All we do is linger, slipping through our fingers...

I can take it any longer

thought that we were stronger

all we do is linger, slipping through our fingers

I don't wanna try know

All that's left's goodbye to

find a way that I can tell you...

peter geje -_-"

The Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part Uploaded by NANCY2A Anyway, this song by PCD is currently peaked number one on my playlist chart. I know, like it's supposed to be hip around 3 months ago (and to write a posting about this song is too late for now - I bet my sassy sis will tell me I'm lame and say "that's so 10 years ago~"), yet I just feel the emotion in this song recently.

In this song, Nicole's unique voice is very full of expression. I can feel her crying and full of pain. The lyrics are deep. And the other dolls in this video clip are just, mm, yea, they're just there, posing & dancing beautifully without singing, as usual~ The dance routine is cute though. Haha

Well, I think I'm gonna get bored with this song in a few days (like other hits I favor before). Listening to this song for hundreds time a day will eventually make me sick of it. Yep, the passion will be gone.

This hectic week is finally over, at least for today.. Hope next week will be less lethal. hoho..

Pardon this LAME, & TOTALLY POINTLESS POSTING anyway.. :p

The Notebook (2004 Film)

Every time I watch this movie, I almost burst into tears.. Huhuhu. I think this is THE MOST ROMANTIC MOVIE ever made!! And here's one of my favorite scene: Ally & Noah were in a boat on the lake.. with swans, falling leaves, and sweet love song.. Romance is in the air!! Wish I could be Noah :)

Great scene. I totally recommend this film to every lovers out there :)

Am I ready to leave this comfort zone?

Saat ini gue merasa berada di salah satu fasa paling menyenangkan dalam hidup: keadaan yang gampang dan lurus-lurus aja..

Singkatnya, sekarang ini gue tinggal "ongkang-ongkang kaki": kuliah 7-7 di Ganesha tercinta, hang out with friends, aktif di organisasi, kerjain tugas2 (meskipun seringkali melelahkan, tapi gue sadar sepenuh hati makna dibalik tugas2 ini –jaah), rapat2, sisanya adalah bersenang2. Bahkan gue belom kerja: duit bulanan lancar, dan kadang2 ada income tambahan. Yummy..

Orang2 di sekitar gue juga oke2. Gue sayang temen2 di kampus, orangnya lucu2 (yucks :p), gila2, pinter-pinter, ga kampungan, intelek2, pada jago ngomong.. Yep, gue menikmati komunitas gue sekarang, dimana orang2nya adalah orang2 terpilih, bukan orang yang bisa ditemui dengan mudah dikehidupan sehari2 gue sebelumnya..

Orang-orang ini beda, mereka semua pekerja keras, punya cita-cita yang sama, pingin maju bersama, dan gue bangga bisa berada di tengah-tengah orang seperti itu. Somehow membuat gue berpikir bahwa bukan gue doang yang punya visi misi hidup yang oke (haha), ga semua orang di dunia ini adalah losers: pemalas yang hanya mengandalkan orang lain, terbelakang, dan kadang kampungan - pikiran yang selama ini ada dibenak gue waktu jaman2 SMA.

Tapi, sebentar lagi gue akan meninggalkan masa-masa ini. Sebentar lagi - taun depan – gue bakal lulus dan diwisuda (amiin..). Gue akan berpisah sama kehidupan gue yang sekarang, bahkan kemungkinan gue bakal pisah sama orang2 oke ini. Kemana gue melangkah berikutnya? Ke comfort zone lainnya? Atau ke dunia nyata? Mana gue tau, we'll see...

Ini yang membuat gue berpikir, apa gue siap meninggalkan comfort zone ini taun depan? Apa gue siap untuk menghadapi kerasnya dunia nyata disana? dimana orang2 ga se-oke disini, banyak yang belum berpikiran maju, banyak orang udik yang masih terbelenggu kebodohan, apa gue bisa sabar menghadapi itu semua? Apa gue bisa survive? Oh Tuhan, kalo emang gue harus meninggalkan comfort zone gue taun depan, please make it easier. Please, lunakkan dunia luar sana Tuhan, gue ga siap menghadapi dunia itu..

*Geez, doktrin2 idealisme ternyata rada2 nempel di diri gue selama 3 tahun terakhir..

Men, dangkal abis ya pikiran gue? Ga mungkin dunia luar sana se-ideal disini lah. Realita bangsa gue bukanlah seperti kehidupan gue sehari-hari saat ini. Ga ada yg namanya kondisi ideal pit~~ Mikir apa gue?

Yah, emang semua orang pada intinya harus bergerak maju. Dan gue sadar, untuk itulah gue ada disini, di kampus gue ini, di comfort zone gue ini. Gue ga boleh (dan ga mungkin) berlama-lama keenakan di surga idealis ini. Gue masuk ke comfort zone ini, supaya gue bisa keluar jadi seorang pembaharu, yang bisa menciptakan "comfort zone-comfort zone" lainnya di dunia luar sana. Di luar sana masih banyak orang susah, masih banyak orang bodoh, masih banyak orang terbelakang dan ga berpikiran maju, orang miskin, dan sederetan kondisi-kondisi ironis masyarakat sekitar kita.

-peter, sedang dalam masa2 berpikir (baca: ngelamun) dan nganggur, jadinya ngupdate blog deh.. haha

hooiii

BLOG GUEE!! PAKABAR??? Long time no see!! hahaha .... Maaann, jenuh banget pikiran gw, pingin libur sehari ajaaa ~~ Anyway, minggu ini bakal jadi minggu sengsara gue sepertinya, tugasnya banyak, laporannya juga, pelajaran blom ngerti, kapan gue bisa fokus lagi ya? perasaan semester ini sksnya ga sebanyak semester kemaren.. Yah, meskipun gitu gue bersyukur selama 2 bulan awal semester ini udah bikin beberapa hal yang produktif.. meskipun hanya sedikit yg akademis.. hoho Yaak!! Gw mesti semangat lagi nih,,, ROCK ON!!

I'm back to say goodbye..

For sometimes I didn't remember I had this blog

Poor little bloggy..

I promise I'll write down some more worth-to-read stuffs..

But, I think I might not be able to write something this week, this month, or this semester.. (geez, I hope it won't be that long)

Guess this big guy has lots of big things to do from now on..

Well, see you soon..

Take Care

-Pete-

Chill guys, I'm cool

Siang itu, gue dapet SMS:

"Bang, mama denger kamu udah punya pacar ya? Koq ga bilang-bilang? Mama sih ga ngelarang, cuma kalo nyari pacar kalo bisa yang seiman ya"

Huh, cape deh. Waktu gue dapet SMS itu, gue diem aja. Biasa aja malah. Bahkan gue rada tertawa dalam hati.

"Haha, dapet gosip dari mana nih si mama? Pasti si uli & baby udah ngarang yang nggak-nggak, lagian siapa yang pacaran juga?", pikir gue.

Gue ga bales SMS mama. Anggap angin lalu.

Tapi rada lama kemudian gue mikir. "Seiman. Hmmf, segitu  pentingnya kah kriteria itu dalam pacaran? Emang apa ruginya kalo punya pacar yang beda agama? Trus kalo agamanya sama, bakal jadi jaminan hidup okeh gitu? Belum tentu juga kan?"

...

Yah, gue cuma bisa berdoa smoga diberikan yang terbaik. That's all. Big Amen guys!! AMEN

But for now.. Ah, who cares? Gue ga peduli. I have my friends right now. Really good friends. Ga ada yang bisa gantiin mereka. And thank God, ga ada aturan "milih temen juga mesti yang seiman". That would be really stupid. Kalo ada aturan gitu, mungkin kita hidup sendiri aja kali ye? Di gua ato dimana, biar ga ketemu manusia satupun. Supaya kita ga tau ada makhluk yang namanya manusia, dimana kita bisa saling berinteraksi, berteman, berbagi kasih.

Iiih, siapa yang pacaran sih? Orang gue blum punya pacar kok, dasar rese. Lu kira nyari pacar gampang? Plus aturan-aturan dunia ini (atau aturan kalian ya?) yang musti seiman, sesuku, sebangsa, setanah air segala.

Oh God, help.

*dan gue inget gue pernah nulis tulisan kayak gini

Greeting 2009

Holla!! It's 1st January of 2009!! Happy 2009 everybody!

Actually, writing the number "2009"  here is kinda freaking me out. Why? Because this means, next year is 2010! And I'm supposed to be graduated from this lovely college next year. Lord Jesus... Bless me..

Anyway, another new year, another resolutions made.. Ah, resolutions, it's such a very great commitment to make your life a little bit meaningful , that is, if only we can just keep those resolutions.

So what's the point of making unrealistic resolutions if at the end of the year we just can't keep our words and promises? Well, everybody loves dreaming, wishing for something better, right? So why don't we make another resolutions list this year? Yep, make yourself a drop down list of cool resolutions ppl! And here are some of my new year's resolutions list (just a sneak peek, I wouldn't write them all down here duh!)..

1. Spend more time with God. Oh Heaven, have mercy on me... (What's this? "bad boy gone good"?)
2. Be a nice person. Everyday. That includes: less offensive rude words; giving people a very warm personality; no more fake praising, praising should be from the very bottom of my heart- as if..; minimize cynical mean look; and so on.. (Again, this one is feasible, yet hard to do)
3. Concentrate on my study. Gosh, what was I doing in the whole last year?
4. ... and lot's more. Well, many of them are umm.. personal, hahaha..

Despite the lame new year's eve party with my mom's family -that is I'm staying in my room, on my bed, in front of the TV, watching 30 rock marathon all day long, while all the elder, uncles and aunties were having those lame sweet talk conversation thingy, and the little cousins were gone crazy, running everywhere in the house, making hideous screams and laughs, and often bouncing on my bed like they thing it was a trampoline or something- The barbeque was great actually. Yeah, I just love barbeque. But still, I miss those midnight praying times with my family (yeah, we always did that thing, in Batak culture we call it martangiang - literally means praying, so that God would hear our plea. Making introspection to ourselves for bad things we did in a whole year, and make a new bright commitment for the next year).

Another major thing I already made on this very first day of the year was... changing my pencil case !!  It is made from nylon or something, an it has this fishing net texture, you know, like the one they use for fishing (LOL), or like the one they use for sewing or knitting stuff. Actually, only the color changes, from shinny cheerful banana yellow - well, it's a little bit ewwey gooey slimy green now, due to some spills and aging, look at the picture, haha- To sizzling hot chili red,my favorite color!  Heheh, I came across this unbelievably similar thing a few days ago. Don't know, are they siblings or something?

Anyway, I keep the purple hard rock pin and the Empire State New York key chain with my name written on it. The contains are all the same. Hope this new flaming thing will bring many good luck this year! Yeah right :p

Once again, Happy New Year 2009! Hope this one is another good year :)

-Pete-

Veni Domine

Have heard about "Inspirational Moments 2"? It's a compilation album released by EMI records, some years ago (I think it was around late 90's, I was still a school kid back then).

I just found this long lost album when I browsed my friend's music, and coincidentally came across this thing.

Listening to these kind of "mystical" songs are somewhat mm.. "spiritual" *yearite~ And freak enough. LOL.

Anyway, I like this song, Veni Domine by Bara Basikova. It's a Latin song - cool huh? The lyrics are deep, about praise to the Lord. *Does this means that I'm a good Christian now? :p

Veni Domine - Bara Basikova

VENI DOMINE

Deus meus in te confido

labia mea laudabunt te Jesu

agnus dei in te confido

audi voces te adorant, te precantes

animam meam levavi ad te

Benedictus tu coqnovisti me

te laudamus veni domine

Deus meus inte confido

defende nos ab hostibus Jesu

agnus dei in te confido

presta pacis incrementum, memento verbi

animam meam levavi ad te

Benedictus - miserere nobis

te laudamus veni domine

Deus meus in te confido

agnus dei qui tolis preccata mundi

sine te nihil est in domine

Jesu Christe, Redemptor omnium

te laudamus veni domine

And here's the English translation, credits to enbrethiliel

COME, LORD

My God, I trust in You.

My lips will praise You, Jesus.

Lamb of God, I trust in You.

Listen, voices adore You, praying to you

I have lifted up my soul to You.

Blessed are You; You have understood me.

We praise You. Come, Lord!

My God, I trust in You.

Defend us from the enemies, Jesus.

Lamb of God, I trust in You.

Help the increase of peace. Remember Your word.

I have lifted up my soul to You.

Blessed One, have mercy on us.

We praise you. Come, Lord!

My God, I trust in You.

Lamb of God Who takes up the sins of the world.

Without You, no one is in the Lord.

Jesus Christ, Redeemer of all,

We praise you. Come, Lord!

source: lettersfromnz, enbrethiliel, ay_link

2008 Christmas

It's Christmas people! So let me greet the world with a nice season's greetings:

Feliz Navidad, próspero año y felicidad!

(It means Merry Christmas, prosperous year and happiness!)

Actually this is the very first time for me to spend a Christmas moment without my family (mom, dad, sis, you all got my message didn't you?) Happy Christmas to you guys, and I really hope to see all of you next year -which means, a couple of weeks from now hoho-

Never mind, I actually enjoyed this year Christmas - except that homesick feeling, it's kinda tough actually :(.

I was emotionally - and spiritually - drawn when people sang that classic "Silent Night" Christmas song - with all the candles of course. First I thought it would be pretty lame, just as I always thought in those past years. I was like, oh come on, we're wasting fossil energy here~ can we just skip this song?

But that's not the case this year. I surprisingly enjoyed that private moment with God. Haha.. thank goodness, I finally got something from going to church :p

This year's Christmas message was mmm, about "Spare your time with God more often" or something like that. And believe me, I do really get the message. Seriously. Hope I can be a better person from now.

O yeah, I like that performance those vocal group in Church showed last night. The song was "My grown up Christmas list". I like the lyrics though. And the piano arrangement were good. I should give it a try sometimes. That is, next year! Hahah.

Owyeah, along with the Christmas spirit. I recently began to enjoy (again) this bond song, "Jingle Bell Rock". I was so mad about this song for a couple of days ago, and I tried to play the violin part. Hoho,, it's kinda easy actually. I love it :

The greetings today are -as usual- abundant. Especially from SMS. It's always like that when it comes to national holiday, or big even blabla... Still, I didn't get any from her.. (Huhu, like that will ever going to happen lol XD). Naah, I shouldn't expect to much about that...

Anyway, once again Merry Christmas to all of you! Send me some presents ok?? :p (babe, have you got my present??)

"BHP: Making another huge gap between people and education?"

Why when it comes for our Government to make a major decision, controversies always emerge everywhere?

It is pathetic.

Our government doesn't place education at the first place. Although they have raised the number of educational grant, it's still not enough. We need much more than just 'small gifts'. People need a huge amount of long-term, continuous educational aid.

Unfortunately, We -here in Indonesia- have lots more problems than what our neighbors have. Our neighbors don't have to deal with famine, health issue, corruption, and lots other obstacles, difficulties that are constraining one's country to go forward.

I have met lots of people who are not as 'lucky' as me. Many of my friends on high school, junior high school, or even on elementary school, weren't lucky enough to continue their study. They ended up working instead. In fact, some of those 'unlucky' people might be way better than me, they got talent, they're pretty smart actually, and more hardworking. Unfortunately, finance is their constrain to achieve higher education.

In my view, education must be top prioritized, among others. Our government should really concern about this issue. We have to learn from other country. Consider Malaysia and some other countries. Schools are for free!

Education must be made accessible for all people (by term 'accessible', I refer to 'free' education. No more tuition fee!). At least for some generations. By doing such thing, I hope it will eventually build up such foundations, basics that are fundamental in order to escape people from poverty, taking our nation into the next level i.e. a more prosperous nation.

I say, BHP will somehow deteriorate many poor people's access to higher education: schools and educational institutions will suck up people's money to pay their operational costs, employees' wages, etc. Tuition cost will be sky rocketing! It's sad, considering only rich people will get a taste of college life, being a high-class worker, and live happily. While in the other hand, those 'unlucky' people will be more and more left behind, facing difficulties and obstacles in their attempt to get away from poverty.

Even though the government said that this BHP implementation won't affect much aspects, as we know, it is more easily said than done.

Ultimately, I personally can only hope, that this BHP-thing will came up with good impact for goodness sake.

-Pete-