan semua.. ngg... kayaknya monoton deh. ga asik ah.. Hoho

bye2

I want to be a part of it, New York, New York...

2008-09-25T22:10:00.000+07:00

Hmm.. dari dulu gue ngerasa kalo Amerika tuh negara yang spektakuler. Ya iyalah, semua orang juga tau kalo Amerika oke punya.

Sumpah, gue pingin banget ke sana. Ngapain? Don't know.. Cuma buat liburan? Sekolah? Kerja? Atau bahkan menghabiskan sisa hidup gue di sana: Kerja, punya apartment di 5th Avenue, menikah, punya keluarga di sana, and akhirnya, keturunan gue berikutnya are officially Americans!!

Pingin banget menjejakkan kaki ini di tanah paman sam sana!! *cihuy, bahasa gue..

Living in America, it's like a chance of a lifetime... Ga semua orang Indonesia punya kesempatan buat ke sana.

Sepupu gue, anak konglomerat, kuliahnya di sana. Ada yang di Manhattan, ada yang di New York.. Trus dimana lagi gitu.. pokoknya universitas-universitas bagus deh.
Temen gue, ada yang lahir di US, tapi sekarang tinggal di Jakarta, she's so lucky just because she was born in America.. Uuh
Temen gue juga, ada yang pernah dapet beasiswa di Amrik, trus sekarang udah balik ke Indonesia.
Tante gue, pernah 3 tahun kerja di Amerika, di Indonesian Embassy. Jadi KonJen ato apa gitu.
Kakak pembimbing gue di gereja dulu, pernah dapet kesempatan kerja 6 bulan di perusahaan di Amerika..

Jadi iri, mereka udah pernah merasakan gimana tinggal di Amerika...

Mungkin ga ya gue ke Amerika? Liburan kek, kuliah kek, ato kerja gitu..

Kalo kuliah, kuliah di Amerika biayanya selangit.. Untuk orang Indonesia, yang bisa ngerasain kuliah di Amerika cuma orang-orang yang:

1. Berduit; atau kalau nggak 2. Orang-orang yang beruntung..

Buat gue, yang sekarang ini mungkin terjadi pada diri gue adalah kategori nomer 2. Ya iyalah, secara,, ortu gue ga berak duit.. Makanya, gue getol banget nyari beasiswa ke US. Beasiswa dari yurop sama Japan di-nomor dua-kan (dasar ga tau diuntung gue, udah bagus kalo bisa dapet beasiswa ke luar negeri!!)

Mungkin, suatu saat nanti, entah kapan.. Bisa satu jam lagi, besok, minggu depan, 3 bulan lagi, 2 tahun, 5 tahun lagi, gue bakal dapet kesempatan ke US. Entah itu buat tujuan apa.. Kuliah, kerja, jalan-jalan di Time Square, ato breakfast doang, beli The New York Times trus pulang..

Haha, ya nggak lah, gue pingin pengalaman gue di Amerika ga cuma beli koran doang. Duh!!

Tapi gue juga ga mau nunggu lama-lama kesempatan buat bisa ke US. Kalo emang gue ga cukup beruntung, ya udah, gue bakal ngebiayain pake duit sendiri saja.. It's absolutely feasible!! Maybe in the next 2-10 years, my dream will come true!! I'll work hard, earn some cash!!

Geez, I'm already imagining things right now :p

Wish me luck!!

New York... If you can make it there, you can make it anywhere.

Sederhana

2008-09-16T05:32:00.000+07:00

Gue punya temen, sebut saja namanya badu. Dari tongkrongannya orangnya biasa aja. Biasa banget malah. Hari-hari gue bergaul bareng dia & temen2 lain. What i really notice about him is that, dia orang yang paling sederhana banget... Gilaa,, dia tuh hemat banget (bukan pelit ya!!). Hemat! Hemat in good way... Well, dia ga bakal buang2 duit buat sesuatu yang ga penting. contoh: Dia ga mau makan di luar, karena dia udah punya bahan masakan di rumahnya.. kosannya biasa aja.. Dia ga mau naik angkot kalo masih bisa jalan, sehat katanya... Heu,, kalo gue mah, sebisa mungkin kagak ngeluarin tenaga ^^!! Kalo jalan-jalan di mall, n lagi ngeliat2 sesuatu, dia selalu bisa nahan diri buat ga beli. Pokoknya beda banget sama gue yang boros deh ^^! Yang lebih menarik lagi... We know, dia tuh SUPER TAJIR!! O my gosh... Gila ini orang, tiap tahun jalan2 ke luar negeri sama keluarganya, laptopnya keren mampus.. Tapi orangnya SEDERHANA banget... tongkrongan sehariannya biasa-biasa aja.. Dia ga berusaha pamer apa yang dia punya.. Ckckck salut2 Hmm.. beda lagi dengan temen gue satu lagi,, sebut saja budi.. Budi tajir, super tajir, kita tau bokapnya konglomerat.. he drives his own car bwt pergi ke kampus.. tempat tinggalnya... wow mirip hotell.. dan kesehariannya, yaah... anak gaul gitu.. pokoknya lebay ah.. head to toe... well, dia ga terang-terangan bragging ke semua orang, "eh, gue tajir loh.. lu miskin ya? kasihan.." of coure not, that's sick.. yah, dia emang ga menyombongkan diri sih.. tapi dari packagingnya, kita udah tau koq... Somehow, it's kinda easier for me to bergaul dgn orang yang "selevel" (F.Y.I, gue berasal dari keluarga sederhana-biasa aja, ga tajir sama sekali)... Dan gue tentu saja lebih merasa nyaman bergaul dengan badu (meskipun kita tau kalo dia anak konglomerat), daripada sama si budi (yang kita tau dia tajir, dan keliatan kalo dia tajir)... *hahaha, emang kalo bergaul mesti ngukur kadar "ketajira" dulu ya?? ga sih, cuma, get real aja.. lifestyle c budi tentu saja beda dengan gue... bukannya gue ngerasa minder, but i feel there's kind a "gap" between people like me, n people who live like budi.. Kalo gaya badu, well, pretty much like me.. Well, sebenernya yang gue pingin tekankan ke kalian adalah... ... ... *apa ya?? ^^!! aduh bingung mo ngasih pelajaran apa... yah.. intinya orang tajir ya tajir aja.. (ha????) hmm bukan, bukan.. intinya, kalo kita suatu saat nanti tajir... ya biasa aja yah... just get down to earth... buat orang-orang merasa nyaman bergaul dengan lo.. Don't ever brag about your wealth.. Nyari temen-temen yang brilliant ga mesti tajir kan?? contohnya, ya si badu tadi... hahaha dia seharusnya bersyukur punya temen brilliant yg sederhana-sederhana aja kayak gue.. *peace!!! well, lakukan aja yang membuat lo ngerasa nyaman

Busy Me...

2008-09-05T19:33:00.000+07:00

Semester ini akan sangat sibuk (as other semestres before....)

My weekday beneran full banget dah. 5am-5pm + ngerjain macem2 sampe malem.

Yang gue heran adalah, kenapa gue bisa melakukan itu semua? Padahal gue ngerasa kalo time management gue sangat buruk sekali hehe :p

Yah, emang dasarnya gue orang yang bertanggung jawab sih.. Makanya gue sebisa mungkin berkomitmen tinggi dalam semua kewajiban gue..

Being this busy emang ada ga enaknya: capek, jenuh, bosan, stress, dan sederetan beban fisik+mental lainnya..

But, this is life guys!! Live it! Don't you just seating on the couch in front of the TV all day, watching those craps, n doin nothin' for the rest of your day except eating n sleeping...

Semua kesibuksan ini pada akhirnya nanti akan sangat bermanfaat buat diri gue, gue yakin itu.. Ngapain gue menyibuk2kan diri kalo nantinya gue ga dapet apa-apa?

I just realize how lucky i am

2008-08-31T20:19:00.000+07:00

Guys, hari ini gue serasa dapet pelajaran berharga. Ceritanya gue ketemu seseorang, yah boleh dibilang temen lama. Dan ini intisari dari pelajaran berharga yang gue dapet itu. Silahkan dibaca..

Ok, pernah ga kalian mikir seberapa beruntungnya hidup kalian saat ini? Coba lo bercermin baik-baik, liat apa aja yang lo pernah alami, apa yang pernah lo punya, & what are you now?

Dan setelah gue merenung sedikit tentang diri gue, ini hasilnya:

Gue, baru 'ngeh' tentang what i've become now.

1. Gue anak ITB... Hell-O???? It's like to die for.. yah, ga to die for juga sih... cuma, gue cukup beruntung deh, bisa ngerasain gimana rasanya jadi mahasiswa di ITB. A very complex college life..

2. Gue dibesarkan di lingkungan yang kompleks memang, not so good childhood, rada sulit, cuma tetep aja masih jauh lebih baik dibandingkan dengan orang lain yang kurang beruntung. On a second tought, cukup bagus lah masa kecil gue.. Bisa ngerasain ini-itu.

3. Somehow gue ngerasa jalan untuk menuju masa depan gue yang cerah udah terbuka lebar. Amin. Doakan saya supaya sukses ya temen-temen.

4. Gue ga kekurangan, tapi ga kelebihan juga. Pas lah.

5. Gue tau disney dari kecil (*hahah emang ini kategori beruntung ya? :p..)

6. Gue punya hp, n laptop, kamar yang nyaman.

7. Gue masih bisa naik angkot

8. Gue masih bisa makan

9. Gue bisa bahasa inggris dari TK.. Meski cuma lagu anak2 & ngikutin quote2 di film gitu hehe (iya bener loh, dulu waktu jamannya home video VHS gitu, mama kan sering beliin film2 disney, me and my twin was like already memorized every line on each film...)

10. Pernah sekali ke belanda.. N beberapa tempat lainnya yang mungkin saat ini kalo mo kesana harganya udah selangit..

11. Gue besar di batam. Entah kenapa gue ngerasa cukup beruntung. Do u guys know where's that? It's like nowhere else in this world.. Beneran deh, batam tuh kayak gabungan antara "kota besar" & "dusun terpencil"..

Kota besar: deket ama singapur, mall-nya bagus2, high-tech, selalu tau ttg apa-apa (music, tv shows, news, trends, tech, etc) lebih dulu dari kota-kota lain di indonesia, jakarta aja kalah!!! :p, Tapi ya itu, "dusun terpencil" : sebuah pulau, penduduknya juga banyak yang masih terbelakang, ga begitu maju, biaya hidup mahal sekali, etc)

12. I'm smart, duuhhh!!

13. Gue punya temen-temen yang hebat-hebat juga, seneng bisa kenal kalian guys.

14. BISA MAIN PIANO!! Punya musical ability yang bagus, bisa baca not balok, quick learner, i can deal with anything, ;p... bisa main biola juga, gitar, cello, viola, dll.. secara, i'm multitalented XD 15. Ah masih banyak lagi deh, hal-hal yang patut gue syukurin... Coba lu pikir, banyak orang yang ga seberuntung kita loh.. Ga bisa kuliah di universitas yang (katanya) ok, kuliah juga abal. Otaknya pas-pasan, ga bego, ga pinter. Trus kalo mo makan aja susah. Ga bisa bahasa inggris, kampung. Hidupnya pas-pasan. Pergaulannya so-so, ada yang pergaulannya parah, bahkan ada yang ga bisa bergaul, temen-temennya juga ya begitu-begitu juga. Berpikiran sempit, ga terlalu maju. Trus kalo mo nyari kerja juga susah. Ujung-ujungnya kawin, trus anaknya yah begitu-begitu juga, bagus kalo hidupnya mendingan dikit... Yah, gue cuma mo bilang, kita harus bersukur atas apa yang kita punya, apa yang kita alami, dan jadi apa kita sekarang ini. Trus kita juga harus bersukur punya orang tua/keluarga/lingkungan yang telah membesarkan kita sampe kita bisa menjadi seperti ini. Boleh dibilang itu emang suatu keberuntungan. Ga semua orang punya kesempatan mempunyai mama-papa yang hebat kan?

THANK YOU GOD FOR WHAT YOU GAVE TO ME

We are all sensitive

2008-08-27T21:30:00.000+07:00

Tadi gue lagi ngumpul sama temen-temen ISO, trus ada satu temen gue. Cewek.

Ga tau ada angin apa, dia marah-marah ga jelas gitu, tampangnya udah bete abis, jutek banget dah pokoknya.

Trus dia nyepet2 (tau nyepet ga? ngedumel gitu deh, tapi sinis banget) di depan gue.

And I was like, "Kenape nih orang? Ga ada angin apa-apa.. Marah-marah sendiri gitu ga jelas.. Trus ngomongnya nyepet2 gitu lagi didepan gue!!?? Marah mah langsung ajee.. Kagak usah pake nyinyir2 gitu di depan gue!! Lu mo nyari ribut hah??"

Later, kita ym-an..

Trus gue tanya ke dia, (ini versi singkat hasil conversationnya)

Gue: "Eh, tadi lu kenapa c?? Monyong-monyong ga jelas gitu?"

Dia: "Monyong-monyong? Maksud lo?"

Gue: "Yah marah-marah ga jelas gitu ke semua orang. Ga jelas marahnya kenapa. Emang gue salah apa c? Kalo ada yang lu ga suka langsung ngomong aja ke gue, ga usah ngomel-ngomel ga jelas gitu"

Dia: "Oh, so sorry pete kalo lo ngerasa. I didn't address you. Gue ga marah khusus ke elo. Gue marah ke ISO, ke beberapa orang, but definitely not you. Gue ngerasa ISO kerjanya ga bener, ga struktural, blablabla, and so on..."

Gue: "Oh, ok. Tapi lain kali, misalnya lu mo marah ke gue, ato ke siapapun yah langsung aja. Ga usah ngomel-ngomel ga jelas ke semua orang gitu"

Yah intinya begitulah teman-teman.

Hmm, jujur aja gue rada emosi juga dengerin dia nyepet2 ga jelas gitu. What's wrong with this girl?

Yah kalo mo marah, jangan sampe salah sasaran dong guys! Please, mungkin aja kita semua disini sama, sensitive. Kalo marah tanpa sebab bisa berakibat macem-macem loh. Bisa ngebuat orang bingung, tersinggung, naek darah, bahkan bisa jadi orang lain malah balik marah, dan akhirnya berantem.

Tapi untung aja kasus gue tadi berakhir dengan baik. Hanya sedikit kesalahpahaman.

But please...

Marahlah pada tempatnya

It's for your own good, and for others too..

It's complicated...

2008-08-26T22:32:00.001+07:00

It's complicated...

What? what is so complicated?

everything!

My feelings :(

crush, love, friends, school, family, health?

Need some time to think

Mormon.. In 2008?

2008-08-25T22:51:00.000+07:00

Guys, apa diantara kalian ada yang dibesarkan di lingkungan keluarga yang "ortodoks"? Well, maksud gue dengan ortodoks disini adalah tradisi keluarga besar kalian yang udah dipertahankan selama bertahun-tahun, puluhan generasi, tujuh turunan.. hahah lebay..

Hm, somehow gue merasa kalo keluarga besar gue tuh seperti itu.

Buat yang belom tau, keluarga besar gue tuh pure batak. It's not easy being a part of a big 'batak' family. Apalagi kalo lu tinggal di kota besar di Indonesia, yang notabene pergaulan lu bakal dengan berbagai macam orang dari suku bangsa & agama. Well, di keluarga besar gue seperti ada 'unspoken rules' tentang memilih pasangan hidup. And what are those? Yah paling lu udah pada nebak: pasangan hidup lu harus sama-sama orang batak (ditandai dengan adanya marga -_-), dan harus seagama..

WTF...

Menurut gue, aturan ini sangan kampungan, berpikiran sempit, kuno, norak, ga masuk akal, dsb.. I mean, hare gene, hello? this is year 2008!!!! orang udah pada kemana-mana, kita udah jadi masyarakat dunia, pergaulan kita ga hanya sebatas dengan tetangga satu kampung nenek moyang.. Temen-temen kita pasti dari mana-mana dengan suku yang berbeda, agama yang berbeda, dan mungkin dari negara yang berbeda. Nah, di pergaulan kita yang semakin hari semakin mengglobal ini, bukan ga mungkin kan kalo suatu saat kita bisa jatuh cinta sama orang yang bukan satu daerah asal, suku, agama, dsb? Hmm.. jujur aja gue pernah beberapa kali punya crush... prikitiw... dengan orang yang, ah pokoknya beda suku, agama, dsb2.. Tapi, hiks hiks, why? why? kenapa dalam diri gue seperti ada suatu penghalang untuk menjalin tali kasih?? (eww bahasanya jijay) Dan menurut gue, penghalang itu ya itu tadi, that stupid unspoken rules tentang memilih pasangan hidup..

Urrrgh, kenapa sih orang Indonesia pake suku-sukuan?

kenapa agamanya sampe ada 5 biji?

kenapa yang mayoritas cuma 1?

Ya kalo emang banyak, kenapa tiap agama merasa superior? Can't we be one? We all DO have only ONE God...

kenapa kita ga bisa kayak orang bule aja gitu, mo kawin sama orang apa aja boleh?

kenapa disini seperti ada 'unspoken rule' menyiksa itu?

Aarrrgggghh... Bener-bener deh, gue sering banget mikirin hal ini.. And sampai sekarang gue masih bingung... Bingung kenapa keluarga gue seperti ini, bingung kenapa negara gue adatnya kayak gini, bingung kenapa cewek itu backgroundnya ga sama kayak gue, bingung kenapa gue ga kayak dia...

I hate this feeling :( I hate mormon!!! Masa jatuh cinta ada aturannya?

for a better future...

2008-08-20T17:15:00.000+07:00

Guys, ga kerasa gue udah ngelewatin 2 taun masa-masa kuliah gue di ITB. Yep! Sekarang gue resmi jadi mahasiswa tingkat 3, n sekarang lagi berada di semester 5. Yaaayyy!!! Huff... gue bersyukur banget bisa menjalani 2 tahun masa kuliah gue dengan lumayan baik. Only 'simple' 2 years, with lots of experience.. lots and lots of them, they're gonna be precious treasures of mine.... Hmm.. akhir-akhir ini gue sering mikir macem-macem lho.. dan yang paling sering adalah gimana kehidupan gue di masa mendatang :p aduuhh.. berat banget dah kalo mikirinnya.. Yah biasalah, tiap orang pasti pernah mikirin masa depannya bakal bagaimana. Mikirin jodoh lah, kerjaan lu jadi apa, berapa gajinya, lu bakal tinggal dimana, orang tua lo bakal kayak apa ntar, sodara-sodara lu bakal gimana, kapan lu bakal menikah, punya anak, dsb2nya.. emang kalo gue pikirin yang begitu2 an bakal kagak ada abisnya kali ye... yah secara umur gue udah (ato "baru" ya?? :p) 20 tahun.. ini adalah momen dimana gue harus bisa bersikap lebih dewasa, namun tetap mempertahankan sikap berjiwa muda.. hahahaha yeah right, lately i've been thinking more on my bright futures and how to achieve them. pokoknya gue bakal menunjukkan perubahan-perubahan positif selama 2 taun ke depan, sehingga pada akhirnya gue lulus kuliah siap untuk dilepas di dunia nyata... *TSAAAAAAHHHHHH hahaha, yah teman-teman, mari kita saling mendoakan supaya kita bisa berubah menjadi diri kita yang lebih baik..

HUT RI!!! ngg... keberapa ya???

2008-08-17T22:38:00.000+07:00

Oiya!! gue lupa, hari ini tuh negara gue ultah, HUT RI!! eh ngomong-ngomong ke berapa yah?? Sumpah gue ga tau sekarang udah HUT RI ke berapa ^^ coba gue itung... 2008-1945=.... 63!!! wah... tahun ini udah 63 aja... hmmm... 63 tahun.. indonesia ga maju-maju hihihihihi.. yaudahlaya... happy birthday my country!!! wish you all the best...

Capeee...

2008-08-17T22:28:00.001+07:00

Capeeekk.... Yep, pas ngepost blog ini badan gue capek banget. BANGET!! ya iyalah, karena seharian gue ngebantuin OHU ISO 2008 hehe.. tapi OHU tahun ini boleh dibilang sukses besar. ISO eksis abiezz!!!! Mulai dari papan nama ISO yang segede gambreng, pawai yang keren, sampe menjadi stand yang paling banyak peminatnya (nyampe 210 orang!!!!)!!!!! whaaahahaha yah, pas gue balik rasanya badan gue udah berserakan dimana-mana.. euh.... seharian dijemur, berdiri, jalan-jalan.. pokoknya seharian bener-benern digemblenglah fisik gue. padahal distand iso guenya kebanyakan ga ngapa-ngapain, main musik juga setengah-setengah, nyebarin flyer juga nggak.. hahaha,, tapi gue capek banget lah.. yah, OHU ini bakal sangat memorable pastinya. Mudah-mudahan tahun depan lebih hebat dari ini. haha, tapi gue hari ini jatuhin tustel temen gue, terus ga bisa nyala... hiks hiks.. gue ngerasa bersalah sekaliii... im sorry mari... nanti saya ganti, gue takut datanya ilang juga euuuh... nitee....

Mariah Carey, I Stay In Love

2008-08-16T08:13:00.000+07:00

Hmm, i don't know why but i want to write this posting down in english :p Music is always been my passion (Ooooo...). And FYI, i always like R&B, Pop, Hip-Hop, and those things called "today's music". I always try to be up to date in music industry... Well, just few weeks ago, i bought this album, Mariah Carey "E=MC2". I bought this album because i like her singles in it ("Touch My Body" and "Bye Bye), i know them from MTv :p.. In this album, i found consistently unshakable pop melodies and inspiring ballads. Just a few days of listening to this album already makes me memorize those tracks in it. Then, i heard this track called "I Stay In Love"... Wooow, this track is very memorable! I listened to it, over and over again.. This track is pretty addictive u know.. I Stay In Love comprises a very simple and understated musical arrangement. It follows the common verse-chorus form and is structured into three sections that potray the protagonist in a range of emotion : from doleful and resigned in the first section, to desperate and agitated in the second. In the last section, the song climaxes with an octave raise, which emphasize the protagonist's heightened desperation to be together with her ex-lover.. i copy that sentence from a review on a web ^^!! Anyway, i really love this song, and i've been listening to it all day everyday because the lyric is so deep and the melody is so inspiring. I think this is one of many of my favorite tracks ever..

2 hari menjelang OHU'08... pilek T_T

2008-08-15T22:44:00.000+07:00

gilaa... gue hari ini ga fit banget. Dari pagi gue udah ga enak badan gitu. Ceritanya, gue tidur ga nyenyak banget (tidur jam 12, bangun jam 4). Emang sebelum tidur udah rada-rada pilek gitu. Pas bangun jam 4, pileknya makin menjadi-jadi. Mana leher gue entah kenapa jadi pegel-pegel (salah bantal kali yee..). Yah, karena masih capek, gue berusaha untuk kembali tidur, tapi sial, gue beneran susah banget balik tidur. Perasaan gue ga nyaman banget, pegel lah, pusing2.. Akhirnya gue baru bisa tidur lagi jam 5an. Zzzz.... Tring..!!!! Tringg!!!!!! O Crap!!! ternyata gue masang alarm jam 6 :(( yah, gue bangun, matiin alarm hp. trus langsung tidur lagi.. Jam 7.30 gue bangun lagi, dengan kondisi badan yang mendingan, tapi tetep ga fit, masih pegel-pegel disana-sini.. Omigode... ternyata gue janji bareng anak-anak buat mulai ngerjain dekorasi OHU jam 8.00! aduh.. mana gue yang bikin janji lagi.. ^^!! yaudah, gue buru-buru mandi, sarapan.. kamar gue biarin berantakan.. emang udah berantakan dari kapan.. Mudah-mudahan bisa gue rapiin weekend ini. Berangkat, gue nyampe kampus. Hahaha... ternyata yang dateng baru 2 orang.. Yah,, pada akhirnya kita nungguin orang lagi, trus akhirnya baru berangkat blanja macem-macem ke pasar baru jam 10.. Huuh,, selama di pasar baru, sumpah!!! Gue ga enak badan banget.. Ingusan gue makin menjadi-jadi, kepala gue malah makin pusing... Duh, badan gue cari gara-gara aja nih pikir gue.. kenapa harus hari ini?? Sepertinya malem ini gue bakal sakit :( Tampang gue udah yang kayak bete mampus (temen gue ga mungkin ga nyadar kalo muka gue udah nunjukkin kondisi gue yang sangat merasa tidak nyaman :p) Abis dapet bahan-bahan, kita keliling2 bentar, nanya2 kain buat bikin blazer.. trus jemput temen yang lagi solat jumat, trus kita menuju ke gramed buat nyari kain flanel Aduh, di gramed sakit gue tambah parah.. Yah pokoknya abis beli kain flanel di gramed, kita ke toko dvd apa gitu... nemenin temen gue yang bawa mobil. trus akhirnya makan siang jam 2.30... Jam 3 balik ke kampus.. ngerjain dekor + ini itu.. sakit tambah menjadi-jadi mana yang bantuin cuma nambah 1 WAAA!!! KEPALA KAYAK MO PECAH!! yah, akhirnya selesai lah ngerjain sedikit printil2.. abis itu jam 7.30 kita makan malem (makin tambah ingusan gue... T_T)... pulang jam 8.30. Tanpa pikir panjang gue langsung mandi, pingin membersihkan semua kuman2 yang nempel dari mana mana seharian.. Glek! gue langsung minum panadol cold n flu.. Oiya... gue nontonin Grand Final Putri Indonesia dulu ding.. :p Soalnya ada Nadya Mulya nya!! (Nadya u r so beautiful!!!) yes yes.. dia jadi MC.. tapi koq tampangnya ga se-fierce yang di Insert Investigasi ya?? yaah.. gapapa lah, ada hiburan yang bisa gue tonton setelah seharian gue menderita dengan ingusan, sakit kepala+leher, pegel2, sambil harus kerjain dekor yang (mudah-mudahan) OK banget!!! I'm going to sleep now.. I hope i'll get well tomorrow morning...