Chill guys, I'm cool

Siang itu, gue dapet SMS:

"Bang, mama denger kamu udah punya pacar ya? Koq ga bilang-bilang? Mama sih ga ngelarang, cuma kalo nyari pacar kalo bisa yang seiman ya"

Huh, cape deh. Waktu gue dapet SMS itu, gue diem aja. Biasa aja malah. Bahkan gue rada tertawa dalam hati.

"Haha, dapet gosip dari mana nih si mama? Pasti si uli & baby udah ngarang yang nggak-nggak, lagian siapa yang pacaran juga?", pikir gue.

Gue ga bales SMS mama. Anggap angin lalu.

Tapi rada lama kemudian gue mikir. "Seiman. Hmmf, segitu  pentingnya kah kriteria itu dalam pacaran? Emang apa ruginya kalo punya pacar yang beda agama? Trus kalo agamanya sama, bakal jadi jaminan hidup okeh gitu? Belum tentu juga kan?"

...

Yah, gue cuma bisa berdoa smoga diberikan yang terbaik. That's all. Big Amen guys!! AMEN

But for now.. Ah, who cares? Gue ga peduli. I have my friends right now. Really good friends. Ga ada yang bisa gantiin mereka. And thank God, ga ada aturan "milih temen juga mesti yang seiman". That would be really stupid. Kalo ada aturan gitu, mungkin kita hidup sendiri aja kali ye? Di gua ato dimana, biar ga ketemu manusia satupun. Supaya kita ga tau ada makhluk yang namanya manusia, dimana kita bisa saling berinteraksi, berteman, berbagi kasih.

Iiih, siapa yang pacaran sih? Orang gue blum punya pacar kok, dasar rese. Lu kira nyari pacar gampang? Plus aturan-aturan dunia ini (atau aturan kalian ya?) yang musti seiman, sesuku, sebangsa, setanah air segala.

Oh God, help.

*dan gue inget gue pernah nulis tulisan kayak gini

Greeting 2009

Holla!! It's 1st January of 2009!! Happy 2009 everybody!

Actually, writing the number "2009"  here is kinda freaking me out. Why? Because this means, next year is 2010! And I'm supposed to be graduated from this lovely college next year. Lord Jesus... Bless me..

Anyway, another new year, another resolutions made.. Ah, resolutions, it's such a very great commitment to make your life a little bit meaningful , that is, if only we can just keep those resolutions.

So what's the point of making unrealistic resolutions if at the end of the year we just can't keep our words and promises? Well, everybody loves dreaming, wishing for something better, right? So why don't we make another resolutions list this year? Yep, make yourself a drop down list of cool resolutions ppl! And here are some of my new year's resolutions list (just a sneak peek, I wouldn't write them all down here duh!)..

1. Spend more time with God. Oh Heaven, have mercy on me... (What's this? "bad boy gone good"?)
2. Be a nice person. Everyday. That includes: less offensive rude words; giving people a very warm personality; no more fake praising, praising should be from the very bottom of my heart- as if..; minimize cynical mean look; and so on.. (Again, this one is feasible, yet hard to do)
3. Concentrate on my study. Gosh, what was I doing in the whole last year?
4. ... and lot's more. Well, many of them are umm.. personal, hahaha..

Despite the lame new year's eve party with my mom's family -that is I'm staying in my room, on my bed, in front of the TV, watching 30 rock marathon all day long, while all the elder, uncles and aunties were having those lame sweet talk conversation thingy, and the little cousins were gone crazy, running everywhere in the house, making hideous screams and laughs, and often bouncing on my bed like they thing it was a trampoline or something- The barbeque was great actually. Yeah, I just love barbeque. But still, I miss those midnight praying times with my family (yeah, we always did that thing, in Batak culture we call it martangiang - literally means praying, so that God would hear our plea. Making introspection to ourselves for bad things we did in a whole year, and make a new bright commitment for the next year).

Another major thing I already made on this very first day of the year was... changing my pencil case !!  It is made from nylon or something, an it has this fishing net texture, you know, like the one they use for fishing (LOL), or like the one they use for sewing or knitting stuff. Actually, only the color changes, from shinny cheerful banana yellow - well, it's a little bit ewwey gooey slimy green now, due to some spills and aging, look at the picture, haha- To sizzling hot chili red,my favorite color!  Heheh, I came across this unbelievably similar thing a few days ago. Don't know, are they siblings or something?

Anyway, I keep the purple hard rock pin and the Empire State New York key chain with my name written on it. The contains are all the same. Hope this new flaming thing will bring many good luck this year! Yeah right :p

Once again, Happy New Year 2009! Hope this one is another good year :)

-Pete-

Veni Domine

Have heard about "Inspirational Moments 2"? It's a compilation album released by EMI records, some years ago (I think it was around late 90's, I was still a school kid back then).

I just found this long lost album when I browsed my friend's music, and coincidentally came across this thing.

Listening to these kind of "mystical" songs are somewhat mm.. "spiritual" *yearite~ And freak enough. LOL.

Anyway, I like this song, Veni Domine by Bara Basikova. It's a Latin song - cool huh? The lyrics are deep, about praise to the Lord. *Does this means that I'm a good Christian now? :p

Veni Domine - Bara Basikova

VENI DOMINE

Deus meus in te confido

labia mea laudabunt te Jesu

agnus dei in te confido

audi voces te adorant, te precantes

animam meam levavi ad te

Benedictus tu coqnovisti me

te laudamus veni domine

Deus meus inte confido

defende nos ab hostibus Jesu

agnus dei in te confido

presta pacis incrementum, memento verbi

animam meam levavi ad te

Benedictus - miserere nobis

te laudamus veni domine

Deus meus in te confido

agnus dei qui tolis preccata mundi

sine te nihil est in domine

Jesu Christe, Redemptor omnium

te laudamus veni domine

And here's the English translation, credits to enbrethiliel

COME, LORD

My God, I trust in You.

My lips will praise You, Jesus.

Lamb of God, I trust in You.

Listen, voices adore You, praying to you

I have lifted up my soul to You.

Blessed are You; You have understood me.

We praise You. Come, Lord!

My God, I trust in You.

Defend us from the enemies, Jesus.

Lamb of God, I trust in You.

Help the increase of peace. Remember Your word.

I have lifted up my soul to You.

Blessed One, have mercy on us.

We praise you. Come, Lord!

My God, I trust in You.

Lamb of God Who takes up the sins of the world.

Without You, no one is in the Lord.

Jesus Christ, Redeemer of all,

We praise you. Come, Lord!

source: lettersfromnz, enbrethiliel, ay_link

2008 Christmas

It's Christmas people! So let me greet the world with a nice season's greetings:

Feliz Navidad, próspero año y felicidad!

(It means Merry Christmas, prosperous year and happiness!)

Actually this is the very first time for me to spend a Christmas moment without my family (mom, dad, sis, you all got my message didn't you?) Happy Christmas to you guys, and I really hope to see all of you next year -which means, a couple of weeks from now hoho-

Never mind, I actually enjoyed this year Christmas - except that homesick feeling, it's kinda tough actually :(.

I was emotionally - and spiritually - drawn when people sang that classic "Silent Night" Christmas song - with all the candles of course. First I thought it would be pretty lame, just as I always thought in those past years. I was like, oh come on, we're wasting fossil energy here~ can we just skip this song?

But that's not the case this year. I surprisingly enjoyed that private moment with God. Haha.. thank goodness, I finally got something from going to church :p

This year's Christmas message was mmm, about "Spare your time with God more often" or something like that. And believe me, I do really get the message. Seriously. Hope I can be a better person from now.

O yeah, I like that performance those vocal group in Church showed last night. The song was "My grown up Christmas list". I like the lyrics though. And the piano arrangement were good. I should give it a try sometimes. That is, next year! Hahah.

Owyeah, along with the Christmas spirit. I recently began to enjoy (again) this bond song, "Jingle Bell Rock". I was so mad about this song for a couple of days ago, and I tried to play the violin part. Hoho,, it's kinda easy actually. I love it :

The greetings today are -as usual- abundant. Especially from SMS. It's always like that when it comes to national holiday, or big even blabla... Still, I didn't get any from her.. (Huhu, like that will ever going to happen lol XD). Naah, I shouldn't expect to much about that...

Anyway, once again Merry Christmas to all of you! Send me some presents ok?? :p (babe, have you got my present??)

"BHP: Making another huge gap between people and education?"

Why when it comes for our Government to make a major decision, controversies always emerge everywhere?

It is pathetic.

Our government doesn't place education at the first place. Although they have raised the number of educational grant, it's still not enough. We need much more than just 'small gifts'. People need a huge amount of long-term, continuous educational aid.

Unfortunately, We -here in Indonesia- have lots more problems than what our neighbors have. Our neighbors don't have to deal with famine, health issue, corruption, and lots other obstacles, difficulties that are constraining one's country to go forward.

I have met lots of people who are not as 'lucky' as me. Many of my friends on high school, junior high school, or even on elementary school, weren't lucky enough to continue their study. They ended up working instead. In fact, some of those 'unlucky' people might be way better than me, they got talent, they're pretty smart actually, and more hardworking. Unfortunately, finance is their constrain to achieve higher education.

In my view, education must be top prioritized, among others. Our government should really concern about this issue. We have to learn from other country. Consider Malaysia and some other countries. Schools are for free!

Education must be made accessible for all people (by term 'accessible', I refer to 'free' education. No more tuition fee!). At least for some generations. By doing such thing, I hope it will eventually build up such foundations, basics that are fundamental in order to escape people from poverty, taking our nation into the next level i.e. a more prosperous nation.

I say, BHP will somehow deteriorate many poor people's access to higher education: schools and educational institutions will suck up people's money to pay their operational costs, employees' wages, etc. Tuition cost will be sky rocketing! It's sad, considering only rich people will get a taste of college life, being a high-class worker, and live happily. While in the other hand, those 'unlucky' people will be more and more left behind, facing difficulties and obstacles in their attempt to get away from poverty.

Even though the government said that this BHP implementation won't affect much aspects, as we know, it is more easily said than done.

Ultimately, I personally can only hope, that this BHP-thing will came up with good impact for goodness sake.

-Pete-

Amazing

Hehe, ini gue kutip dari milis, cool fact..

Luar biasa!!!

Pernahkah teman2 membayangkannya?

Pada waktu benda-benda angkasa ini diperbandingkan,

kita menjadi sadar betapa kecilnya bumi dan kita para penghuninya..

Jagad raya yang sangat besar

Dalam skala ini bumi kita tidak kelihatan lagi

Di sini matahari hanya sebesar debu!

Antares adalah bintang paling terang di angkasa. Jaraknya lebih dari 1000 tahun cahaya dari bumi.

Lalu...

Siapakah kita?

Apakah tujuan hidup kita?

Apa yang membuat hidup kita, manusia, berharga?

Masihkah kita bisa menepuk dada & berkata "inilah aku!"...??

Yah, intinya mo bilang, manusia itu tidak ada apa2nya lah dibanding alam semesta ini.

...

...

So what? Yaudah, biarin aja benda2 itu ada disana, somewhere out there. Kita sebagai manusia hendaknya menjalani hidup sebaik-baiknya. ... . Ya gitulah~

*Apa hubungannya dengan nepuk2 dada?? Hahah aneh banget sih pesannya.. Ato guenya yang kurang sensitif ya??

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Hari terakhir kuliah

Hari ini hari terakhir gue kuliah di semester 5. Cepet banget ya?

Perasaan gue, kemaren baru masuk kuliah bulan agustus, eh minggu depan udah UAS.

Trus gue bertanya-tanya, apa sih yang gue kerjain 5 bulan ini?

Coba gue inget. Hmm, yang jelas bulan2 awal kuliah kemaren (agustus-september) pikiran gue masih ngambang, masih kebawa suasana liburan.

Paling yang lumayan bikin gue sibuk adalah PAB ISO'08. Hehe yah, meskipun gue bukan pj, tapi teteup aja ikut2an sibuk.

trus, bulan september-oktober itu. Wuah, jenuh banget ah pokoknya. Dari yang bawaan kuliah nyantai, tiba2 gue diserang ama setumpuk tp + praktikum yang segambreng.. T__T

Hiks2, masih inget gue ngerjain tp JARTEL pertama kali, 20 soal, 6 halaman, tulis tangan, begadang.. Yep ppl, kehidupan praktikum udah mulay. Dan laporan2 (yang paling gue eneg) itu mesti gue kerjain. Dan itu bukan apa2, waktu akhir september (apa oktober awal ya?), gue pernah 4 praktikum seminggu. Awalnya gue ngerasa, ahh, sepertinya biasa2 aja, bisa lah~

Yah, ternyata, bener2 exhausting, 4 hari 4 malem bgadang, ngerjain laporan, bikin high quality bacot. That was the worst week ever so far.

Yah, disela2 waktu itu gue juga mesti ikut latian ISO, orkestra saya di kampus. Every night, 5-9pm. Kalo dipikir2, ngapain gue nyape2in diri ikutan begituan di tingkat 3 yah? Ditengah-tengah praktikum yang menyiksa ini. Belum lagi itu jaman2nya UTS pula. Argh, waktu itu bener2 sibuk, tepar, berat lah.

Dan ternyata, gue emang bukan manusia super. Hiks2. Gue ternyata ga sehebat orang2 itu, yang meskipun sibuk, nilainya teteup okeh. Bisa diliat dari nilai UTS gue yang biasa-biasa aja, jauh berbeda dari tingkat 2 dulu, dimana kehidupan sangat tenang, pelajaran gampang, praktikum ecek2, ISO rada nganggur, dan tentunya nilai2 UTS gue waktu itu lumayan bagus.

Sekarang semua udah selesai. No more praktikum, no more latihan ISO, konser udah selesai, ga ada lagi tepar2an.

UAS minggu depan nih pren.. Yang gue bisa lakukan hanyalah mengejar materi. Minggu depan ada PIE, medan, & RPL. Tiga-tiganya ngambang, ngertinya setengah2.

Mari bertobat, i still got few days to catch up..

We're sick ppl

Why do I and my friends turn into nasty bullies? All team up together just to corner, intimidate, a pathetic weaker person..

Bullying? AT MY AGE? Man, we're being nasty here~

Headlines

Hoho.. This is my first post this week.. I was being so busy in past few days. No chance for blogging. And now I'm posting 3 topics at once. All of them are last week headlines. A bit out of date actually. Well, now's payback time!! Obama.. O-what?? Ooow, Obama.. Oh-i-don't-even-really-care :p As the whole world knows, US got their new man of the white house, Mr. Barky O-baby.. *did i spelled that right?? xp What I totally don't get is the fact that my people here in Indonesia really dramatize the story. Our media here totally over-publish this election thingy. I've got enough headlines from E!, Channel News Asia, CNN, Oprah, and even on MTv!! *err... wait, did MTv do it too?? And our local TV stations here, they seem like really proud of Mr.Obama, just because he spent his not-that-long-period childhood in one elementary school in Jakarta.. OMG, that's so decades ago!! I bet Obama doesn't even care about it anymore.. The TV stations, they're just either out-of-story to publish, or they're just following trends from the US.. Pathetic.

Even the poor-rated local gossip show (say, Insert!, InsertInvestigasi, Silet, etc..) aired this Obama thingy all day the day he got elected, along with pointless local celebrity gossips, such as "The 40 y.o Syekh who wants to mary a 12y.o little girl"*sick.., "Dewi Persik", "BBB", and those other desperately-looking for-attention celebrity. They're sooooo PATHETIC, becoming a somewhat urban joke and humor xD.

Poor Obama.. now he is as "popular" as those stupid celebrity-disguissed clowns just because he's on the same gossip show as them.. =))

Geez, why would we even give a damn care about him? Our country sure needs a lot more attention here, we're so pathetic in here world! Come and save us.. :p

Porn bill... Totally lame... Get real.. Why are we limitting human's natural behaviour?? Okay, I know that porn is bad *fact..., it will somewhat degrade our morality and can cause some bad effects. But what I don't really get about this stupid porn bill is it's lack of limitations, boundaries, or the definition of porn it self. Totally abstract. This stupid bill doesn't clearly define "porn".. Now people are becoming more cautious about what they should wear, what they should say and publish to the whole world, only for a stupid reason: this porn bill. Otherwise, they will ended up in jail and pay some fine.. Say, if you're a damn hot babe, with naturally nice curves :p, wearing just moderate-closed enough T-shirt and apple bottom jeans, with no means of being slutty at all, you can coincidentally make some guys ummm... let's say, "sexually aroused"??? So, is this porn? Nope, I don't think so. The girl just acts plain. She's innocent. No means of showing off some "pornographic" display. It's just the guys dirty thought. But unfortunately, according to the porn bill passage, the girl actually comitted a "pornoaction".. sigh.. More web references can be found here and here And the stupid bill also stated that "spouse kissing", "sunbathing in bikini or swimwear", "showing off sensual part of one's body that can make other people being aroused (horny)" and many others are categorized as PORN.. yea rite.. Now they banned kissing on the lips in public?? Hello!! This is 2008!! We're not living in 7th century anymore ppl!! Do you watch todays TV shows? Kissing is sooooo normal *but kids definitely need parental advisory about this.. And what about those sports ads with bikinis? What about miss universe peagant? What about swimsuit modelling? It's so funny that now bikini is mistaken as a porn material, while I think they're totally normal. Girls DO Wear bikini's right?? What if a dude wears a swimsuit? Is that porn too?? Will he be accused as showing off porn material? Who's with me? And one more thing, can we really measure how people can be sexually aroused by other thing/other people?? there's no such thing as "horny-meter"... So I think there's no logical reason to state that people can't make/show/play something that can cause other people to be sexually aroused, because the passage is definitely lack of clear definition about what's hot-that will make you horny enough- and what's not. I absolutely agree that this porn bill indeed has some good means: to protect womens right, to prevent underaged children to be involved into porn industry, and to [somehow] help directing peoples morality to be better*which i doubt it will... seriously, they want to improve our morality by this way? I agree that porn is a serious issue. But to make a ridicoulus unprepared bill passage?? lawl... Ultimately, I think this porn bill really needs to be re-considered. And I think there are lots of other big problems our nation currently dealing with. Namely education, crime, prosperity issue, health, corrupt mentality, etc.. Mr. Am-rowh-zeee, and friends.. So, they're dead. D-E-A-D. So what? They're trully pure terrorists I think.. Whose mistakenly interpret "Jihad" as a mean of "creating world peace by killing each other, innocent people".. That's soooo not Islam. Moslem people I know are so nice and kind, they're very tolerate to other non-Moslem people. My mom's family, my friends, bestfriends, many of them are Moslems. And they're way too kind.. They're being so good and nice in person compared to evil me :p.. And as far as I know, all religion views in this world actually support WORLD PEACE, don't they? So there's no acceptable reason to kill other human beings. In fact, I think it's a big hard decision for our government to execute those Mr.Terrorists. And they ended up with a final decision: to execute them. To end their lives. Difficult choice. Hmm.. I just hope that this rozie-sweetie execution thingy won't cause more innocent civil people being killed by other amrozie's follower who wants to commit revenge... That's all~ Cheers =)

Evaluasi Mid Semester

Kenapa performa gue semester ini sejauh ini jelek? Karena pelajarannya susah? Engga ah, RE & sinsis juga pelajaran yang waktu itu susah banget, tapi gue bisa ngikutin koq.. Karena dosennya ga enak? Hmm.. ga juga, sebelum ini dosen yang paling susah banget buat gue ikutin adalah dosen sinsis n probstat.. Tapi waktu itu nilai gue A koq.. *_* Karena temen-temennya "baru"? Lingkungan baru? Hmm.. Ngaruh ya? Menurut gue sama-sama asik ah. Karena praktikumnya banyak? Sepertinya ga. Semester 3 dulu gue juga dapet shock therapy PTE 1. Laporan praktikum dikumpul 24 jam setelah praktikum. Emang pertama-tama rada susah. Tapi setelah itu udah terbiasa. Sekarang? Hmm... Praktikum kemaren emang bikin hectic sih. Tapi masa karena itu? Karena suka maen game? Ga juga. Semester 3,4 dulu kyknya gue gila DDR deh xD Apa karena gue kurang fokus di kelas? ... Emang gue pernah fokus ya?:p Biasanya gue fokus ke dosen cuma tahan 5 menitan doang. Abis itu konsentrasi buyar kemana-mana. Trus balik fokus lagi for another 5 menit.. Trus ngelantur lagi.. hihohiho Setelah pemikiran mendalam, gue menemukan titik perbedaan krusial antara peter di semester 3, dengan gue di semester ini.

GUE TIDAK BACA BUKU

Gue sekarang jarang sekali baca buku kuliah. Dulu waktu semester 3, gue baca tuh buku matdis, Rossen. Tiap bab, gue kerjain banyak soal. Probstat (lupa pengarangnya ^^! ada yang inget?) juga gue lahap meski rada2 ngambang bacanya. RE tiap minggu dikasih latian ama Pak Jon tercintah, makanya bisa. TekDig gue baca tuh sampe bab minggu2 terakhir. Sedra&Smith - buku khas elektronika - juga merupakan santapan harian waktu semester 4. MJ. Roberts & Chi-Tsong Chen juga kayaknya gue bacain. Matek dapet slide pak dosen, kayaknya ngerti-ngerti aja ah..

Jadi, kesimpulannya adalah, gue emang harus baca buku-buku yang menyenangkan ini..

SisKom. Sistem Komunikasi. ga peduli gimana, nih mata kuliah mesti dibaca bukunya. Gue mesti ngerti. Dosennya ngajarnya kayak... yah... begitulah... "sulit dipahami". Tipe yang ngajar pake slide. Titik. Suaranya juga sangat perlu pake amplifier :p Belom lagi aura ngantuknya.. Beuh.. Siskom tuh kelas yang dateng-fokus 5 menit- tidur

RPL. Rekayasa Perangkat LunakHmm... Kurang ngebosenin apa coba? Pelajaran yang isinya teori+konsep.. Asik sih, dosennya juga oke koq. Tapi kenapa gue susah fokus ya? Padahal gampang euh pelajarannya

Medan... No comment. First-half of this semester bener2 totally waste of time. Dosennya, menurut saya, terlalu pintar. Terlalu sibuk. Jarang hadir di kelas. Trus kalo dikelas meng"gampang"kan segala sesuatu, dikiranya kita udah ngerti medan kayak beliau. Dan satu lagi, materi ajarannya kurang terstruktur dengan baik. Lompat sana-kemari.. Buat medan, gue beneran mesti baca iskander.

PS. Pengolahan Sinyal. Okee lah. Meski gue suka ga nangkep si ibu mo nerangin apa, tapi gue at least berusaha ngikutin kuliahnya.

Komdat. Komunikasi Data. Hmm.. Gampanglah. Teori. Pengetahuan umum mah kalo gue bilang.. Dosennya.. Yah begitulah.. Kebetulan aja namanya sama kaya my middle name :p

Rekling. Rekayasa Linkungan. Gue lumayan suka nih pelajaran, dosennya oke, ilmu yang gue dapet juga banyak dan baru. Tapi tetep aja, kenapa gue bawaannya ngantuk melulu?? Guys, help me!!

PIE. Pengantar Ilmu Ekonomika.Yah... Entah kenapa gue nganggep enteng nih pelajaran. *ih parah banget sih gue?? Tapi ilmu & teori2 yang gue dapet asik loh..

Jadi intinya, ga ada satu kuliahpun yang menurut gue, udah khatam. *what??

Bingung.. Mesti berubah..

Hiks hiks... Gue kangen "gue" yang dulu!! Gue kangen gue yang rajin!! Yang demen baca buku kuliah ampe bego *loh?. Yang bisa manage waktu dengan oke banget.

Kemanakah peter yang itu? Yang UTS MatDisnya 100? Yang UTS SinSisnya seratus? UAS MATEK 2nya CEPEK?

Apa kemampuan gue cuma sebatas itu aja?? Halah apaan sih??

Apa gue tidak sepintar temen-temen yang lain? Hmm.. Bukannya-sombong-bukannya-congkak nih ya, gue ngerasa sama pinternya kayak anak2 elektro yang lain koq. In fact, kami semua satu angkatan anak2 yang pintar *yaiyalahya..

Ga ada gunanya nyombong2in ke diri sendiri masa lalu yang tak seberapa itu pete.. Pikirin masa sekarang aja. Gimana caranya lu bisa tetep oke. Stay away from kemalasan.